DECEMBER 8

1939 1:55 It was fun, but my, its late - And I was going to get home early! - After Bob + I went to the basket-ball game, we went up to Lee's studio + played modern music - Lee made tea + I did the dishes - 

1940 I am crushed, absolutely. (It's smart to be flippant isn't it?) - Hell, Frederick did not call. And after all he said last night about how much he liked me. - more every time we went out - How much he missed me - Phooey! - He muttered something strange just before he kissed me good night for about the 8th time. But I can't quite remember what it was!

1941 10:30 Have I got a cold! - Ground colors in technique class - listened to War News. (West Coast vulnerable) 3000 killed + injured in yesterday's air raids!

1942 2:15 - I'M GLAD I WASN'T BITTER OR REPROACHFUL, HOW COULD I BE WHEN HE WAS SO TRULY PENITENT? ... I HAD TO TURN HIM DOWN FOR WED, THURS, + FRIDAY! (I HOPE HE FELT ME NOD MY HEAD FOR SAT.) HE SAID IT KILLED HIM TO SEE THE CORNERS OF MY MOUTH TURN DOWN... HE SAID HE HAD NO EXCUSES - JUST THAT SOMETIMES HE had TO BE ALONE... HE HAD CALLED FRIDAY... HIS INTEREST HASN'T LAGGED, I DON'T think

1943

DECEMBER 7

1939 11:45 - That estimate was screwy. Real one is around $900 - So is our printing bill - Felt swell - but tired all day - Drew Gowns for Chilson - Went over to Don's tonight. 

1940 1:35 Am I a hypocrite? ...Or maybe a fool? - Wish I knew. (probably a combination. Right now, I think F. is quite sincere... I am sure, however, that Freddie is not pour moi. (I could do worse!) - ...Shopped all day in Sioux City (majority of gifts bought) And tonight we pulled taffy over at F's... played Gin Rummy nice, quiet.

1941 11:30 SEEMED VAGUELY UNREAL, UNTIL THE NEWSBOYS STARTED SHOUTING EXTRAS. - JAPAN HAS BOMBED HAWAII - DECLARED WAR THIS WILL BE LONG + HARD + WE'LL BE FIGHTING IN GERMANY BEFORE WE'RE THROUGH! - I PRAY CIVILIZATION DOESN'T ENTIRELY DISINTEGRATE

1942 10:50 THE CLIMAX TO ABOUT A WEEK OF BEWILDERMENT AND FRUSTRATION! Leonard SENT 3 RED ROSES AND CALLED twice - BUT OF COURSE I WASN'T HOME. NATURALLY, I WAITED all EVENING FOR HIM TO PHONE - AND HE DIDN'T! - I FEEL completely BITCHY... I HAVE A LOVELY cold sore... I WAS OFFERED THE LEAD IN "WATCH ON THE RHINE" OUT AT COLLEGE... "PAUL H." CALLED for FRI. 

1943

DECEMBER 6

--------1:30

----------ll is swell - (After what he

------------go through in initiation) - 

---------ed -

 Got first rough estimate in

 Engraving - About 1,000 to much!

--940 Nothing seems to quite penetrate the haze...Went to a 

 B.B. game in Vermillion - Blanche, Fred + S... I had 

 looked forward to it all week... Long ride down - and

 back! Saw lot of Auggies at U. - Press came. - wish I 

 could have been with them! The Edda was up for state

 rating - Hope it comes out okay.

-----2:30 STAYED with Chils and Marie - We saw "Sky-

 lark"... They are both dead. - I cleaned out room office

 drawers - Spasmodically listened to Wagner

-----SUN 1:30 - VIRGINIA + I WALKED HOME IN THE

 Bitter COLD.... WE SAW "YOU WERE NEVER

 LOVELIER" AND HAD FUN IN THE Chocolate Shop

 AFTERWARD TALKING TO 3 SOLDIERS... ONE

 USED TO BE A DRUMMER W/ Jan Savitt... ALL

 afternoon DECORATING Studio... PARTY WAS A 

 SUCCESS I GUESS. I DIDN'T THINK I SHOULD STAY

 - TOO popular!

 1943

DECEMBER 5

1939 Tues 11:00 Coming home from the----------------------

artist series (an actress who-----------------------------------

No Time for Comedy). Bob + I got-----------------------------

valued in life - happiness + future-----------------------------

1940 1:00 Thurs. - Another Grim one. I start out okay. And--

then those darn kids start piling it on. And I forget I wa------

ever supposed to be a school teacher.-------------------------

Gee, I get disgusted with myself.------------------------------

Eleanor's letter leads me to think-----------------------------

Thinks I am pretty serious. Well, I'm--------------------------

1941 1:20 I shall probably be an old hag- good for nothing-

by the time I'm as old as some of those femine---------------

faculty members (Party at Sally's) Don't feel out of place----

with them - Worked on Tempura panel today.--------------

1942 SAT 2:00 STAYED UP TILL LATE WRITING ENLISTMENT SCRIPT FOR THE Navy...

DETERMINED NOT TO LET THE FACT Leonard 

DIDN'T CALL, BOTHER ME; BUT IT DID... I'VE 

FELT cold ALL DAY... WE COULD NOT GET THE 

HOUSE WARM THIS MORNING. IT WAS COLD IN 

THE TOWN CLUB WHERE VIRGINIA, JEANNE + 

BARBARA + I HAD LUNCH -

1943

DECEMBER 4

1939 Mon. 12:00 - We wrote copy for "Picampus" tonight. - Bill + Carp brought me home (they'll probably be writing till all hrs tonight) - Bill asked to bring me home Wed. night from the Philo-Web party! - He's so young! (Swell, though)

1940 1:00 My first experience judging a debate contest - thoroughly enjoyed it (also the $3). I still feel like one of the students; Today was grim. 

1941 - C'est horrible - Guess it was waking up at 7:45 - When I had an 8:00 that started things out right. - Came home this afternoon + slept

1942 FRI - GEE, THAT'S THE BEST PHILO-Web PARTY I'VE ever BEEN TO... Lee HAD FUN too. HE SENT ME 2 HUGE GARDENIAS... I WORE Eleanor's FORMAL and MY HAIR UP... WE NOT ONLY DANCED all EVENING, BUT HAD SHERRY WITH OUR MEAL. CAME BACK and ATE SOME of PHILIP'S Birthday CAKE.

1943

DECEMBER 3

1939 Sunday 11:30 (I'm really becoming efficient at procrastination + all its afflictions) went to a very good "Thin Man" movie with Sara + Helen + Marguerite - then M. + I came over here and we talked about love, happiness life + marriage - She'd make a swell wife for some man (preferably with money!)

1940 My outlook (pretty bad) improved when Frederick finally called about 9:00 - About Friday. He squared everything okay. - I am happy. Also nuts, I don't want to go out with him - Day was intermittently grim + good - swell 5th person -

1941 12:00 GEE, I hope you can get oop in the morning - Didn't acc. much today. Gee, you're really earning that salary? Went over to Jeane's tonight - We talked (I listened) about HOUSE - FIXED lunch for Mother + guests, both

1942 THURS I WAS OVER AT STERN'S THIS EVENING; MRS. S + BARBARA... I MADE MY BLACK VELVET "HAT" BEFORE I WENT...

1943

DECEMBER 2

1939 1:05 Well, I stayed up + got my hair washed + (put up instead of just plain "hang" as I usually wear it) - and really scrubbed in a hot tub - Today I went down to Beache's + talked "cover" - took a driving lesson (Wilmer made me drive out to school + back!) - I bit off part of a tooth last week

1940 10:30 Dear God, I loathed today. And I hate myself... Could it be I don't belong in this racket! ...Ha - And then should be shot for even thinking that way... After all, $120 a month - someone called... Bobby Rees is a corky little fool.

1941 12:00 Bob got home from Mlps - hope he'll settle down now + be good - he + D.J. + I went down to Palace - talked - took sketches out to Mrs. Phillips this aft. Okay

1942 Wed 1:30 NO, HE didn't kiss me! - And I thought more of him

NARROW ESCAPE TODAY... WALKED OUT BEFORE, HAPPENED TO REMEMBER MISS LEWIS SAY SOMETHING ABOUT THE GALS coming IN AT 4:00. TURNED AROUND + MADE IT BACK IN TIME - I'M SUCH A DUMMY! - HAD COKES AT PALACE... ATE DINNER WITH VIRGINIA. MOTHER REDID THE COLLAR ON MY BLACK SUIT FOR ME. MISTER SILVERMAIL WAS OVER... WE WENT OUT. My HE TALKS!

1943

DECEMBER 1

1939 - Today I spent with Carp + Howard up at Madison taking pictures of the gal picked by Tyrone Power as the most beautiful co-ed in S. Dak. - Tonight he took me to the show - Carp is sweet but rugged + a little young. 

1940 10:30 Some one is singing "Ave Maria" - Wish some of its serenity would penetrate my existence - somewhere there's a jazz band interfering. I think it's quite symbolic. Today was gone before it began... Got back early. Fred called, said he was working - phooey. Harley + Bob took me for a ride.

1941 11:00 I DON'T DESERVE TO HAVE NICE, PLEASANT DAYS LIKE THIS (L WASN'T OUT!) - WENT OUT FOR 8:00 - NO SCHOOL UNTIL 12:00! - DRAWING AUXILIARY, SPITZNAGEL, DINNER, KNIT, EXERCISE, BED -

1942 TUES 12:00 WAS OVER AT VIRGINIA F'S PLAYING BRIDGE (FOR A WHILE) WITH MARION B. + VIRGINIA N. (2 OF EACH!)... I WORE MY SLACKS, TOO COLD TO CHANGE...

1943

NOVEMBER 30

1939 Thanksgiving: - Well, I really went without Breakfast (after many years of swearing to forestall it on Thanksgiving + not!) - It was nice... Turkey + Huckleberry pie + Mrs. Groth, etc. - for dinner - I ate too much naturally.

1940 Sat I hope I never go out with Hunk again. Yet I never want to hurt him! It would be like kicking a dog. Was a little bored. Bought a pair of shoes. - huge "loafers" - Definitely not school teacher-ish. - Saw Fosters - Not much Utley left Wish I could have done it! - lunch w/ gals

1941 12:00 (SAW HIM AT THE AUTO SHOW - WANTED ME TO GO TO M. BALL - NO!) - SLEPT TILL 12:00 WENT OUT TO SCHOOL AFTER DINNER - COLD - WILBUR WAS HAPPY. R.H. # APOLOGIZED FOR FRIDAY NIGHT - (WOULD LIKE TO HAVE ASKED HIM WHAT N HELL WAS THE MATTER WITH PAYNE! WONDER HOW LEONARD WILL ACT TOMORROW?) WE DANCED TO RADIO - HOPE REV DIDN'T SEE

1942 12:20 WROTE HIM A LETTER tonight - (he's in ILLINOIS) I WONDER IF I'LL HAVE THE NERVE TO TURN Leonard DOWN SOMETIME... HE DESERVES IT WHEN HE NEGLECTS ME SO MUCH, damn him!... And I WROTE TO DON GREGORY, too. I HOPE WE MEET AGAIN. I'M PRETTY BORED with STAYING HOME EVENINGS!!!

1943

NOVEMBER 29

1939 11:30 - Right now, I'm going to start reducing "tomorrow" - (Thanksgiving) I always have the most will power after I've eaten too much. To put it mildly I am a mess! (but I'll reform tomorrow)

1940 Fri Slept until 11:30 - Lovely... Went down town this aft. Saw people, wasted precious time Marg + Nessa + I enjoyed "remembering" tonight. Bill was supposed to call. Suppose he was angry at what I said yesterday Ha

1941 2:30 (GEE, I'LL HAVE A TIME LEARNING TO GET UP A MORNING AFTER THIS 10:30 A.M. JAG!) LEONARD MANAGED TO SPOIL MOST OF MY DAY BUT SALVAGED A FEW PRECIOUS HOURS - ) JO WAS OVER - GAVE HER SOME BALLET LESSONS FOR "ESSIE" - HOPE SHE DOES GRAY - 

1942 12:30 THE DAY DIDN'T END ON AS SOUR A NOTE AS I HAD EXPECTED... I WENT OVER TO BACH'S THIS AFT. FOR A WHILE, WROTE SOME LETTERS TONIGHT - DURING AGONIZING VOID FROM 6-8 - LATER ELEANOR + BILL + I WENT OVER TO DOW'S AND ATE CHOCLATE ICE CREAM...

1943

NOVEMBER 28

1939 1:00 HEAVEN help me if I don't get up at a more reasonable hour tomorrow morning. (Bed always seems most comfortable about the time you have to leave it!) Finished the 1st little dummy today I hope it isn't too extravagant...

1940 We ate at home today... It was more work for Mother than I planned on, even if it was just us 3... Bob, D.J. + Emil came over tonight. Bob has a new suit. Emil disgusted me a little. No Sense. Bob is so damn sweet.

1941 FRI I HOPE THE NEXT TIME I FALL IN LOVE IT WILL BE WITH SOMEONE WHO POSSESSES A LITTLE UNDERSTANDING + COOPERATIVENESS. IT WILL BE HARD TO FORGET LEONARD, CONSIDERING HIS RELATIVE PROXIMITY. WE WERE OVER AT D.J'S - POPCORN, BEER, RECORDS - AND PHLEGMATIC CONSTITUENTS - DAMN.

1942 SAT WE DIDN'T GET UP TILL 9:30... HAD SCRAMBLED EGGS IN THE KITCHEN... NESSAS CERTAINLY HAVE THINGS "NICE"... HELPED LEONARD PUT THE FINISHING TOUCHES ON MENUS AND TOOK THEM DOWN; WENT HOME + CHANGED, TOOK JEAN GIBSON TO LUNCH AT THE Town Club... MET VARIOUS PEEPUL... JEAN GAVE ME HER LOVELY AQUA MITTENS... I BOUGHT SOME BLUE STOCKINGS, A WHITE SLIP... SAW CLARA Joyce + IVER THIS AFT. I SHOULD HAVE SPENT TONIGHT with Clara - DARN LEONARD!

1943

NOVEMBER 27

1939 11:00 - And I was the gal who was going to start the dieting to-day! - Well there's always tomorrow! (I brought a chocolate cookie + Mlle to bed with me.) We had initiation of new members - it was very impressive -

1940 HOME - I WAS SO MAD; HAD MY REPORTS (6 WKS) HALF DONE - COME 3:15, COULD NOT FIND! - DO OVER, AND DAD WAITING! - LEFT EVERYTHING IN A MESS. SOME JOB TO COME BACK TO! ROADS WERE LOUSY, BUT WE MADE FAIRLY GOOD TIME. 

1941 GLAD TO GET OUT - EVEN IF IT WAS A BLIND DATE. FELT LIKE HELL THIS A.M. - CLEANED HOUSE... DINNER - TURKEY - LOVELY. SAW "THIN MAN"... AUTO SHOW - DYNAMITE - BACK OF SHERM'S HEAD REMINDED ME OF LEONARD. DAMN - FUN DANCING. 

1942 FRI STAYING WITH VIRGINIA... SHE HAS A GREAT DEAL TO HER - MORE THAN I GAVE HER CREDIT FOR - MARGUERITE  AND PEGGY WERE THERE FOR A WHILE. PEGGY IS THE ACME OF SELF- INDULGENCE... MARGUERITE of CRITICISM... HAD LUNCH WITH NAVY UNIFORM TODAY - ummm. ATTRACTIVE - HE CALLED FOR A DATE TONIGHT, too. If HE ISN'T MARRIED, I THINK I'LL HELP out WITH THE NAVY PROMOTION... 

1943

NOVEMBER 26

1939 Sunday. I just wrote 2 letters. - I've neglected Eleanor awfly - Well, I at least washed my hair + fixed my nails today. - And Sari + Marguerite + I went to a Charles Laughton thriller "Jamaica Inn" - so to bed.

1940 Gee, one more day to go - Tomorrow I'll be home! ... Wonder if we're going to Met... Don't know what clothes to wear. Fr. Class Play... pretty bad... If I hurry up + go to bed, it won't be long till morning - (Anyhow I can't think of anything important to write about!)

1941 Wed FEEL A LITTLE RIGHTEOUS - CLEANED UP THE ART ROOM - FELLAS WANTED ME TO GO Down Town w. THEM. NOPE. SO I WALKED HOME ALONE - PHOOEY... DESULTORY DAY. BOB WENT TO MLPS.

1942 THURS A VERY DULL DAY... I WORKED diligently ALL MORNING. CLEANING, GETTING THE TABLE SET. WE HAD A 20 POUND GOOSE... I READ MADAME BOVARY DIDN'T FEEL SO REPULSED BY IT AS NANA - HORRIBLE WOMEN - SOMETHING LIKE ME.

1943

NOVEMBER 25

1939 1:30 SAT. - I GUESS ALL THAT CUSSED NEED THAT PERVADED MY system is worn out - I had felt horribly nasty all day. - I wasted all afternoon "playing" in the act room (I felt like screaming all the time) - Bob + I went to the Sc. Party FUN. Bob + L + Bill + I went together until now

1940 12:00 Not quite so litterly nauseated with myself as I was about half an hour before - Did exercises about 25 minutes, took a bawth... Mentally + physically, have been mollycoddling myself long enough. More than anything I want to lose 15 pounds... Yet I seem to lack the guts to do anything about it. 

1941 Tues HAAKENSON HAS ABSOLUTELY NO INHIBITIONS THAT'S WHAT MAKES HIM SO MUCH FUN. - D.J. + I WENT TO ORCH. CONCERT - ASSIMILATED HIM AFTERWARD - BOB + LEONARD WERE TOO BUSY TO GO W/ US!

1942 WED. WENT OVER TO DONNA JEANS - WAS GLAD I DID... I'M SURE SHE LIKES ME - SHE'S JUST IN LOVE with LARRY... ITS COLD TONIGHT - SNOWED. BUT nice. WE ATE hamburgers DOWN AT Coney Island!

1943

NOVEMBER 24

1939 FRI. ROTTEN, LOUSY! - Went over plan with Mr. Eide and Leonard. - Okay - But sort of a let-down after all that pressure. - I never really know what to do next. - I felt so restless + depressed after walking home in the mist with Leonard.

1940 I'm still in a mist - only it's a fog, this time... I looked forward to seeing Freddie all day - Then act like a dope when I do - Nuts. His home is quite like I thought it would be... leather furniture... nice things... I was overcome with shyness, when I should have been vivacious. Can't I ever do anything right?

1941 Mon - GEE, I LIKE TO DRAW IN THAT SKETCH CLASS... LIKE TO HAVE A DEPT. PARTY! DID GESSO PANELS... I THINK LEONARD DELIBERATELY TRIES TO MAKE ME UNCOMFORTABLE... I'M IGNORING IT - OR TRYING TO - SPITZNAGEL WAS OUT - PSYCHIC - EMBARRASSING FAUT FAUX MATCH!

1942 TUES I STEPPED ON THEM A LITTLE - THEY QUIETED DOWN - FOR ABOUT HALF THE PERIOD... I'VE BEEN READING Nana - FRENCH REALISM - UGH... A SOUTH'N BOY - G.I. TRIED TO PICK ME UP THIS AFTERNOON - "HE SAID HIS NAME WAS GEORGE..."

1943

NOVEMBER 23

1939 THURS 2:00 I FEEL TOO MARVELOUS.  I guess its all the sleep I've been getting! Stayed home again this aft. - I really get much more done that way - people aren't always popping in and out - Dad + a duck came home - we had the latter + Bill + O for dinner - Went out to school. Bob is swell.

1940 3:00 Here we go again!... I actually think Frederick means what he says. He seems terribly sincere, at any rate. We went up to Sioux City with Blanch + Allan, Foggy - very - on way back. I felt very warm + secure + protected, however - Hope I sleep till 10 tomorrow... (Gee, I didn't write Mother!)

1941 1:30 SUNDAY - FOR YOUR 23 YEARS, DOPE, YOU CAN CERTAINLY BE ADOLESCENT - LIKE NOT BEING ABLE TO ACCEPT THE FACT OF

1942 MON 12 A-A-A-H, Fooey to teaching... Those gals are a bunch of little felines. WASHED MY HAIR THIS MORNING, TRAIPSED Down Town. 

1943

NOVEMBER 22

1939 WED STAYED Home until 2:30 today- got a start on layouts. - tutored my English poopil (he knows about as much as I) - Met T. - brought home hamburgers + ice cream cones for supper (Mother varnished the kitchen floor) - Went to Cr. Wr.

1940 10:00 Hellish day, again. Felt doped all week. Don't seem to give a damn about anything - this is AWFUL... I am doing a horribly sloppy job... and I mustn't! Hope I have the guts to do something with this! Migosh, I can't flunk out on my first job... TOMORROW! So to Bed. 

1941 SATURDAY - DESULTORY - GETTING COLD. ALL SAINTS POSTERS... OVER TO NAN'S - FARRAGHER, JANICE - NOT AS BAD AS I ANTICIPATED

1942 1:10 I worked from 11:00 until 5:30 Don + I had quite a party, wine, cheese Finished little man over the bar. He is quite gay. Had dinner (dessert bar) with John + Leonard. Leonard talked a good deal - about himself, mostly. 

1943

NOVEMBER 21

1939 TUES - WOW! - What a slump. - struggled out to callitch - I accomplished nil. - when I should have worked after dinner I collapsed on the davenport. - where I stayed until time for bed - Chum  I hope you do better tomorrow- 

1940 1:00 I'm not sure it was worth struggling through the effort - guess so - saw "Little Foxes" up in Sioux City... Bitter, raw, rugged... (I still would like to act...) No letter today, either. 

1941 EMIL'S RECITAL... I WAS TOO SYMPATHETICALLY UPSET TO ENJOY IT. HELPED LEONARD GET HIS POSTERS DONE THIS AFT (WILL HE EVER BREAK DOWN AGAIN?) - HAD WONDERFUL ROAST VENISON FOR DINNER... so WHAT ? ? ? ? ? ?

1942 SAT. (I wonder if Bob would have kissed me goodbye if we hadn't been accompanied by Ray - Valentine?) - I had a side-car - I hope I shall meet him again somehow

1943

NOVEMBER 20

1939 Well my first quizz is in...it was a lousy job. - I swear that next time I shall spend at least a wk on it - instead of 8 hrs. (the last 8 hrs.) B. Johnson typed it for me. - Missed her dinner to do it.. She gave me a B. present too.

We had a Philo party over at Mess tonight. 

1940 12:55 Stayed home tonight. Wrote to Bob - Made out my test. - Washed my hair in hard water... it will probably look like a fugitive from a mattress factory tomorrow... Think I will go to Little Foxes. Here it is 12 already - If only there were just 2 more hrs in a day!

1941 Thurs HELLO, DOPE... TANGO MUSIC... SMELL PLEASANTLY "PINK CLOVER"... M. DONAHUES WANTS CARICATURES ON REC ROOM WALLS... BILL + I TALKED TEACHING AT LUNCH... HE'S A SWEET KID.

1942 FRI Stayed up washing + blocking my sweaters - Strangled myself trying to inhale cigarette smoke, too.

1943

NOVEMBER 19

1939 11:30 - I struggled thru one question of the bogus P. quiz. It is due tomorrow - It always seems I hate to do a thing when I know I must - And I always wait till its so very late! - Sari + I went to "Drums Along the Mohawk" - Nessa stopped for a moment. She didn't remember my birthday. 

1940 12:45 Well, imagine that! I actually enjoyed myself at the wrestling matches. (Throwback to my primeval nature) - WHY didn't I come right in as I promised myself I would instead of taking a half hour to do it! - I definitely don't want Frederick to think I'm on the cosy side - even if I am!

1941 Wed WILBUR GAVE ME A BIG VENISON STEAK... HIS MOTHER SENT HIM A 3 PT BUCK. STRUGGLED OUT TO CREATIVE WRITING- CHILS + I SUFFERED THRU IT TO GET THERE. I'LL HAVE TO WRITE SOMETHING GOOD, AFTER ALL THE CRITICIZING I DO! Chils isn't HAPPY

LUNCH W/ GREGORY, PAYNE, ETC.

1942 1:15 MAYBE WE'RE MAKING TOO MUCH OF A "GOOD THING" - golly, I HOPE NOT... WE WENT TO A MOVIE, CAME HOME + DRANK tea... THE TIME AFTER THAT WENT very QUICKLY... I SUPPOSE THE REST OF THE FAMILY HAS CONDEMNED ME FOR IT! ...WAS OVER TO ALL SAINTS - I GUESS I'LL DO IT - FOR $40

1943

NOVEMBER 18

1939 12:55 It was no sudden flash of insight, but I realized rather suddenly just as I went to bed tonight that if I am going to "conquer worlds," I must first conquer myself: -- Although I didn't do so much, - I relapsed a little as the evening wore on, I believe I got started to some extent. 

1940 1:05 Well, I guess the trouble with me today (Honest, it was just like I'd been DOPED!) was that I was disappointed Frederick didn't call - At least I feel oke NOW... Gee, he isn't bad to take at all. We went over to REMSEN, danced 1 dance. He talked about Shaddock... He said he missed me last weekend. Hope he means it

1941 Tues DJ TOOK ME TO DINNER - CHOC. SHOP. WE WENT TO WKEND IN HAVANA - WOW - C. MIR. SAW BOB TONIGHT FOR A MOMENT - GEE THOSE KIDS REALLY WORKED.

1942 11:45 I THINK MY excuse to STAY UNTIL Christmas HAS MATERIALIZED... MISS LEWIS WANTS ME TO TAKE THE ART CLASSES OVER AT All Saints UNTIL RHODA COMES OR UNTIL SHE CAN GET SOMEONE ELSE... I'LL DO IT, IF IT'S WORTH IT... I GOT A PAIR OF white MOCCASINS TODAY... FINISHED DRESSING TABLE... LOOKS TRES BOOFANT... GEORGE ASKED LEONARD IF HE HAD A PIECE OF MY B. cake! DAMN! AFTER all my trouble!

1943

NOVEMBER 17

1939 I am really tired - but I feel swell! - Bob asked me to go to the Policeman's Ball - I learned how to Schottiche, 2-step, etc. Leonard + Bill came over later, - Nessa is home for the wk-end. - How will I ever get anything done? Marg + I went to Brookings

1940 HELL. I can't get any ambition - I don't want to get to work - I might as well go to bed and try + buck it... Guess I'll listen to Helen Hayes + Then - phooey. God, I haven't any guts... I'm glad I took the folks to dinner anyhow... I want to draw stuff. Am I wrong? - Gee, I wish I knew! -

1941 Mon GEE, I'M TIRED. - SLEPT 2 HRS WHEN I CAME HOME FROM SCHOOL. GOT THROUGH TODAY, ANYHOW - DON GREGORY IS SWELL - SURE WE'D GET ALONG

1942 11:05 TUES (I STILL THINK WE COULD - IF HE WEREN'T IN New Guinea - WHERE HE'S UNDOUBTEDLY SEEING action) I SUPPOSE EVERY NIGHT CAN'T BE AS ECSTATIC AS LAST - AND IT'S JUST AS well... I DIDN'T EVEN SEE LEONARD today, IN FACT - BUT golly, I THOUGHT ABOUT him... MADE DRESSING TABLE SKIRTS, WENT TO THE PRINTERS... LETTER from BOB... Roses, YESTERDAY

1943

NOVEMBER 16

1939 11:30 Well I don't feel so decrepit - I've had such a swell birthday - It was as mild + warm as spring - people sat around on campus w/o their coats - I helped Howard take pictures all day - I hope some of them turn out. Took shots of B. Johnson tonight. She is gorgeous. - E sent me a lipstick!

1940 12:00 Well, "Marion is Twenty-Two" ...Never had a birthday affect me less... I was a little bit taut about the time Eleanor called though... Marguerite, Nessa + Sari took me to lunch at the Java Rm... Saw Spitznagel + Henrich. Marguerite has a Fraternity Pin + Sari is going "steady" - Jean M. is going to married Christmas - Jean V. Br. also... Didn't get to see G

1941 2:45 Worked constantly today, some birthday. - Finished posters, went down + helped Bob + Leonard until 2:00

1942 LEONARD DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY (THANK GOODNESS!) BUT golly, HE CERTAINLY MADE IT A happy ONE FOR ME! HE CAME DOWN AND WALKED ME HOME (AFTER WE'D ALL BEEN TRYING TO WRITE T. Club INVITATIONS) - HE SAYS - NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, HE'LL KNOW HOW LUCKY HE IS... HE'S GOING TO BE "GOOD" NEXT 2 WKS! I MADE MORE LAMPSHADES TODAY. BROUGHT cake TO DON + HAROLD

I FEEL COMPLETELY A woman - 

1943

NOVEMBER 15

1939 12:30 Well, Happy Birthday! - I didn't think I'd be up so late that I'd see it before I went to bed, but here it is! - I'm free, blonde and 21 - I feel swell most of the time -

1940 12:05 Happy Birthday, Marion... Gee, didn't think I'd be up this year either... Thank Heaven I'm home in my own sweet bed - I'm glad I came home, Dance or no Dance (It would have been fun though)... I hardly knew if I wanted to leave, this aft... It would have been lonesome tomorrow... I must start facing things. In fact, I'm determined to.

1941 Sat God, what a day - I'm a nervous wreck. - Classes - making leetle sandwiche! Painted lettering - DJ, Phil, Beth + I ate hamburgers

1942 12:30 HELL - HERE I AM 24, I GUESS... AND STILL GRIPING INWARDLY about LAST NIGHT... SPENT MOST OF THE DAY MAKING LAMPSHADES, BOB + I WENT TO THE Orpheum AND THEN LISTENED TO Schubert AT STARKS... SAMPLED WINE WITH Leonard THIS MORN

1943

NOVEMBER 14

1939 Well chum here we've wasted another day... Or have we? - Even if I didn't talk about truth + beauty and what's really a foundation of Art. - We had a good time heckling the Artist Series Lecturer + I got to look at Leonard all I wanted too.

1940 11:00 A HELLAVA DAY, IF I DO SAY SO... THE KIDS WERE A BUNCH OF COMANCHES... THE AWFUL PART OF IT IS - I THINK IT WAS MY FAULT... NO GUTS... TERRIBLY SWEET LETTER FROM ELEANOR... HOPE I CAN GET INTO CHICAGO AT CHRISTMAS... CALLED HOME TONIGHT... BE OUT OF THIS TOMORROW... JOY. WOULD LIKE TO STAY HERE FOR THE DANCE; BUT YOU CAN'T HAVE EVERYTHING - I GUESS...

1941 Fri Got the boards sized, look okay - Alec Templeton + Clara saw Maragher - mighty sharp. Java Room - Alec sat for us

1942 1:00 DAMN! FRUSTRATION again... FIRST JOHN K. HAD TO COME ALONG - WHICH I DIDN'T MIND REALLY, HE JUST ENTERTAINED US INSTEAD of OUR HAVING TO GO TO A movie - BUT WE NO SOONER LEAVE, than BOB WALKS ALL THE WAY HOME WITH US! Migosh, I'D THINK HE'D HAVE MORE SENSE... I FELT awful THIS AFT BECAUSE I WORKED HARD THIS MORNING - I DO NOW - FOO -

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NOVEMBER 13

1939 Another lousy Monday - I wore my dirty old saddle shoes which made me feel young, but slightly depressed - We had a pot-luck over to Marg's - (Philos) - And then voted on new members until 10:30

1940 11:55 Freddie called tonight... I was all ready to get to work, of course I went out with him. Ben Hecht movie... It was worth the effort of getting ready... Saw Frank Brady's picture in a  sewing mag today. I think I'll write him again. - at least, a Christmas Card! - What'll I do tomorrow (Hysterical laughter)

1941 Well dope, you gotta produce some posters - you'd better make good! - Got one good lay-out after sweating all day. -

1942 11:30 ABOUT MADE A LAMPSHADE THIS evening - LOOKED QUITE ELEGANT - WHILE LEONARD + GEORGE PAINTED THE BASEMENT FLOOR turquoise (THAT I MIXED) MADE THE INKED DRAWING FOR MEMBERSHIP cards THIS MORNING - SHOPPED with DON FOR TABLECLOTHS THIS AFT... WE HEARD FROM R. H'WD. # -

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NOVEMBER 12

1939 This is the last Sunday I'll ever be just "20" - It seems odd - Well, part of the book is pretty well planned - the way I ate to-day it's a wonder I could fasten the band on my pajamas. 

1940 11:45 Feel lousy - Maybe it was exercised (I'm certainly not used to them) - Sleepy all day - Gee, if I could just feel energetic and ambitious... Few kids in school today on accounta weather, made teaching easy - 

1941 Wed Bill + I went down after creative writing to see how Leonard was coming. Hope he gets done! Bill + I talked afterwards - He is a terribly sweet fella -

1942 11:30 THURS BOUGHT DON GREGORY A ST. CHRISTOPHER MEDAL-BRACELET... I HOPE HE GETS IT BY Christmas. I GOT A PAIR OF NYLONS!!! (HOPE THEY'RE WORTH THE 2.15 I PAID for EM) ... MR. (+MRS.!) EIDE HIGHLY APPROVE THE TOWN CLUB JOB... SHE of COURSE, PREFERRED THE UPSTAIRS... LARRY + DONNA SAW THE PLACE TONIGHT... THEN WE BEERED at LOOKS!

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NOVEMBER 11

1939 It's always tomorrow when I'm going to really get to work. - I can't keep kidding any longer - the book will be laid out tomorrow. Today was odd. I worked out at school. Leonard did more in 2 hrs, than I did all day - Howard took some pictures of me - 

1940 11:00 Today was odd too... Armistice, and U.S. the only (one of the few) nations at Peace... I get intensely depressed if I start thinking about the possibility of facing a War- existence in the future.. Terrible blizzard... NO school... checked papers... thought about Freddie... and Bill... and Leonard.

1941 12:00 We are still not - literally - in the war. But that's all. It's a mess. We jazzed up the float barely in time. Emil + Bob + I chased down to see it. Dropped in on Muralists Payne + Berg. Hope they get on okay. Wasted afternoon with RH. Wrote DJ

1942 11:30 I HAD A BEAUTIFUL DAY - MOST of the TIME. FINISHED THE TROIKA, ELEANOR bought MY LUNCH, AND I WENT TO THE GAME with LEONARD... WE WENT DOWN TO THE bar, AND THEN LISTENED TO RECORDS. (I CAN STILL risotsky!) HE CALLED TONIGHT, too. I PUT ON MY RED DRESS, WE MAILED Emil's letter

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NOVEMBER 10

1939 My last home game - The last time I'll see Tommy + Hunk + Stan + the rest play such a swell rough game - And the last time I'll sing the "Fight Song" I'll never forget all those swell boys who really play the game.

1940 11:45 Where did the week-end go? Bang! And it's Sunday night again - Freddie promises to be very good interesting. I hope he sticks around... rather think he will. Sat through a rather dull movie just to see what would happen afterward. It did. I was mistaken about his eyes - brown.

1941 1:00 Monday - A heller - fixed up drawings, approved, but job didn't pan out - damn! - Hope Cale's does arranged "float." Class- Critic for 3 act plays - Helled around, painted art room came home Bawth

1942 TUES 12:30 WELL, WE'RE STRAIGHTENED OUT again, AFTER A SLIGHT "ESTRANGEMENT" - AS Leonard PUTS IT... WE WENT TO THE DANCE FOR A WHILE, THEN HE CAME INTO "GET Emil's ADDRESS" ... I WAS REASSURED WITHOUT ASKING TO BE reassured... I THINK HE IS WORRIED ABOUT OUR GETTING TOO SERIOUS...

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NOVEMBER 9

1939 11:45 Well even if I haven't accomplished so much today - at least I'm clean - Today Leonard brought in a layout for the whole book. 

1940 2:00 Life is exciting again... Bill called - wanted me to meet him in S. City tomorrow night... My God, he never gives up... I think he really believed I might be desperate enough to do it. Funny, I didn't even feel insulted... Dated Freddie tonight "Mark of Zorro" - fun. fun. quite. He is really a very smooth Joe --

1941 12- No reactions - as yet. Hope he won't take too long. Innocuous day - knitted did a few lousy sketches - Anticipated tomorrow. Went to a movie w/ Eastson.

1942 1:25 Well, Foo... Be glad to finish up the grill - Put on my horse today... He looks fine... Mother + Eleanor + Philip + I played bridge tonight. Earlier, I heard Orson Welles reading "Ballad of Battan." Made me feel unnecessary.

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NOVEMBER 8

1939 11:30 I'm alright except for a sore throat- Got a letter fr. E. - everything seems so exciting there - I hope she really likes it.

1940 12:30 I wish I hadn't gone with Harold tonight. Gee, I was so tired. We went up to Sioux City to a show... He was even more bushed than I - Had been to Pensen night before up + 6, broke concrete slabs all day... He talked a lot, but no action. I am afraid I was in no mood to "resist."

1941 I did ask Leonard if he thought we weren't wasting an awful lot of time! He wants to talk about it. Hope he doesn't wait too long. Spitz was out heckling. Met Earl for lunch - Margaret this aft. DJ was over tonight - 

1942 1:30 Virginia had me fixed up with the army - wasn't bad attal... I don't believe I impressed him particularly, however. I worked this afternoon... Put on 2 fencers... American forces are moving in via Mediterranean to Africa

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