MAY 25

1939 Thurs 7:30 Finished big cartoons today - I'm going to start studying!

1940 Sat I went absolutely wild today + last night trying to figure the Plymouth deal out... I finally sent them a procrastinating letter. Spence took me to "L. Russell" tonight. I don't think I'll go with him anymore.

1941 Feel pretty good - trying to rationalize myself outta worrying - Doesn't quite work! - I hope everything looks okay! - Hope a little bit of FUN - 

1942 Mon Gee, my legs rilly got burned - Killed me all day... Everybody saw L. but me today. D.J. said he was irked at not finding me home last night. We lay out in b. yard. Got cokes

1943 11:30 Donna Brown is staying w/ me tonight. We ate over at Barnard. Mr. Krikorian took me to lunch this noon... He is marvelous; maybe going to London soon... O.W.I job. He says ours is no longer a "business relationship"! - Here we go again!... He walked me back down 5th Ave.

MAY 24

1939 11:15 Honor's Day Exercises in Chapel this morning. - All School Picnic Ray + Mick + Marie + I went - I came back for Creative Wr. + I didn't have to read my play again! 

1940 Fri Wrote a stupid test this morning. Studied this aft, and wrote another one... I have 2 make-up assignments + my term paper + then I can start making up Art.

1941 11:30 "And this too shall pass away" I hope! - Too bad my last few days have to be spent in such a hectic fashion. Slaved all day - I do too much. Don't make the kids work.

1942 Sun Gee, I'm pooped. Marie + I lay out in the back yard this morning. Dinner christening at Landseths... Kids came after me we looked for Lefty. - D.J. + I + Marie went to Shanghai Gesture

1943 MON HM, FEEL almost HOOMAN, FOR A CHANGE! - AFTER ALL THAT sleep LAST NIGHT, WOKE UP LATE; TODAY was HECTIC... "DOROTHY" AND I FELT IT KEENLY! - WE WENT TO A LOUSY FASHION SHOW AT THE HOTEL N. Yorker. I STAYED UNTIL THE Bitter END. HAD A Bitter MARTINI. - IRONED tonight.

MAY 23

1939 10:00 I am really tired - Did about 5 of the big cartoons today. - Tonight some of the gals went on a picnic - I didn't get home in time to go to the show with Ray, darn it - 

1940 Thurs Planned to attend my last classes in College today, and they didn't meet! - Cleaned out my two art desks + got started studying for Teaching of Eng. Exam tonight.

1941 11:30 It's a matter of living through " the rest of it now - Wish I didn't worry about this deal so much. Thank God, I've taught my last class.

1942 Sat 3:00 (Oh Darling, I've got it bad -) Mister Payne called me for lunch, but I was meeting D.J. + Marie - We went to the dance tonight... Silly fun. Saw Auggie kids all over.

1943 SUN NO chance TO RELAX - I'M IN A helluva MOOD - ME Marie FOR breakfast (SHE TALKED AN ARM OFF ME) - WASHED MY HAIR, READ THE Times ON THE ROOF; NEARLY died OF FRUSTRATION WHEN 5 buses PASSED ME OOP... LOIS + SULLY + I SAW THE APT. (Gee, I HOPE IT WORKS OUT!) (I FORGOT my money, couldn't eat with em) Couldn't get to see Ballet

MAY 22

1939 Mon 11:40 - Everything is swell - The frogs are croaking outside - It is cool and breezy... I accomplished nothing except a new pair of shoes today - Ray + I read Ogden Nash on the lawn this aft. - tonight I was already for bed + he came after me his sister was going to ship a little collie to Nebraska. We went out of town + picked it up. It was so small.

1940 Wed All school picnic - ha! - Clara + I spent the day giving out on The Girls. We barely finished in time to read the raw product in class. It went over. Mr. K was quite overcome after class at our leaving (Clara + Me) - 

1941 11:30 Hold your breath, kid - I think we're on the last stretch! - Finally got all the place cards printed - Under pressure - Senior Class play tomorrow

1942 Friday At least I got a whole slew of clothes washed today... Emil enlisted in the navy... Wilber got his notice for a physical. Peggy got a job... Chuck Harris was on Make Island! D.J. + I went for a ride

1943 SAT We went to a Party thrown by the American Newspaper Guild... People were singularly unimpressive! - H danced with me! - not badly, either. - Carmen Amaya + a hypnotist - floor-showed. The apt. is beautiful. Lois + Sully are to see it tomorrow, I hope. Lunch w/ Donna

MAY 21

1939 Sun 1:45 - Exam 8:30 this morning I've been trying to write a term paper I started at 10:00 + finally just finished Ray came over this aft. + slept for 2 hrs!

1940 Tues Slightly hellish... I'm going to bed + try to sleep... I've been tired to death since I got through at Beache's - They called up this morn... I've been down twice today - stuff wrong, mixed up. Will it ever come out? Clara + I wrote   ha

1941 12:30 BOY, I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN LAST - IF I ONLY DIDN'T HAVE TO TEACH, IT WOULD BE OKAY - WORKED ON J-S AFTER SCHOOL, AFTER SUPPER; ON PLAY UNTIL NOW - 2 DAYS! 

1942 Thurs (Wonder why "we" didn't go to the dance with Bill + Shirley) Tried to concentrate on Gionenza - couldn't - due to no fault of Thomas Mann. I wrote a letter to Mr. Christopherson.

1943 FRI! (I knew it; Herman wanted to see "Storm in a Teacup", of course) We went to China which was quite bad - Golden Gate Quartet + Bobby Sherman's band - It rained enthusiastically today... I had a so beautiful letter from Leonard and a note from Mr. Krikorian

MAY 20

1939 Sat 12:40 - Up at school this aft. the fellows in the dev. dept took some crazy pictures. We had a lot of fun... Tonight Ray + I went to the Ball Game.

1940 Mon. 3:00! - Russ Morgan - really a perfect time... I think I had more fun with Mr. Spitznagel + Mr. Cole than with "Walter", however - I had too much of a build-up for him - He was nice + looked like Walter P. in the movies...

1941 11:15 - Maybe it's my stride I've been hitting these past 2 days... I fervently hope so... Or maybe it's just the pressure bearing down... At any rate, let's up it keeps up

1942 Wed Donna + I went to Joan of Paris. It was so good it hurt... poignant... Leonard came over while I was gone. Saw him this morning... Sweet.

1943 THURS Mickey + I went down + saw "La Boheme" + Storm in a Teacup... (which were barely worth the effort!) But we had fun.

MAY 19

1939 Friday 11:00 - Sara and I went to Marion Evanson's piano recital - The only thing I liked was Ravel - I feel bad

1940 Sun Played tennis all morning with Donna Jean... She beat me 3 or 4 sets; I finally took one... Spence took me to Abe Lincoln's Illinois tonight... He is really swell - but so damn unexciting

1941 11:30 Well I went to the LAST faculty meeting today... I can't say I'm broken up up about it... Maynard brought a snake with him. Long and awful. So I kicked him out. - Hm! 4 days of teaching!

1942 Tues Gee, me sitting on the stage - ha... Wore my green dress, too. I looked a little dignified I hope. I loathe its all being over - 

1943 WED I guess Herman and I had lunch together this noon! We usually do. Churchill spoke. Was out in the Market. Mr. W quite overwhelmed me!

MAY 18

1939 Thurs. 10:35 All this sleep is just too much for me. I am getting a habit. It's beautiful out doors tonight. You can see the lilacs + the dark garden 

1940 Sat. I was really hurt to think that I didn't rate well enough with the Webs to get asked to the society banquet... But I guess I can take it - there's nothing else to do! - helped D.J. pick out a coat - wrote with Clara tonight... Mr. Spitznagel called for a "date" Mon.

1941 12 - Sunday - For a change, I took Reeves' to dinner. - It was hot + windy - Didn't go to church worked on exam went over to school - Blanche, Dorothy + D rumbah-ed + conga-ed - I thought about Leonard. Wrote to Jo. Tom called

1942 Gee, what a wild picnic. Haven't had my hair pulled, my ears bitten so violently for a long time. WWW surprised me. Went to Alumnae Banquet w/ Clara

1943 TUES 11:30 Hell, both Donna + Mickey are deserting me. Donna's going home (as I thought)... Would Lois + Sully consider going in w/ me? today was fairly productive... H. School Boys badgered me; lifted my ego this morning. Luncheon this noon. Started Look Homeward Angel

MAY 17

1939 Wed 10:50 Well, I ground out the rest of my play + then I didn't have to read it! - My back hurts I don't know what's the matter

1940 Fri. - Went out to school... spent the day getting "adjusted" - to what, I don't know. There seems to be no place to begin... Went rollerskating with Jake tonight... Sometimes I almost like him... Yesterday I got my appointment to Plymouth --- ! 

1941 10:00 If I were home, I'd probably be out with Leonard! - What is going to happen there - anything? Tired got nothing done today. Bet I'll have to give up Plymouth!

1942 Sun Gee, Baccalaureate this morning. Granskow was marvelous. Leonard - sparks. Date. - We were both tres fatigue. But still too much alive

1943 MON 12:10 Not bad for a Monday! - I got most of my sketches... wore my red dress + no coat; was quite extroverted... Mrs. Stote says after working on a trade mag I won't have trouble getting a mag job. Hope she's right.... Rode down in Subway with Boo Fleet. Put $50 in the safe tonight.

MAY 16

1939 Tuesday 10:50 I guess I didn't do so very well - but I'm trying... I felt awfully dopey all day... I started "The Rest of the Way" tonight... Ray came over about 10:00 - He hasn't finished his Term paper!

1940 Thurs 12:00 Worked till 7:30 tonight... the production part of the book is really out of my hands now! I'm tired silly - I guess. Marguerite + I discussed our respective love lives over cokes tonight. - Enlightening discussion

1941 1:00 BOB WAS OVER; NO LEONARD... WE GOT DOWN HERE ABOUT 7:30... I GUESS IT WAS WORTH IT; HOWEVER, I WAS DEFINITELY DISAPPOINTED... I SAW JEAN... (HERE WE GO AGAIN) SHE SAID L. HAD BEEN OVER TALKING - WITH HER AGAIN. SHE THINKS HE'S CRAZY -

1942 A pretty lousy day, if I do say so. About the 7th Consecutive wk-end it's rained. Killed myself looking for a blouse for Peggy... 7:30 exam - ugh... Reception tonight. Fellas got back. Did you call while I was gone ? ? ? 

1943 SUN All I did today was read the Times write to Leonard, the family + D.J. (telling her to come to New York)... Ate breakfast enjoyably - with Ruth McCann and dinner (awful) at Child's tonight... Mickey's home + in Love. She says she's going to Symphony

MAY 15

1939 MONDAY 10:35 Thank God, there's always tomorrow. I swear that I am going to get to work + stay that way till I have all the junk that is hanging over my head cleaned up. - today I wasted completely. I am so disgusted with myself - Ray should have written his term-paper tonight

1940 Wed. 10:00 - Blah - I can really work up a good case of self-sympathy without half trying... I'm working instead of going on "Skip Day" tomorrow... No Soc. Banquet date... Bill hasn't called (Why should he?)...

1941 10:30 Maybe last night was what I needed to awaken me to a few things I know, at any rate, I should certainly be more careful from now on... After 2 hrs sleep + the strain I'd been through, I was just about neurotic all day -

1942 11:45 (a 7:30 exam tomorrow!) Gee, I wish that the receptionists job with Mr. Spitznagel would pan out. It's too good to think about tho. Made out my test tonight. John de P is probably mad at me for not going to Fantasia w/ him.

1943 SAT 11:55 Mr. Barkley called this aft. took me to lunch and we had a lovely time (Sherry + chicken) Played "Paper Dolls" this morning. Came home, bathed + collapsed. Washed my hair, went over to see Donna at Barnard for a while. Came home, read.

MAY 14

1939 10:50 All day I've been practically dying to crawl into bed. Here I am + am not drowsy a-tall - Eleanor's birthday + Mother's Day - We took Annie out to the park fried chicken - ice cream + angel food cake - + Bill + Ray + I went for a ride from 3:30 - 5:00 - tonight I was over at Helen's the 10 of us have fun - We discussed everything from who's to be married to white slavery!

1940 11:00 Tuesday, Another slow day - ...I haven't got my date for the society banquet - I suddenly realized! - hmm. - fine thing! - It's cold, the wind is blowing, I should sleep so I can get up + go to work tomorrow...

1941 5:20? Anyhow broad daylight. I don't think I can be quite flippant about this - For the first time in my life, my "virtue" was really endangered... I prayed to God and He gave the strength + the courage. 

1942 1:45  my God, what an Evening. Mrs. Lindseth had some wimmin over for Helen... It wasn't so bad after we escaped to the kitchen (Gee, I sound like a dirty snob!) Made outline out today. Leonard went to Rochester.

1943 FRI Oh Herman you make me MAD, sometimes. (I really appreciate LEONARD, believe me) We had steak - thick + good for dinner; saw Ethel Barrymore in the Corn is Green (It was!... I bought a little white Calot. Mrs. Stote had me get her one, too! - Got a slew of sketches.

MAY 13

1939 1:35 No more on Fridays I get a pay envelope - I quit - Georgia offered a good opportunity + I took it! I watched Ray play tennis this aft - He is getting too good for me - We went to the show tonight

1940 11:00 Wrote a lousy excuse of a letter to Eleanor - tomorrow is her birthday. - Worked all day + tonight. I'm anxious to get the damn thing done... I keep rationalizing one way and then the other about Bill - I wish someone else "interesting" would rush me like he did - almost.

1941 Oh God - Why can't the day have a few more hours in it... I suppose I'll have to say up half the night tomorrow getting those reports in! - I might as well go to bed now so it won't kill me

1942 12:00 Damn! - my class is over - why must it END? - Had a nice day - painted this aft. read H of Art - Worked on outline tonight. D.J. + I celebrated her raise + promotion!

1943 11:45 Felt quite extroverted today. Did well this morning. Got sketches everyplace just about... (Ha, Dorothy!)... Wore my black shirt felt like a fasciste. - Wasn't tired tonight Armand called me this aft. And came over tonight. He is an infant! But sweet and like Philip

MAY 12

1939 10:00 Worked this aft. Bought a new dress - plain cyclone flannel. (and no more money) We went to the school party - fun + stuff

1940 Sunday 11:00 Felt rotten most of the time today. - ...Eleanor called this morning Mother + I went to a tea out at school this aft... Clara and I started our play (ha)... talked about Bill - now I know he's not what I want All I feel is a vague sort of gaiety!

1941 11:30 Worked down at school after dinner cutting out life-savers! - The boys evidently appreciated my new girdle today. - Harley thought I looked "amazingly slender" - Bob thought I was "in very good form". tsk tsk. Such respect. - (And I love it, secretly)

1942 11:30 Floated most of the morning. About 3:30, began to FEEL it... Went to Maltese Falcon w/ J.J.... (Leonard, you'll still have to tell me the ending) Gee, it's RAINING again (I'll never get to wear my gr. dress.

1943 WED Finished writing what I hope was adequately reassuring letter to Leonard in answer to his beautiful, 4 page, but quite upset letter (on accounta what I'd said about Herman (?))... A coincidence - strangely - he had written it when Herman was proposing to me! - more than coincidence I think! Herman came over. We walked along the river.

MAY 11

1939 10:30 snokkered into my 8:00 at 8:15 this morning! Hugo still wants another oration out of me for next year (Kentucky?) But I didn't go to the meeting tonight - stayed home to iron curtains and now - Cymbaline (Ray called)

1940 3:00 Blah... I had a pretty mediocre evening - J.S. - Spence isn't a very thrilling date - even if he is S. class president... Clara hit about right when she said he had about as much S.A. as a cold potato. maybe it was because I felt awful and also because I was thinking about Bill... He called - I was very mean -

1941 12:00 - Well, kid, we're back to the innocuous mediocrity of it all again. - Finally got started on final test... Blah... We all had dinner down town - very nice (gee, I'm hungry, now) - Mother looked so pretty. Hope Wilmer can go to Chicago once more. 

1942 3:00 Darling, this was marvelous... Golly, I actually got to go to the dance, after all! Just being with Leonard reassures me terrifically! Maybe he's losing some of that undue respect for me. I hope so.

1943 TUES Was over to Lois's during the blackout. Smoked cigarettes, talked, drank milk, ate cake in the inter-rim. She's a honey. Wore my slacks over; ate dinner with Mickey. It was a wet, grey day. Why doesn't it SHINE?

MAY 10

1939 Wed 11:15 Walked 2 miles in 15 minutes when I made that Shakespeare C. this morning - Ray came over + we listened to "Lights Out" He held Eleanor's hand!

1940 Fri. Finally got a few pages "started" on my book... Went on a steak fry with Jake tonight. He has been surprisingly good... Bill did not call (Why don't I just quit thinking about him? - He was not out tonight I saw a light in his window - )

1941 ? 

1942 11:30 I reiterate Mister Payne, we WASTE time. Damn you - Why didn't ya call tonight? Just went to church w/ Mother + Dad + finished my green suit. Judged Photography Contest. 

1943 MON Herman says Scholastic is offering me the Art Job... I saw him after work today. - He is sweet... I'm really sunburned. Mrs. Stote was in this morning... I wrote to Wilmer + to Leonard today... After sitting on a Central Park bench, came home, wrapped Eleanor's gift... Called Lois C. + Barbara S.

MAY 9

1939 Tues 12:00 Drew pitchurs all morning (cut speech again) Saw Eide + S this aft. - Ray + I went to a moom pitchur tonight

1940 Thurs. I didn't see Leonard any more than just litterly - for a moment... I don't know... Worked today not on Edda - yet... I am very anxious to get on my stuff + get it over with... Bill called tonight - its just as well I was working... I might not have been able to stick by my resolution

1941 ? 

1942 1:00 (Gee, gotta get up + wash m'hair) Batted around down town + wore myself out - Bought another dusty-pink sweater. Got my shoes dyed green. And some makeup for me + m'legs + D.J., Shirley, Collins + I tore around - Tres fun. Saw Leonard.

1943 SUN 1:30 A fine, beautiful day. Got up and ironed clothes, read the N.Y. Times, took an extensive sunbath on our roof. Ushered at the tea, wore my grey dress in Herman came at 5:00 We sat by the river. Went to dinner at the Gold Rose. Went a double Feature

MAY 8

1939 10:45 Mon. Why must there be Mondays?Payed another $10 on my tuition still gobs left to pay. Ray called - 

1940 11:30 Wed. - I had lunch with Jean V. - She has let go something I didn't expect to hear - She is such It means a lot. I know now I can quit Bill - he means absolutely nothing to me.

1941 Thurs. another one of the same. All I care about is sleep. Must be an escape complex! Finally heard from Eleanor + got a card from Bob. He + Emil + Leonard maybe will be in Minneapolis - Just my luck

1942 Layout on campus all afternoon with Shirley - got slightly sunburned. D.J. + I mailed a letter (wrote to E) Gee, another week-end coming up -

1943 SAT Why oh why did I eat all that stuff? Ahh. Donna's birthday party at Barnard. I felt a little "older" - and was but enjoyed it... Knocked myself out shopping this afternoon. Gloves, blouse, dress, stationary, gift for Eleanor. Came home + washed all my clothes and my hair too. Ain't I a good girl?

MAY 7

1939 Sun 11:15 We had to work from 8 - 12:00 today rush job. I laid out in the sun from 12 - 1:00 - Played tennis this aft. Told Ray not to call this eve + then couldn't accomplish anything

1940 May 5 Sunday I had the day to myself to straighten myself up in general... Folks went to Sioux City - Bill did not call. It is damn lucky I'd made up my mind not to go with him if he did call) - Mother bought some furniture for my room yesterday - dated Jake.

1941 Existed

1942 12:20 (Hope you felt a little frustrated darling. I didn't very much) - D.J. + I went out + looked at the planes - big, olive drab bomber) Assimilated Emil, then R.H. # Wilber + Leonard - batted around - tired

1943 FRI Met Herman for dinner. We went to Toffenetti's for scallops... Then to Mission to Moscow... An excellent film... Then for a climax, a proposal. To which I could not accept and he knew it! - We talked + talked though. For the better, I think.

MAY 6

1939 1:30 Sat. Worked all day. Home. Washed hair - clothes - Tonight I saw "Union Pacific" with Ray. It rained - lovely Spring rain.

1940 Mon - Worked - had my picture taken for J.S. - ushered at Civic Music Concert. - A barytone who sang one Russian Cafe song that nearly tore my heart out.

1941 Existed.

1942 ? If I saw you often enough, maybe I'd get over you - then again maybe I wouldn't! - (Shirley read in Creative Writing tonight... She's a sweet kid, but she idolizes me too much) We went out to Billy's + danced - fun fun.

1943 THURS Had dinner with Lois + Sully at Klahe's... We had highballs first at the apartment... tsk tsk. Lois looks wonderful. She's swell. I took copy over to Mrs. Stote's... she is pale + wan. I adore her apartment. Walked over to Lois' after work... Fun today

MAY 5

1939 11:45 Marguerite's birthday We ate supper aver at Vercoe's - and talked - I certainly know a bunch of grand gals

1940 May 7 Tues - Worked 10 hrs. today. - Bill did not call - he is probably giving me ample time to regret my saying that I was not in love w/ him

1941 Academic tests. One time I was glad I wasn't a student Blanche was irked... ha... so was I... tonight we made nutcups!

1942 11:00 Gee, I hate to have Mother out so late - + working. It's cold + wet. Like to see the sun again. Leonard's going to petition to write that paper. (I'm glad) I've been reading Thomas Mann's Stories of a decade Clarifying + Confusing at once

1943 11:45 La de dah... Maybe we'll be living in an apartment by June. Gladys has a line on one. Gee I hope it works out. Met Herman for lunch. He was overwhelmed by my little ol' note... A little too much so. I meet him Friday... Mickey + I had soup tonight. Ate Good Humors. Blackout -

MAY 4

1939 11:40 Thurs. all the time I feel under a certain amt. of strain. - Mr. S. likes the stuff I've done/ But I'm going to have one helluva time getting those caricatures all in line! - 17 of the girls at school were on a picnic it was messy + loud + fairly fun

1940 2:00 Capitulate - B.C. I absolutely can't figure him out - I'm sure it's mutual. Evidently talking about it just makes matters worse. We went out to the airport + then to Elks' Club fun to a lousy beginning. Worked. Bought a new hat. (coconut straw) Ate lunch at F's + missed E.

1941 Dennis has ruined another perfectly good wk-end for me. I'm afraid this is just another case of Payneful suspense. Why is it I always want - in the worst way - the things I can't have. Allan had to use shovel again

1942 11:30 And Mother isn't home yet! And she has to Judge at Election tomorrow! Didn't touch very solid ground all day... D.J. + Clara + I went out tonight for a quick coke. Wish it'd quit raining *

1943 11:00 I don't really have any right to be at all nervous or tired - (I'm not now as much as I was) - A not tough day at all, rilly... But stayed till almost 6:00 again. Got a display story at Bloomingdales. Met Mr. Richmond... Gave + gave... sweet card from Herman. Glad he wrote it... going to bed!

MAY 3

1939 10:55 I am tired + dirty + feel dissatisfied with everything - I skipped creative writing to work on caricatures - Ray brought me home + I  ------- ! ! He felt swell

1940 11:00 I didn't go to work all day - Spent it cleaning up ad section which was literally a mess. I hope I wasn't too hard on Ross - But he's had 2 wks - Clara is so good to me.

1941 Anyhow, I went swimming today. PERFECT. Cold, tingly. 15 days of teaching school left. Had a date with Henry tonight. Never again.

1942 Sunday 3:00 Sara was home - she looked so smooth. After literally tearing me to pieces of disappointment + frustration, Leonard called - I felt shy + unnatural - for a while. Betty Boe was not included in our lengthy conversation.

1943 10:00 FINALLY A LETTER FROM DEAR Leonard... HE'S WRITTEN BOB + PEG ABOUT US - LIKE TO KNOW what HAD A RATHER DESULTORY DAY... WROTE TO MOTHER THIS MORNING, MRS. STOTE WAS ill... WE PUT THE BOOK TOGETHER LATE THIS AFT. - TILL six, IN FACT. MICKEY + I ATE UP TO THE SANDWICH SHOP. WELL... I'VE WRAPPED PEG'S PACKAGES. MUST GET TO BED early

MAY 2

1939 12:05 Tonight I saw John Barrymore - it was a thrill, all right. The stage seems more glamorous than ever - Ray was pretty tired. He averages 5 hrs a day work + with school, too. It is quite demanding. However, he managed to waste this aft. w/ me.

1940 Thurs. Bill is beginning to want a little more reassurance! He protested that he has committed himself so far + that I haven't said anything. I don't intend to. (I made him go to the Civic Theater play - I worked 7 hrs. today)

1941 What was that? (May 1 1941) tsk, what resolution, woman! Well, it did relieve the monotony, and it did do my morale good. (+ he did have to argue me into it 2 hrs.) + the wild western was fun... Washed hair, clothes, took a bath. I'm ready to work T. (dammit!)

1942 1:00 - Hell, again Sat night sans date gets me down, I'm afraid - I don't look forward to tomorrow. Thomas Mann to keep me company. D.J. + I went to a show.

1943 12:30 I think I enjoyed today very much. We went out to Mt. Vernon to see his sister - Margie liked me (I was actually nervous about the child's approval). We took a long walk about the suburb. - Well kempt. A little stuffy maybe. We didn't mention Peggy.

MAY 1

1939 10:35 If I can only get 8 good hours of sleep in! - I am cross + very stiff + tired - I wanted to get started on my caricatures but I had a lot of ironing to do tonight. Ray worked tonight so he could be off tomorrow night.

1940 Wed. - New complications. Jake is remorseful + wants to take me to the show Sunday. I refused about 3 times. I don't know - I guess I'll go. - Worked today for 5 hrs

1941 When nothing better presents itself, there's always the h.s. boys. Bob + Harley took me for a ride as I was coming home from school. Earlier Allan + I ran into Blanche w/ them! " could be easy taking. But not for me (Stick to that chum!)

1942 11:45 I'M NOT GOING TO LET YOU SPOIL A perfectly GOOD WKEND FOR ME, Mister PAYNE... JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE AT A PARTY WITH BETTY BOE (damn her) TONIGHT. OH NO... THIS IS THE PART WHERE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE TOLERANT + FAINTLY AMUSED. (I'm NOT...)

1943 SAT 1:30 WELL, WE GOT PEGGY OFF okay... I HOPE SHE MAKES IT BACK TO SOUTH DAKOTA... I BOUGHT HER A WHITE BATISTE NIGHTGOWN (AND one FOR ME) AND A BLACK HAT FOR A BUCK... WAITED FOR over AN HOUR FOR PEG + DONNA at THE GARDEN. WAS WORRIED SICK... PEG LEFT AT 4:30; DONNA AND I WALKED DOWN 5TH Ave... MICKEY and I MOVED FURNITURE, CLEANED, WASHED WOODWORK, windows AND CELEBRATED WITH WAFFLES. WASHED my Hair.

APRIL 30

1939 11:40 Sunday Felt tired when I woke up. Lay out in the b. yard most of the morn - Ray + I played tennis this aft. I'm a little sunburned - Sara and Marguerite + Nessa dropped in - So did Ray half an hr. afterward. He took us all for a ride bought ice cream cones - He is too good I told him he spoiled last night for me. I hope he doesn't think I'm serious! ! 

1940 Tues. Well Je suis fini! And what a drag - Every thought I had of placing in the P de P was non existent when that M.S. went in today. It was corny. I refused a date w/ Bill.

1941 Gee what a maybasket. Lorraine and Alberta, a great big one. Lotta pink in it. I've practically decided to go to Plymouth. Don't know if I'm doing right or not.

1942 Went to Skylark with Chils + Ruth Olam... Quite dull... Bill Blake had a very close parallel in the personnel of the Augustana Art Department. -

1943 FRI [OH GOLLY, PEG - YOU ALMOST SPOILED THE evening. HOW COULD YOU?]... AND I HAD TO WAIT THIS NOON AT MCCREERY'S FOR YOU SO LONG, TOO. THIS NOON... WE MET HERMAN AT 6:15, WENT TO DINNER AT Roger's, THEN TO KISS and TELL (WHICH WAS DARLING)... AND TO Cafe Society Downtown - RUM COLLINSES, BOOGIE WOOGIE; AND HOME IN A TAXI - I SHUDDER TO THINK WHAT IT COST.

APRIL 29

1939 2:50 Sat About all I can feel is a deep sense of relief - Responsibilities get me down. I'm so glad it's over - Spence was a very nice date - There is no one in the J.S. class I would rather have gone with - But I kept thinking of some-one else all the time

1940 Mon Worked till 12:00 I've never struggled so much over something that's really so simple - If I were only done!

1941 Have I a sense of values, or have I not? Days like today make me wonder. I don't seem to care about things. I'm mixed up. Hope I snap out of this.

1942 12:30 We had our drawing class picnic today + it was a def. success. Choir left about 3; so did we drew animals. I did all the  work of arranging (nev. again) came back to creative writing... Hypnotic session in the Art Room

1943 11:00 PEG IS IN THE THROES of GETTING READY AND PACKED - A JOB. MRS. STOTE TOOK ME TO THE Fashion Group LUNCHEON TODAY! - MANY THE BIG WIG, THERE... SHERRY FIRST, + GOOD food. STUFFY, VICTORIAN HOTEL - FUNNY PLACE... I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM Leonard THIS WEEK!

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1939 11:30 - Dad + Mother brought me out to school and I worked on place-cards + decorations. Ray waited for me after he got through work. He is so perfectly swell to me. He told me to have a good time tomorrow night!

1940 Sun 1:00 - Well, I quit! - I really intended to get done tonight - But after a half hour ride with Bill - what's the use?

1941 Some much needed inspiration - Foley + Yolande. - suave. Gee, what a tango. Today came the P. appointment I feel I really should go. (June 23) - And might as well begin planning for it!

1942 10:30 [Hell, such a moon - outside the air is heavy with plum blossoms - and we have so little time...] Caricatures were all over the place this A.M. - Shirley + I added our bit... Washed clothes. Heard Pres.

1943 WED I AM NERVOUS and DISGRUNTLED - FOR NO GOOD REASON. EVERYTHING SEEMS TO irritate ME! [I EVEN BOUGHT A PACKAGE of CIGARETTES] WROTE HOME, AND TO D.J.... MAYBE SHE WILL COME TO NEW YORK RODE DOWN 5TH AVE BUS STOP. SAW GOOD HOUSEKEEPING NURSERY EXHIBIT + ST. THOMAS

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1939 11:10 Tonight Mr. Spitznagel called me for a job - There is a chance for me to let go on some wall panels (caricatures of movie stars) at an Ice Cream Bar next to the Hollywood I hope this is one dream that doesn't fall through I'm so excited about it. Mrs. S. came out to school + as luck would have it - I was working on J.S. stuff the same sort of thing he wants! Ray brought me home We are going to J. Barrymore the 2nd

1940 Sat 1:15 Bill was awfully sweet to me tonight. I am beginning to think he is really sincere. He kids, but at the same time he means it. We went to Rebecca + window shopped (engagement rings, double beds!) - Tomorrow the last lap on the P de P

1941 FRUSTRATION, I guess that's the word for it. The night is perfect - for a picnic. And here I am - ready for bed. Dennis Lennihow, anyhow. It's all his fault. I was already to be monastic (is that the word?) And then he had to come along!

1942 11:00 BABE, you were certainly dopey today... how do you explain it? - (Maybe it's that I feel affectionate when I'm sleepy) - Leonard upset me completely this aft - or he would have but I evaded him. (hypocritical?) - over to All Saints - FOO

1943 TUES 11:30 A BUSY DAY - I LIKE 'EM LIKE THAT! - DID ILLUSTRATIONS FOR BABY SHOES... FUN... ADA and I ATE LUNCH - AND POPSICLES IN THE Park... PEG SEWED A SKIRT, I MENDED, BAWTHED... HAD A SWEET LETTER FROM Mother.

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1939 11:25 We heard the choir tonight. It was flawless. Mimi broke her ankle after her recital last night. Ray + Phil + Whitie + I went over to the anchor afterward - "Things" are a lot better

1940 12 What a day what a day - Clara + I did Gladys + Mabel for Student Body + over the air. I soived a luncheon for Mother - Saw Bill at the Garage Clara + I worked till 11:30 tonight. " missed a shower.

1941 It was a bootiful day, except it didn't end right. Dennis picked us up after we came out of the Pantry. (in slacks + eating ice cream cones. I could tell he had a date; because he said he would call if he got done w/ some reports. I was stupid. Should have been SWEET. - 

1942 12:45 (now, instead of so boisterous) We wenona picnic - It rained intermittently during the evening. Wrote letters today. Saw Helen Lindseth. We still have nothing in Common -

1943 Mon 1:00 Felt quite extroverted today. Rather a quiet afternoon... Ate with Eleanor Vatcher at the Garden... Peg went to New Jersey so I ate with Mickey at the Gold Rail. Went to nasty Little Foxes - ate an ice cream cone -

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1939 11:30 I'm rather upset. I can't can't tell whether I'm being sincere or just cheap -

1940 Bill came over + we went for a walk; he asked me if I thought I could ever be happy without knowing impt people and living on "enough" - ! ! ? ? - We bought penny candy -

1941 Well the tuition party is over, thank goodness! And it's FRIDAY... (Hope I don't waste tomorrow just waiting for Dennis to call)

1942 Sat 2:00 Just got a "special" from Virginia + read it in bed. She's swell. It was sweet of Wilber to take me out tonight. Saw King's Raw w/ D.J. this aft. we met Legend on the street!

1943 Sun 1:10 Peggy + I went to Presbyterian Church this morning, came back for breakfast, I dissipated the afternoon walking by the river, talking to Midshipmen. We went to Flight for Freedom. It's Balmy out. We got ice cream + finished up the cookies

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1939 11:15 I even felt slightly awful when I woke up this morning. But I felt better as the day wore on... Paid $10 of my own money out at the collitch this morning - Ray brought me home this noon + explained why he didn't call - He waited for me out at school to-night + I had gone home w/ Margaret - He called tonight there was a dust-storm. Now it rains

1940 Well - I'm dead - Clara + I had our usual post mortem after class - I don't think I'll discuss Bill with her anymore - to such length, I mean -

1941 Thurs. Not so bad - (But I have tomorrow to live through) Even I kept on top of that 7th period class. Talked too fast and lost my voice -

1942 FRI 12:00 D.J. + I just had another of our wild experiences. Got caught in a culvert - until we found the emergency break on! - I still don't know about that Tues night; but I do trust Leonard... And if anything did happen it is he who must tell me...

1943 3:45 I SLEPT UNTIL ABOUT 12:00 AFTER DINNER. GOT UP + WASHED MY HAIR + STUFF and FEEL THE BETTER FOR IT! ... Peg + I SAW Traviata THIS AFT, ATE spaghetti at TOFFENETI'S. Finally HEARD FROM DARLING LEONARD.

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1939 10:50 - Sunday evenings are always lonesome. I sat out on the steps and listened to a frog. Ray and I went shooting this afternoon. It was a perfect - almost summer - day... He was going to call me tonight... I went on a picnic with the girls

1940 4:00 - Well I got something done. 3 "sketches". I've been writing since one - I hope they are worth reading. Bill called tonight...

1941 Another burner, only worse. I feared for my sanity, even. But now I'm okay. Funny what a warm bath + a meal will do for your morale.

1942 Thurs 10:00! - I'm in bed + damn glad of it. Feel woozy + sneezy - hope I'm not getting Leonard's cold... Didn't see him all day - It was still windy + warm. Lee is ill. No banquet date!

1943 1:20 HERMAN TOOK ME TO DINNER; WE SAW THE PRESS Photographer EXHIBIT AT R.C.A. building... WENT TO THE HUMAN COMEDY - SO VERY VERY FINE. I CRIED, OF COURSE. MRS. STOTE BOUGHT ME A PR of WHITE GLOVES - MOTHER SENT A CARD + HANKY. I'M SO GLAD I SENT THE candy HOME.

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1939 12:45 Sat gr-r-r - I had to work all day. - and I made a mistake every 5 minutes. Glenn said (when he had to shoot some stuff over for me that he'd do anything for the "little blonde" - so Georgia told me!) - "little" - I love that - Too bad he's engaged I really intended to relax this evening, but played bridge at Marguerite's - I haven't been seeing nearly enough of the girls - Ray called right after M. - I was rather glad to have an excuse - no that I didn't want to see him - But mustn't so often

1940 I can barely manage to write about today - I have never been in quite such an emotional mess in my life - Last night's set to with Dad + then Jake + Mick this morning. Mr. Eide + Leonard + Mother helped.

1941 oh, that this hellish week were over - just got done recording grades - a farce. And such a lot of labor.

1942 Wed 12:30 oh sweet night - B.Boe hung around the art dept all day. She actually came to Creative Writing, too! - But Leonard the darling asked me out. We - + Bill + Shirley went out to Billy's. I'm reassured.

1943 12:30 GOT THE so beautiful PICTURES OF Leonard. I BURST INTO TEARS UNEXPECTEDLY WHEN I SAW HIM LOOKING LIKE HE THOUGHT OF ME... Gee, THEY ARE good. I'D FORGOTTEN HOW FINE HE IS, almost. I GOT A STORY ON BABY PANTS; A COUPLE SKETCHES. WE ATE AT HOTEL Madison THIS NOON; DONNA CAME OVER Mickey AND I LOOKED FOR Rooms.

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1939 1:15 Friday We went to chapel to-gether - I wrote a Shakespeare test on "Othello" - worked this aft. - Jeanette MacDonald was in town. We went downtown to catch a glimpse of her before the concert and didn't - Ray + I went to a movie. He told me I looked like Constance Bennet! I've definitely got to hold on to myself a bit more.

1940 12:00 - My God, what a mess! - Dad really made a scene when I came in tonight. If mother feels that way, I'd give up Bill that quick... I'm sure I'm not going to fall for that mug. -

1941 oh hell!

1942 Tues Oh lonely evening + blue. - Mother went to Brookings today. (Beg pardon, bridged an election). Rhoda Meyer came out to school this afternoon. She's swell. I washed clothes.

1943 11:30 MRS. STOTE LIKED Baby Shoes. I WAS GRATIFIED... I SENT A REGISTERED letter + 2 PACKAGES (DRESS, CANDY) TO MRS. L.C. UTLEY OUT IN MARKET THIS afternoon. WITHOUT MUCH success. CAME HOME TIRED, PEG + I HAD DINNER + WENT TWO A MOVIE - "Hired Wife"! - SHE IS rather DOWN. I'LL MISS HER