OCTOBER 3

1939 and here it is “tomorrow” – I’ve been to hell + back again. – For a while, I really thought I was going to be Queen – Then when I brought my little envelope home and opened it up to an apparently blank sheet of paper! – but it wasn’t blank – Marie is Queen

1940 GA, BUT I’M WOOZY, CAN HARDLY HOLD UP THE HEAD… FINISHED THEM DAMN OLE THEMES (REACTION TO CORRECTING GRAMMAR ERRORS) WISH I COULD HAVE HAD MY WALK AGAIN TONIGHT… 2ND PERIOD ASSEMBLY WAS BAD…. I MUST CLAMP DOWN. BUT GEE, I DON’T BLAME ANY OF THEM FOR WHAT THEY DO… I’M A LUCKY TEACHER!

1941 – GEE, THE “U” GAME – WHAT A BIG DISAPPOINTMENT! – I WAS W/ MARIE + CLARA – FELT HORRIBLE ALL DAY. DIDN’T GET AROUND TO CASHING CHECK. I’M A MESS.

1942 SAT. HA! – WE BEAT THEM! … VERY satisfactory EVENING WE WERE ALL TOGETHER: SHIRLEE + BILL [AFTER SOME DIFFICULTY, I GUESS]… D.J. + BOB [LeonardGOT DONNA FOR BOB] … AND Leonard + ME… WE LINGERED LOVINGLY AT THE PALACE FOR AGES… SAT OUT IN FRONT FOR A TIME, too…

1943 SUN CALLED ON LOIS + SULLY. MET ROG – A SOLID CITIZEN… I TOOK VIC TO DINNER IT WAS NICE. HE’S CERTAINLY DIFFERENT. THAN WHAT HE WAS…

OCTOBER 2

1939 Well, tomorrow at this time, I reckon I’ll know if I’m eliminated – or an attendant – or (miracle of miracles) the other! I observed down at H.S. all morning – I’ll be under Lois Cowan

1940 PHOOEY, I’M GOING TO BED. I SPOSE I’LL BE SORRY TOMORROW… BUT WHEN IS TOMORROW? – AFTER DINNER TONIGHT I TOOK THE KEENEST WALK… NIGHT WAS WINDY, RAINY, PERFECT – WENT CLEAR OUT TO A HILL… A PERFECT CLIMAX I KNEW IT WOULD LOOK THE WAY IT DID… STARRY SOUTH… THE TOWN, LOW, SHINING, LIGHTED –

1941 Babe, what you need is a big dose of self-respect! ! And you’re not doing a damn thing about getting it! ! Okay okay okay!

1942 FRI I ASKED BOB OVER FOR DINNER. Wished I COULD HAVE ASKED Leonard too! – GEE, IF ONLY DAD HADN’T SAID + DID WHAT HE DID THIS summer! – SHIRLEY THOUGHT I WAS BEING DOUBLE X’ed – IT TURNED OUT TO BE HER. Leonard WOULDN’T GO WITH HAROLD + BILL – HA…

1943 SAT GEE, BUT WE HAD FUN; BUT I’M WORRIED VIC IS TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY – TOO MUCH SO. AND HE MUSN’T… PERHAPS HE JUST HAD A LITTLE TOO MUCH TO DRINK… WE HAD A SWELL DINNER – MANHATTANS FIRST – CHICKEN + CHOCOLATE CAKE… (+ VIC’S ICE CREAM!)… AND TO THE WALDORF – TSK TSK.

SEPTEMBER 17

1939 Sun This morning Marg, Marie + Dot + I had our little sisters over here for breakfast. – Pottery, rolls, scrambled eggs. – Very nice, but no-one ate enough. Rose + I went to our church. – I washed my hair + cut out a blouse.

1940 Tues 1:30 Brittle, beautiful, vivid… Gertrude Lawrence… The play wasn’t nearly good enough for her… Every time I see a play I wonder if really maybe I have something to offer – or is it a dream

1941 12:00 Wed Wonder how Bill + Leonard liked creative writing… if they got in the class. I was at a faculty party – But I shouldn’t sneer; I enjoyed myself + didn’t feel at all out of place. Had both classes out of doors.

1942 THURS I GIVE UP… Stan ASKED ME OUT… HE WOULD HAVE TALKED; HAD WE THE OPPORTUNITY! [DAD, of course, WAS LISTENING TO A BASEBALL Game] I DON’T SEE WHY HAROLD + STAN HAVE IT IN FOR Leonard SO… I FEEL LIKE everybody KNOWS WHAT GOES ON BUT ME!

1943 FRI. [OH, I DON’T WANT TO GO BACK! NEVER NEVER] EVERETT KROEGER USED ME FOR A MODEL… THIS AFT. I WAS LATE FOR SUPPER… MOTHER HAD BILL + OLGA, PUNKIN PIE FOR DESSERT. SHIRLEE, VIRGINIA, JOHN ALL CAME OVER, LATER. I’M TIRED. AND I DON’T WANT TO GO!

SEPTEMBER 16

1939 – Tonight E + I drove for an hr + half hour trying to find a pk. Place to see Carole Lombard in a movie. It was worth it.

1940 Monday – which lived up to its reputation. I thought I was going to go to sleep for sure in faculty meeting – agony – Dorothy’s sister was here who is going to Minn! Seemed nice to converse with a contemporary. MARG IS GETTING MARRIED! ELEANOR IS COMING!

1941 And the plane is over head… Does to me what wild geese do. Like to come home in it Some Day. – Didn’t accompli much today. I’d better step up production; If I’m to get any place – feel fat!

1942 WED WROTE TO HAAKENSON while LISTENING TO BASIN STREET… FINISHED DAMN’ OLE’ RADIO SCRIPTS… PHOOEY… NAUSEATE ME AFTER 3 of EM… GOT ‘EM MAILED… WE SAW Peggy OFF AT 5:20… SHE WASN’T PHASED… GAVE HER SOME CANDY and “NEW YORKER” – SAW MR. P, too.

1943 THURS MOTHER + ELEANOR + I WENT TO DINNER AT the TOWN CLUB… IT WAS NICE. I READ THEM SOME OF LEONARD’S SO BEAUTIFUL Letter. I WISH MOTHER NEW HIM BETTER, REALLY. SHIRLEY + BETTY HANSON, VIRGINIA, D.J. WERE OVER. IT WAS VERY NICE. I CLEANED THE HOUSE.

SEPTEMBER 7

1939 Thurs Well, Kenny G. is going to business manage the year book. I think he’ll be swell. – I’m really relieved. –

1940 11:00 Well, not much different than any other Saturday at home – Washed my hair, clothes, cleaned up the house. Feel awful about Mother not being able to get around better… V. told me she saw L. out with someone. I saw him this aft.

1941 11:00 I have red polish on my toenails + I’m going to start registering freshmen tomorrow. I must be dignified! Mother + I went to church this morning. D.J. went for a ride + had some crazy h.s. kids following us

1942 MON FOOLED AGAIN, DAMMIT. MISTER Payne DIDN’T SAY BOO ABOUT FRANKIE MASTERS AT NEPTUNE… WE-ALL WENT TO the PARADE THIS MORNING… WROTE A FEW LETTERS. D.J. + SHIRLEE AND I WENT FOR A RIDE… ATE POPCORN, WHISTLED AT SOLDIERS… AND WERE FOLLOWED!

1943 TUES I fed my love with tomato + bacon sandwiches + apple pie… We are desperately in love… withall… Played nursemaid to Jeannie + Kay. Asked L. for dinner. I was glad (the orchestra plays Shostakovich + now I can’t remember) – Just beauty – longing – happiness + sadness

SEPTEMBER 6

1939 11:30 Worked on “Molly” – ( I certainly hope she turns out okay) Leonard + friend were out at school – I couldn’t concentrate any too well – Margie + Ness + Marie + I went for a ride + ran out of gas on Phyllis Ave. – (My head aches!)

1940 3:00 Bob + I talked until 1:45… Maybe I said too much; I hope not… He is the best friend I have I think. He thinks as much of L. as I do. We were over to Eides and I met Don Gregory. One good reason I wish I could be at school next year! Seems good to be home…

1941 Sat Went to my first faculty meeting! – I’d do anything for Kranskow… Bob + L + I worked out at school this aft. Ness, Chils + Marie + I went on a picnic… Moonlight –

1942 SUN VIRGINIA + I WENT TO Holiday Inn. – MEDIOCRE IT WAS GREY and RAINY ALL DAY… BUT A BEAUTIFUL, MISTY NIGHT, withall… I READ Cheney, LISTENED TO TSYCHOWSKYS 6th THIS AFTERNOON and GOT MY HAIR WASHED. Gee. I WISH MY FUTURE WERE SETTLED. FOO to LIMBOS.

1943 MON Leonard came over soon after lunch… We went out to school. Oh God, it smells so CLEAN, so GOOD… Mr. Eide is the same, thank goodness… Bob + Shirley went to the dance with us. Leonard said should I stay? – Yes of course!

SEPTEMBER 4

1939 9:45 – Sometimes I know I’m just plain lazy – no excuses! – Maybe its too much * fried chicken, I don’t know - *(yesterday + to-day, both - )

1940 10:30 I hope tomorrow goes better than today. Honestly, I couldn’t have lived through one more class. That Spelling + Penmanship with 85 kids is just a little too much… I haven’t anything to wear but fall clothes and the weather is so warm…

1941 Will we ever get stuff going? It seems hopeless. It’s such a mess! I finished my dirndl tonight. I like it, anyhow.

1942 SAT SHIRLEE had US OVER FOR DINNER; I FELT STRANGELY DETACHED… CONFUSED… Leonard’s ANSWER TO IT IS NITCHEVO, WHICH IS NO ANSWER, AT ALL… HE ACTED QUITE AWFUL ALL EVENING…

1943 SAT Finally it has come! – (I thought it never, ever would) Everyone looked so fine… Eleanor + I talked till late, of course. Oh Leonard must come soon! – I’m tired but so very happy.

SEPTEMBER 3

1939 11:00 Sunday Tonight I squashed a centipede on the wall… I wish I had the opportunity to squash Hitler in the same decisive manner. – An English passenger boat was torpedoed off the coast of Ireland tonight. 1400 passengers… The president spoke tonight assuring the people of our neutrality. God grant we may keep it.

1940 I’m afraid there will be nothing very sensational to record these next 9 months… Every thing seems like it will evolve itself into sort of a pleasant, but busy rut… Tonight I went to Ladies’ Auxiliary with Mrs. Reeves –

1941 Leonard came out this aft. – We self-consciously avoided each other. – He is too much in my thoughts –

1942 THURS WE WENT TO "The Kid Grove Killer” – WITH SHIRLEE and BILL… [MIGOSH IF LEONARD TOLD BILL about THAT NOTE S. WROTE I MIGHT AS WELL LEAVE TOWN!]… I WORKED QUITE HARD today. ELEANOR and PHILIP WERE HERE WHEN I GOT home

1943 FRI

AUGUST 29

1939 Tues. 11:30 Started on the clay model this aft. – Wasted most of the morning getting started + talking to people down in the “Huddle” – Carlson is working on me for an oration – he’s flattering me outrageously – He says he wants to be my manager when I take the boards!!!

1940 At long last – Leonard. I’ve waited so long for this… It’s almost worth going away for – I adore him. I doubt if anything serious will come of it – But we both meant every bit of what happened + I can’t let him down, I mustn’t + won’t!

1941 Well, chum, you’re a year older + should be a year wiser. I find I can still feel – finished For Whom the Bell Tolls. I am a woman

1942 SAT LEONARD took ME TO THE DANCE. WE WERE BOTH too TIRED TO GO, I guess. BILL WAS THERE WITH SOME Babe FROM MADISON. NUTS, SHIRLEE WILL NAIL ME ON IT, too. I WAS HALFWAY MAD AT LEONARD all EVENING…

1943 SUN

AUGUST 27

1939 Sunday – Should I go, or shouldn’t I – tomorrow will tell! – I think I will (if he’s under 32!) – Worked (?) on Mannekin design – played a little desultory bridge at Marguerite’s – she asked me what I wanted out of life – “Everything” is about as confining as I can get –

1940 Tues Well, he didn’t let me down. Propositioned me right up to the end. Suggested we take apt. in Le Mars. I laughed at him, told him I hoped he wasn’t serious (I know he was). Went to Dentist, cut my hair (I hated to) + went out to Fosters turned my job over to Bob. I’d like to h

1941 Wed Mother + I went down town this A.M. – ate lunch at Shrivers’ + saw Bette Davis flicker. Was over at Eide’s. bought Pete a red crew shirt

1942 THURS 10:30 I’M GETTING FED UP with THIS UNEVENTFUL existence! [THERE’S A PERFECT moon] … WISH Stan OR SOMEONE HAD CALLED… DAVE WAS OUT AT SCHOOL THIS AFTERNOON; GUESS I WAS A little TOO PREOCCUPIED… HAD TO redo BLUE WALLS… PAINTED ART ROOM with SHIRLEY and BOB

1943 FRI

AUGUST 23

1939 Wasted a whole day – Shame on me – Some times all I want to do is nothing!

1940 Oh God, I wish I had never met Bill! – I had several methods devised for telling him off, and of course, didn’t use any of them. Well, the contract came – I can’t quite believe it –

1941 Sat I didn’t sleep last night for thinking about Leonard. Felt tired + dopey all day. D.J. + I went for a ride..

1942 SUN NUTS… I ALMOST WISH I HADN’T ASKED THOSE SOLDIERS out – ARTISTS, or NOT… I’M GETTING CYNICAL BOUT they’re BEING ANY good ONES… 10:30 OH, THEY weren’t BAD AT ALL. VEDDY INTELLIGENT. BOB RIEF IS EVIDENTLY NO DOPE… SHIRLEY FOUND OUT from BILL THAT Harold TOLD Leonard I WAS AT THE DANCE with STAN! – BUT I DON’T CARE BECAUSE HE’S BEEN DATING, too.

1943 MON

AUGUST 8

1939 I only have $19 left on back tuition! (Paid $75 this morning) I’m relieved. Job is progressing at K.S. 00. Mr. Eide thought I should ask .75 an hour, but I’m starting at .50

Georgia + I talked yearbooks tonight. She’s going to be an awfully big help.

1940 1:15 I suppose it was over-anticipation anyhow, something missed fire – I didn’t exactly enjoy myself on the picnic! It wasn’t a definite flop – just rather mediocre… Jo wasn’t there to jazz it up. Leonard seems determined to miss every opportunity

1941 Fri I am tired… Was practically unconscious all morning. Saw Mr. Elsom at Milwaukee. Not horribly impressed. Not enough money! Saw Mr. Franks! some storm

1942 Sat I WAS RILLY BUSHED all DAY… MY BACK WAS BAD FROM TOO “many” HIGH HEELS… FINISHED MY GREEN CORDUROY DRESS; SLAVED over THEM… MET Shirlee + PEGGY DOWNTOWN… WE PLANNED THE PICNIC… LISTENED TO Mozart’s G-MINOR PIANO Concerto. – LEONARD CAME over ABOUT 10:00 w/ BILL + SHIRLEY

1943 SUN

 

AUGUST 6

1939 11:30 I’ve finally found out the best way to escape responsibilities is to face them! Finally settled down + made a few sketches for G. – However I don’t want to be a comic strip artist. (Whoever it was called last night did not call tonight!)

1940 11:45 Hunk + I went up to Del Rapids to the dance… I can’t understand the boy – he is so nice. I don’t know why he dates someone as quiet + dopey as I was tonight – Guess I’m getting on in years…

1941 Wed Saw Mus. of M.A.A. – Met Igor P – Migosh whata night. – I was deluged with attention (must have been lack of competition) John M. promised to write me – wonder if he will? ?

1942 THURS WOW… BUT I’M tired… COULDN’T EVEN DO THOSE BLAME DISHES… HAD GELS over FOR DINNER… NESSA, SHIRLEE, PEGGY and D.J… IT WAS A DARN GOOD MEAL… WORE  my WHITE PINAFORE and FELT DOMESTIC… STITCHED A SEAM or TWO… PINKED ‘EM tonight… EXPECTED THE FELLAS TO come OVER; DIDN’T…

1943 FRI.

AUGUST 1

1939 Another day + nothing accomplished – Sam’s birthday – picnic at her house (it rained) I ate too much – I found out Ray took Daisy to the dance – No more am I caring!

1940 10:30 Sometimes I loathe myself so that I can barely stand it. – I have wasted this summer so far – and how, I cannot figure out – I hoped Bill would call – He did not – probably just as well as I did a coupla borders – (Marg + I met Sara for lunch – gave her a spoon)

1941 Fri Milli’s English friend is here so I sacrificed my bed (with secret loathing!) – Mr. Cisney dared us to go in swimming with our clothes on. Spike did. I didn’t, but after dinner –

1942 SAT WE WENT TO THE DANCE WITH Shirley + Bill I HAD MY HAIR UP – FOR WHICH Leonard TOOK ME TO TASK – “TOO DAMN SUPERIOR” – BAND WAS awful… FLOOR W. crowded. LEONARD WAS TIRED… BUT I ENJOYED MYSELF IN A RATHER INEPT WAY… HE TOLD ME ABOUT MISS Bernie… HE WAS BAFFLED TO KNOW HOW I KNEW – ha – MET D.J. for LUNCH.

1943 SUN

JULY 26

1939 Half a year gone - + so much has happened! – Karl + Dorothy are here – They want to know when I’m coming to Chicago

1940 Fri Hell – Eleanor phoned from Chicago tonight she can’t come home for her vacation this week, after all – I feel worse about her being disappointed than at our being disappointed

+ And a lot more happened this year! I hope it won’t be too long  -

1941 1:00 Well kid, the wheels are turning. This morning I got a letter from Ren saying Dayton’s + Auggie had welcome on their doormats + this aft, a letter from Boston Store saying Mlle wired them I got a tie for 1^st! – Mike got home safely tonight. I’m happy, if a little confused

1942 SUN WE ALL WENT TO CHURCH TODAY… (I DIDN’T WEAR STOCKINGS, EITHER!) – WE HAD WILMER + OLGA OVER FOR DINNER… WE SHOULD HAVE HAD SOME SOLDIERS, too. I GOT SOME SHERBET. WENT OVER TO Shirlee’s AND SOLDIERS… Damn MISTER PAYNE DIDN’T EVEN call.

1943 MON I HIT THE JACKPOT- LETTERS FROM LEONARD (WHO PRACTICALLY GOT HIMSELF COURT MARSHALED) FROM ELEANOR, CLARA, LARRY + HERMAN (WHO SOLD AN ARTICLE TO Esquire) – I ANSWERED MR. EIDE and WE TODAY; Herman + LARRY, too. MY LEGS ARE A mess.

JULY 25

1939 Virginia + I can waste a very enjoyable evening together – talked out in back + then went for a ride – (I have to push a little out at school, But I’m getting results)

1940 Thurs Worked today – Spitznagel took me out to Fosters’ – I was relieved to see they weren’t all finished and waiting for me – I should be sacked indefinitely, for wasting so much time – very disgusted

1941 Mike isn’t home yet – tsk, tsk. Too M G is fun so far – all morning and all afternoon rehearsing – swimming (cold) eat – shower – rush – Woods Hole – performance – home – talk – bed – (should write to Eleanor!)

1942 SAT CUT OUT MY PINAFORE… POO-EY… TO YOU, Mister PAYNE [AND I TURNED DOWN DAVEY!] – SHIRLEE AND FRIEND ELIZABETH CAME OVER – BOTH FEELING SORRY FOR THEMSELVES… I PUT ON MY STRIPPED T SHIRT AND WE WENT OUT and ATE ICE CREAM cones.

1943 SUN WE HAD A BEAUTIFUL DINNER – BROILERS. ICE CREAM, BROWNIES. I DIDN’T EVEN GO OUTSIDE TODAY. MY ANKLES ARE STILL SWOLLEN. ICK. I FINISHED Point Counter Point. ICK. I TOOK A SHOWER. WROTE Leonard, BILL + Emil…

 

JULY 21

1939 Went on a lousy picnic out at Gitchemoaton- Everything was perfect except my mood. Phooey on all men!

(I found out after I got home some-one had called – Eleanor said it wasn’t Ray!)

1940 12:45 Sunday – a wash-out, if I ever saw one… Bill + I went swimming over at Drake – Too many people – water shy warm… Went to a foul show tonight (Safari) I had a feeling Bill was utterly mechanical

1941 Mon Feel slightly ill… But okay mentally, for once… Got through my lines ok at dress rehearsal – Afraid next week is going to be a dull one… Sewed eyes, drew a portrait of “Lady Bartock” for sets –

1942 TUES WILBER HAS GONE… DAMN… WOULD LIKE to HAVE SEEN HIM alone… BUT PEOPLE STARTED COMING OVER… SHIRLEE, first. THEN BOB H. and BILL THEN JOHN + WILBER. Mother MADE SOME COOKIES. WE WENT after ICE CREAM… HAAKENSON surprised ME, RILLY… ESPECIALLY AFTER our TRIP TO 2^nd ISLAND

1943 WED I’M DEAD… I WENT SWIMMING. THIS TIME WITH NOT SUCH DRASTIC RESULTS… DOTTIE and CONNIE ARE fun, RATHER. WILMER WROTE A SWEET LETTER. (WHO IS MR. PHILIPS?) … MRS. STOTE IRKED ME. BUT I WROTE THE DAMN THING OVER. SHE CAN’T BEAR TO MAKE A MISTAKE! BILL HAS GONE!

JULY 16

1939 Sunday 12:10 After exactly a month – Ray called up - ! He is going to work on the R.R. again – We went to the race in Luverne to-night… I felt rather odd - + didn’t say much… on the way back he asked me if I could possible like him a little, again – He said he couldn’t explain why he hadn’t called me before, etc – It was the old thrill once more –

1940 Painted woodwork, etc today – (If I don’t get to work + make some money - ) Went to N.W. Passage w/ Hunk… He looked so nice tonight – all 200 pounds of him… I thought about B.C. most of the day… wonder if he’s serious… Should I go out w/ him tomorrow ? ? ?

1940 ? Hell, I wish I were home. Got a lousy Cockney Part in Fannie – which is a very dully play – Wish I were in Cradle Song!

1941 THURS WENT TO THE DANCE WITH DAVID… WE WERE ALL OUT SWIMMING – SHIRLEY, BOB, RON, PEGGY – etc. – AND I SAW HIM, THEN… HE’S VERY NICE, I THINK… AND I MUST HAVE made AN IMPRESSION on HIM.

1942 FRI OH DUST + ASHES… I’M INFINITELY DEPRESSED. BUT BETTER, WHEN I CAME HOME AND FOUND A LETTER. HE STILL DOESN’T KNOW! ( I THINK I WORRY MORE THAN HE DOES!) ALL DAY I HURRIED AND DIDN’T GET A CHANCE TO WRITE. 

JULY 12

1939 10:10 Worked 6 hrs today, walked 3 times (6 miles) + went swimming We go almost every noon – tonight, Mother + I have been talking about fixing over Wilmer’s old room for me- I hope I can do it

1940 Friday 10:30 – I was seriously unhappy this afternoon – mostly because I was tired, I guess. Bill + I went out to his folks house (to feed the dog!) – He wants an “all day” date for Sunday. I agreed, but I don’t know.

1941 2:15 Thank God that show’s over. – insects are buzzing in my ear. – a skunk lurks around our door-sill – we had a wild time getting home – I feel in character for my next part!

1942 SUN “MET” DAVID… (THAT WAS RILLY A SMOOTH PICK-UP, IF EVER I SAW ONE) – SHIRLEY, PEG + I WENT SWIMMING – MAYBE IT WAS MY RED SUIT. WE HAD SUPPER OVER AT PEG’S, THE CAME OVER + SAT IN OUR BACK YARD; JOHN K + J. de R. CAME OVER + STAYED and TALKED TO ME…

1943 MON Leonard wrote a dark, resentful letter, I hate his having to feel that way. Oh God, please let him have a chance… Had to come home this noon I felt so bad. Better, as the day wore on. We had steak.

JULY 11

1939 Marg is going back to the Hills in the morning – she wanted me to go back with them – But I guess I’d better stick to my job – Nessa + Sara + Marg + I ate hamburgers, potato salad – cantoloupe, sundaes in back yard and tonight Saw R. over swimming today

1940 This is killling me (but I love it) they all 3 called tonight! – Bill, the rat, about 8:30 – expecting me to go out with him then – Hunk came in during the conversation – I told Bill to call up his girlfriend of Monday.

1941 (Gee, the moon is perfect tonight… I wonder if Leonard misses me at all? - ) Slept until 10:30 this morning – Washed my hair (at last) Mike + I scrubbed our floor + rehearsed this aft. – broadcast a play tonight – “What a Life”, indeed!

1942 SAT PICNIC… WITH BOB BERG and JOHN and WILBER and BETTY Hervig + D.J. + BILL + Shirlee… WE WENT ON TOP of CACTUS – IT WAS CLEAR and BEAUTIFUL – and MADE ME ACHE FOR LEONARD. D.J. and I PLAYED TENNIS w/ JOHN + WILBER. IT WAS HORRIBLY hot!

1943 SUN There is a vague unrest, an uneasiness within me…! I’m restless, resentfull. What is the matter? – Got up + made French Toast this morning. Went to the Museum. Wore my dress. It’s tight.