JUNE 24

1939 Saturday 11:45 Stayed with Virginia to-night – ate dinner with her. – We drove around after the rain… came home + ate potato salad

1940 Mon Well I’m not going to bed tonight Clara + I are revising our play The Girls – We took Bill for a ride tonight… He then took us to a show… We talked for a long time afterward… He was swell in his own stupid way. He just doesn’t understand.

1941 I don’t believe it – I’m here at last! – Hm. – “Mike" is my room-mate. She is sweet, Mr. Trask met me in a station wagon. I wandered around Boston by myself this aft. Almost got waylaid to New Hampshire.

1942 Wed – Gee, still didn’t get any talking done. He asked me was I happy. We’ll talk “next time”. D.J. + Shirley were over. We’re compatible.

1943 THURS Oh damn. I feel so rotten. Leonard’s letter, written Sunday, came today. He is being shipped “somewhere”. I’d hoped + hoped something would prevent its happening. It was the climax to a hellish day… I’m grim, I know

 

JUNE 14

1939 (13th) Monday I guess it must have been a little farewell party I attended Friday – but I didn’t know it! – This is the 3rd day I haven’t even heard from Ray. It’s certainly a good thing I’m not crazy about him, or I’d go wild (not just mad!)

1940 11:15 – Well I guess I’m letting myself in for it but I’ve got a swimming date with Bill Sunday! – He probably just wants to tell me off… what the hell – I’m tired of sitting around waiting for Leonard to do something

1941 You had to wait awhile, kid, but this is what you were asking for, wasn’t it? – It’s terrible to stay out so late (3:45? Anyhow, its getting light!) – But gee, maybe I won’t see him for a coupla months – oh hell –

1942 11:15 Sun “Lonely Evening” personified. Is it that I’m crazy about Leonard or is it I can’t take being by myself? I’m sun-burned. Out in back all morning. Went bike-riding w/ D.J.

1943 MON WE HAD A NICE DINNER; SULLY + I WENT TO Air Force… GEE, I’D LIKE TO BE OVER-SEAS. MAKES ME WANT TO BE in this! WE DID EXERCISES…LA… FEEL FAT… BUT I WAS QUITE happy + extroverted TODAY… BUT A HORRIBLE MAN LEERED AT ME IN THE BUS – FOLLOWED I got groceries, etc. letter from Leonard. 

JUNE 12

1939 (10th) Saturday 11:20 It’s odd how long I can take to do something when I know I’ve plenty of time – I feel sort of lost without some pressure on me. I’ve been reading “The Prophet” It never fails to help me.

1940 11:30 Marg, Sari, Helen + I went on a picnic… We got on the war – inevitably – I’m so terribly afraid we will be dragged into it… We decided it would be better to be widows than old maids, however! I still don’t see any excuse for war!

1941 11:30 Gee, I hate to think of leaving this contentment. I’m so happy now just being home, getting up when I feel like it – having Bill + Olga for dinner – writing letters… I suppose it would wear off in a few weeks though -

1942 Fri 11:45 I’m a wreck – after another picnic. It was really too cold for one, but we went anyhow. Too many of us – too much food

1943 SAT Feel quite noble… washed out all my clothes and ironed them. pressed everything, too. Had dinner ready for Sully when she came home – Shopped for groceries, fun. Read tonight – Bed, early!

MAY 29

1939 Monday Wrote Sh. Test from 8:30 till 12:00. Practiced on Art Room Walls. - Ray + I went out to Neptune + watched high school from till 10:00 - then Mr. Eide + I got some cartoons on the walls - Also went to Picnic + to Philos

1940 Wed. I am sick with disappointment and disgust. The Eddas didn't come and I started to have a marvelous time at the reception till M.T. had to leave + go r. skating! - I did so want to do something afterward too - (Gee, I wish I could go to the dance tomorrow)

1941 12:00 - Well, its over. Seems so odd to just shut the door on one 9 months - a whole phase of my existence - I've never had a comparable amt. of time go so swiftly... Everyone was so sweet -

1942 Fri We went over to the U. - very impressive... Joe Johnson "waltz-houred" up... That was fun. - We came home, ate early + saw the Male Animal - had a glass of beer

1943 Sat I picked up a cute little Ensign down on a park bench on Riverside. (He is so young!) I was eating an apple reading Collier. I accomplished a lot of shopping this morning... Got some red Whippersnappers. I think I'll like

MAY 24

1939 11:15 Honor's Day Exercises in Chapel this morning. - All School Picnic Ray + Mick + Marie + I went - I came back for Creative Wr. + I didn't have to read my play again! 

1940 Fri Wrote a stupid test this morning. Studied this aft, and wrote another one... I have 2 make-up assignments + my term paper + then I can start making up Art.

1941 11:30 "And this too shall pass away" I hope! - Too bad my last few days have to be spent in such a hectic fashion. Slaved all day - I do too much. Don't make the kids work.

1942 Sun Gee, I'm pooped. Marie + I lay out in the back yard this morning. Dinner christening at Landseths... Kids came after me we looked for Lefty. - D.J. + I + Marie went to Shanghai Gesture

1943 MON HM, FEEL almost HOOMAN, FOR A CHANGE! - AFTER ALL THAT sleep LAST NIGHT, WOKE UP LATE; TODAY was HECTIC... "DOROTHY" AND I FELT IT KEENLY! - WE WENT TO A LOUSY FASHION SHOW AT THE HOTEL N. Yorker. I STAYED UNTIL THE Bitter END. HAD A Bitter MARTINI. - IRONED tonight.

MAY 23

1939 10:00 I am really tired - Did about 5 of the big cartoons today. - Tonight some of the gals went on a picnic - I didn't get home in time to go to the show with Ray, darn it - 

1940 Thurs Planned to attend my last classes in College today, and they didn't meet! - Cleaned out my two art desks + got started studying for Teaching of Eng. Exam tonight.

1941 11:30 It's a matter of living through " the rest of it now - Wish I didn't worry about this deal so much. Thank God, I've taught my last class.

1942 Sat 3:00 (Oh Darling, I've got it bad -) Mister Payne called me for lunch, but I was meeting D.J. + Marie - We went to the dance tonight... Silly fun. Saw Auggie kids all over.

1943 SUN NO chance TO RELAX - I'M IN A helluva MOOD - ME Marie FOR breakfast (SHE TALKED AN ARM OFF ME) - WASHED MY HAIR, READ THE Times ON THE ROOF; NEARLY died OF FRUSTRATION WHEN 5 buses PASSED ME OOP... LOIS + SULLY + I SAW THE APT. (Gee, I HOPE IT WORKS OUT!) (I FORGOT my money, couldn't eat with em) Couldn't get to see Ballet

MAY 9

1939 Tues 12:00 Drew pitchurs all morning (cut speech again) Saw Eide + S this aft. - Ray + I went to a moom pitchur tonight

1940 Thurs. I didn't see Leonard any more than just litterly - for a moment... I don't know... Worked today not on Edda - yet... I am very anxious to get on my stuff + get it over with... Bill called tonight - its just as well I was working... I might not have been able to stick by my resolution

1941 ? 

1942 1:00 (Gee, gotta get up + wash m'hair) Batted around down town + wore myself out - Bought another dusty-pink sweater. Got my shoes dyed green. And some makeup for me + m'legs + D.J., Shirley, Collins + I tore around - Tres fun. Saw Leonard.

1943 SUN 1:30 A fine, beautiful day. Got up and ironed clothes, read the N.Y. Times, took an extensive sunbath on our roof. Ushered at the tea, wore my grey dress in Herman came at 5:00 We sat by the river. Went to dinner at the Gold Rose. Went a double Feature

MAY 8

1939 10:45 Mon. Why must there be Mondays?Payed another $10 on my tuition still gobs left to pay. Ray called - 

1940 11:30 Wed. - I had lunch with Jean V. - She has let go something I didn't expect to hear - She is such It means a lot. I know now I can quit Bill - he means absolutely nothing to me.

1941 Thurs. another one of the same. All I care about is sleep. Must be an escape complex! Finally heard from Eleanor + got a card from Bob. He + Emil + Leonard maybe will be in Minneapolis - Just my luck

1942 Layout on campus all afternoon with Shirley - got slightly sunburned. D.J. + I mailed a letter (wrote to E) Gee, another week-end coming up -

1943 SAT Why oh why did I eat all that stuff? Ahh. Donna's birthday party at Barnard. I felt a little "older" - and was but enjoyed it... Knocked myself out shopping this afternoon. Gloves, blouse, dress, stationary, gift for Eleanor. Came home + washed all my clothes and my hair too. Ain't I a good girl?

MAY 5

1939 11:45 Marguerite's birthday We ate supper aver at Vercoe's - and talked - I certainly know a bunch of grand gals

1940 May 7 Tues - Worked 10 hrs. today. - Bill did not call - he is probably giving me ample time to regret my saying that I was not in love w/ him

1941 Academic tests. One time I was glad I wasn't a student Blanche was irked... ha... so was I... tonight we made nutcups!

1942 11:00 Gee, I hate to have Mother out so late - + working. It's cold + wet. Like to see the sun again. Leonard's going to petition to write that paper. (I'm glad) I've been reading Thomas Mann's Stories of a decade Clarifying + Confusing at once

1943 11:45 La de dah... Maybe we'll be living in an apartment by June. Gladys has a line on one. Gee I hope it works out. Met Herman for lunch. He was overwhelmed by my little ol' note... A little too much so. I meet him Friday... Mickey + I had soup tonight. Ate Good Humors. Blackout -

APRIL 30

1939 11:40 Sunday Felt tired when I woke up. Lay out in the b. yard most of the morn - Ray + I played tennis this aft. I'm a little sunburned - Sara and Marguerite + Nessa dropped in - So did Ray half an hr. afterward. He took us all for a ride bought ice cream cones - He is too good I told him he spoiled last night for me. I hope he doesn't think I'm serious! ! 

1940 Tues. Well Je suis fini! And what a drag - Every thought I had of placing in the P de P was non existent when that M.S. went in today. It was corny. I refused a date w/ Bill.

1941 Gee what a maybasket. Lorraine and Alberta, a great big one. Lotta pink in it. I've practically decided to go to Plymouth. Don't know if I'm doing right or not.

1942 Went to Skylark with Chils + Ruth Olam... Quite dull... Bill Blake had a very close parallel in the personnel of the Augustana Art Department. -

1943 FRI [OH GOLLY, PEG - YOU ALMOST SPOILED THE evening. HOW COULD YOU?]... AND I HAD TO WAIT THIS NOON AT MCCREERY'S FOR YOU SO LONG, TOO. THIS NOON... WE MET HERMAN AT 6:15, WENT TO DINNER AT Roger's, THEN TO KISS and TELL (WHICH WAS DARLING)... AND TO Cafe Society Downtown - RUM COLLINSES, BOOGIE WOOGIE; AND HOME IN A TAXI - I SHUDDER TO THINK WHAT IT COST.

APRIL 28

1939 11:30 - Dad + Mother brought me out to school and I worked on place-cards + decorations. Ray waited for me after he got through work. He is so perfectly swell to me. He told me to have a good time tomorrow night!

1940 Sun 1:00 - Well, I quit! - I really intended to get done tonight - But after a half hour ride with Bill - what's the use?

1941 Some much needed inspiration - Foley + Yolande. - suave. Gee, what a tango. Today came the P. appointment I feel I really should go. (June 23) - And might as well begin planning for it!

1942 10:30 [Hell, such a moon - outside the air is heavy with plum blossoms - and we have so little time...] Caricatures were all over the place this A.M. - Shirley + I added our bit... Washed clothes. Heard Pres.

1943 WED I AM NERVOUS and DISGRUNTLED - FOR NO GOOD REASON. EVERYTHING SEEMS TO irritate ME! [I EVEN BOUGHT A PACKAGE of CIGARETTES] WROTE HOME, AND TO D.J.... MAYBE SHE WILL COME TO NEW YORK RODE DOWN 5TH AVE BUS STOP. SAW GOOD HOUSEKEEPING NURSERY EXHIBIT + ST. THOMAS

APRIL 13

1939 11:10 Ran all the way out to school for an 8 o'clock class we didn't have! - Mother cut out my formal - today - I have to give a speech at the banquet! - Egad! - Ray + I went for a ride...

1940 Sat 2:30 - I better concentrate on Leonard or someone else pretty hard... Bill is too darn persuasive. He certainly messes up my little routine of things! (It was Bill's Birthday)

1941 Easter in Chicago again... Boul Mich - only sunny + beautiful, this time. The sermon was wonderful... Church impressive... stain glass - Ginny + Dotty ate dinner with us - (blah) at Jaques' - Dubbonet cocktail - Wow - Home on this forlorn train -

1942 Mon - We're starting oils in techniques class. Gee, wish I knew more about it! Went to fashion show. Backed the "Baby"... D.J. + I went bike riding - ha. Helped w/ Payne Post

1943 Tues Gee, I feel awful. Went over to Brooklyn - A+S. 200 luncheon this noon of B. Paper Editor. Had to leave during the speech. Pressed clothes tonight ate an orange, read some book

APRIL 2

1939 11:00 tsk tsk - smoking in bed! But it is fun. Eleanor + Ed are downstairs. It seems funny to have us both dating. Ray + I went to the show this aft. what a swell fellow he is! - I guess I'm getting pretty sloppy - I even like to hold hands in the movies! Saw Nessa

1940 Tuesday - I couldn't do a thing today... I don't know if it was appalling amt of work or the fact that my cold was bothering badly, at any rate, I quit + came home... Took a bath went to bed... I asked Howard for Wed. night... Wyman for Saturday + he was floored... so was I when he said he was going to be in Lennox.

1941 11:15 FEEL - AS KITTY FOYLE SO APTLY PUTS IT - A TRIFLE BITCHY... [REMIND ME NOT TO ADOPT THAT PHRASE] - BUT I DID WRITE SOME LETTERS... SUFFERED FROM A RELAPSE ALL DAY... MY ELBOW HURTS LIKE HELL EVERY TIME IT TOUCHES ANYTHING. I CAN SPEND $45 next wk.

1942 Finished BUDDENBROOKS - depressingly vivid Real - Gee, that Mann can write! I was mad at Leonard... Bob Haakinson came over + we had a perfectly swell walk all over - eating popcorn - went over to D.J's Moon

1943 FRI MRS. DAHL + MRS. STOTE ACTUALLY raised THEIR VOICES AT ONE ANOTHER THIS MORNING. I WAS ACUTELY UNCOMFORTABLE. HAD LUNCH WITH 2 VERY IMPORTANT, VERY dull MEN - MRS. S INSISTED I GO + I Really DIDN'T WANT TO! WE WORKED UNTIL LATE... I MET Herman AT 6:30, WE HAD DINNER AND WENT TO THE EXQUISITE PETROUSHKA, PAS EN QUATRE, ETC. Ballet Russe

APRIL 1

1939 11:30 - Got home about 8:15, I suppose I could have had a "Reverse Date", but don't think I would have been up to it! Slept till 10:30 this morning. Went down to the coffee shop for breakfast - then out to the college - June + Clara won the women's debates 6-0. We ate dinner at the Harbor - I wore my b-green suit. Came home at 2:30 - I'm glad

1940 ha, the more I think about it, the surer I am Bill was lying in his teeth... Oh well. - Donna + I took B + Leonard to a Philo reverse date party tonight... I had quite fun. Leonard was on good behavior. I hope we can have a picnic with those kids some time. 

1941 Long sigh of relief! - The plays are not only over; but were definitely a success. The sets were good. The kids really made me feel proud of them. All's Fair + He Ain't Done Right by Nell will always stick with me - We sailed right through!  - And this too shall pass away

1942 Wed Gee, I was mad. Wilbur came to the door with me instead of Leonard! - Sometimes I swear he has no sense... It would have been more fun dancing out at Billy's if those kids hadn't a test tomorrow.

1943 11:15 I WISH I COULD GET OVER THIS tenseness. THROWS ME OFF ALL THE WAY AROUND; I INTERVIEWED MISS Fisher AT GIMBELS' - Mr. NICOLAS at LORD + TAYLOR BOTH SWELL TO ME... MET HERMAN FOR lunch AT THE CROSSROADS - NICE. DINNER DATE tomorrow... BALLET. WAITED FOR A HALF HR. FOR Peg - WE ATE AT THE Olde Gardens. WOULD HAVE BEEN FUN IF WE HADN'T HAD TO hurry

I was in HERALD TRIBUNE

MARCH 31

1939 I placed 4th - Not bad, not good either... This sort of thing is not for me, I fear. too much strain. Banquet + 6 of us went to the show. On the way out to school, I rode on Wyman's lap, on the way back he sat on mine! 

1940 Sun. Well I'm going to fill in the past several days in retrospect... I've done a lot of living since I last wrote in there... This is Morning + I have a helluva cold - 1st all winter + this is Spring! - Later: Well I don't know whether to blame it on the cold or Bill; but I certainly accomplished nothing today.

MOST MEN ARE RATS!

1941 It's a nice day today, etc. - etc. It's a nice day tomorrow? - Gee, I'll be relieved when it's over - Ngha... Saw Helen Jordon tonight. Beauooootiful - Found card from Mr. Spitznagel when I got back. Damn him why couldn't he have come tomorrow?

1942 Tues Mid Semester grades... harder on me than anyone else - Leonard's in a mess with Mather over his "Preface" - Gee I feel awful about it. Had Rhoda Meyer + Chils over for dinner. -

1943 WED 10:30 - I'M COMPLETELY TIRED. TODAY WAS A VERITABLE Baptism of Fire... GEE, WHAT A MESS. AND IN MY tired CONDITION... MRS. DAHL IS A FIEND TO WORK FOR; BUT SHE'S BEEN SWELL TO ME. WE ATE at THE DRUG STORE - ATE dessert (APPLES, Chocolate COOKIES) AT HOME WROTE TO Leonard! TOOK my Bawth

MARCH 21

1939 11:00 We heard Marjorie Hellis tonight Swell Philosophy - I re-wrote my oration today from 9:00 - 4:00 It's really no child's play -

1940 Thurs Who should be dashing on the train the last minute but Bill P. - ! - I nearly got off - Bob + Leonard were down to see me off - They sent me a corsage, too... I love them both - Bill + I had lots of fun exchanging opinions of each other.

1941 10:20 Nazi Bombers over England again. Will there ever be any place for the world? Or for me? - Utterly demoralized today - No good at all. Heard from Eleanor + Jo - they are wonderful

1942 12:45 PLAYING 2ND FIDDLE TO A TERM PAPER! DIDN'T TAKE TO THE IDEA TOO WELL... BUT WHAT CAN A WOMAN DO? D.J. + I ATE Down TOWN... WENT OUT TO THE AIRPORT + WATCHED ARMY PLANES COME IN + TAKE OFF... CHROME WINGS IN A BLAZE - BLUE SKY - 50 PLANES...

1943 11:30 (GEE, AND I WAS GOING TO BE IN BED BY 10:00!) TODAY WAS NICE and COMFORTABLE. WHILE PEG WAS IN CHURCH, I WROTE A LONG LETTER HOME (ONE TO Leonard, LATER) WE ATE AT Childs DOWN THE WAY. WENT TO SEE Lois Cowan - AND DONNA. I'VE WASHED MY HAIR, FIXED MY NAILS, DREAD TOMORROW A LITTLE... I'M SCARED. I WANT SO very MUCH TO DO MY BEST!

MARCH 18

1939 10:55 It's 12 days till the Province meet at Aberdeen. 12 days to get my oration organized + in my head - I read what I wrote last night to Hugo. He was swell. Helped me a lot

1940 1:15 Mon More complications! Why didn't I stay home to work? Jake thinks I'm "leading Howard on" - He seems to think H. is terribly serious. We came home

1941 11:45 Tues. - Oh would that I could stay in bed tomorrow! - Wearing day. - The kids are getting too familiar... The school board must not have discovered I'm a farce -

1942 WED Creative Writing. Bill read. We had quite a disagreement over Art + the standards by which it is to be judged. Wilber kills me! Should have come right home, but Peg came after me.

1943 12:30 THURS - I'M STARTING Monday WITH HAIRE PUBLICATIONS. ASSISTANT TO EDITOR OF"CHILDREN'S APPAREL", A TRADE JOURNAL - AND AT $35 A WEEK. GOSH, I HOPE I'M WORTH IT... I HAD LUNCH WITH HERMAN... TRIED TO SEE MR. Conover (WHO WANTS TO SEE me!) SAW MISS Zach AT Mlle. WHO IS A SWELL GAL - WHO SAYS SHE EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT ME WHEN THEY NEEDED AN "INTERIOR" Editor!

MARCH 17

1939 3:30 - and Eleanor isn't in yet... I've been up writing my oration which seems very unimportant right now. Mother + Dad went to see me in the play at school tonight + she was talking to someone on the phone when they went. I wish she'd get home. She didn't leave a note or anything + who she's been with, we don't know! - 3:45 and Thank God she's back.

The plays were very successful I have a new flame. Ray P. walked through the tunnel with me today.

1940 Sunday. Worked on Prix from 10-6 - Bill Clements called... My coy scheme backfired on me... I was going to be the one who kept him going, warned as I was! - Now, I didn't have a chance - not a prayer. What a mess. I don't think I should date him.

1941 That is Tristan + Isolde. I'm sure - poignant - unfulfilled... (Will it always be that way?) - I wish the next 3 weeks were over - + well done... I know everything will be okay. If it isn't it's my fault + no one else's - (Fred doesn't sleep nights)

1942 TUES GEE, and I was going to stay home tonight. Stan called. Phooey - I thought it was L, or wouldn't have said yes. I don't understand him at all. He isn't nearly as sweet as he was.

1943 THANK YOU, GOD, FOR WHAT HAPPENED TODAY LEONARD IS STATIONED IN Alabama, I WON ANOTHER Mlle CONTEST [$100 BOND + THE DRESS] AND MR. Krikorian WROTE ME A SWEET + REDEEMING LETTER. I FEEL BETTER. Golly I NEEDED SOMETHING GOOD LIKE THIS TO HAPPEN! Maybe I'll studio with Mr. Worman

MARCH 15

1939 10:50 I feel swell except for my back (+ my arm where Wyman hit me). If I don't get going pretty darn quick it's going to be pretty bad

1940 3:00 Friday Was to have been a civic Music C. gal got a cold - So Donna + I (after cok-ing at Palace) got Bob + Leonard + went over to her house for coffee... I like Leonard altogether too much

1941 Sat - It's beginning to hurt, now. My pride more than anything else I guess. I suppose I can stand it. Mary went to Chicago for her clothes. I half hoped Fred would call. I'd like to talk with him just once - "Intermezzo" - Got receipt for $135.50

1942 SUN GEE, this is confusing!... We made the mistake of going out to school tonight. The "clandestine" nature of the situation came home to Leonard for the fist time... I was terribly inarticulate... To church with Mother - Took folks to dinner.

1943 MON PAID ONLY A QUARTER OF MY TAX (50!) AND KILLED MY PORE, LAME BACK + CHARLIE HORSED LEG WALKING SOME MORE... MRS. WOLFE (I SAW HER) SAYS I'M TOO FAT FOR HER! I DIDN'T EVEN GET A CHANCE TO SHOW HER MY PICTURES, dammit. PEG + I HAD OUR hair FIXED - BY RUDOLF - WHO gratifying LIKED ME. I'M TIRED...

MARCH 13

1939 10:40 Monday Woke up feeling swell... I got even with Wyman, but I guess it wasn't worth it. He asked someone else to the J.S. Fooled all day.

1940 Wed 12:45 - Acc. depressing job of filling out information for Placement Bureau today. I wonder if I'll be teaching next year... Hugo still wants me to take up that Plymouth deal...

1941 10:30 LE MARS BOYS WON THEIR FIRST ROUND IN THE DISTRICT WOULD LIKE TO HAVE SEEN IT... JUMPY... HAD A FREE NIGHT... DAMNED IF I CAN STILL SIT WHEN I HAVE THE CHANCE. I FEEL FAT... WONDER WHEN (AND IF) I'LL EVER SEE FREDDIE AGAIN... AND WHAT HE'LL SAY... ? ? ?  DIDN'T DO MUCH TEACHING TODAY... IN FACT, NOT MUCH OF ANYTHING - WHY START NOW?

1942 Fri Was a good gal + stayed home tonight, although Leonard did call... Gee, the more "reassured" I get - the more scared I am... Dumb, ain't I... How will it all work out? - Washed my hair, me + clothes. Surprisingly wasn't too tired today -

1943 SAT AFTER A MILDLY frustrating MORNING [MY GARTER BROKE; IT TURNED COLD, SNOWED and RAINED VIOLENTLY] I RESTED, WASHED OUT SOME STUFF, AND JARV CAME OVER THIS AFT. - WE TALKED FOR HOURS - HE IS MORE INTELLIGENT THAN I THOUGHT. THE FORMAL DANCE IS THE 29TH, PROBABLY - I HOPE IT WILL BE. JARV HAS BEEN NICE TO ME + I LIKE HIM.