OCTOBER 8

1939 Sunday again. – It wasn’t so bad as usual, at least there was a foot-ball poster to design + cut just to break the monotony (and drive me crazy!)

1940 12:00 WELL, imagine, I almost enjoyed myself to-night. I was sort of dreading to go to the “Teacher Bridge Club” And it turned out not grim at all.. Still don’t feel like I belong though… God, if I can live through these next five days + accomplish something, I shall be grateful! –

1941 Wed Wonder if anyone else besides me realized there were 4 of us who have dated L. over at Mary Hanson’s tonight. They are certainly sweet gals – I’m tired – Oi – That Lecture –

1942 THURS Designed the letterhead for the CLUB’s stationary… had lunch with Mr. Spitznagel + Don Douthit. Dug up Durwood folks to audition for them… Caught only a fleeting glimpse of LEONARD today… wonder if he feels a little ashamed – the way I do – about last night

1943 FRI WE WENT TO Early to Bed… (I’D LIKE TO BE IN JUST ONE PRODUCTION SOME TIME)… QUELLE DAMOSELLES… WE WENT TO Martini’s AFTERWARD… WITH SOME FRIENDS OF HERMAN’S. – I LIKED AL – I TALKED TO TWO MIDSHIPMEN, WHILE WAITING IN HOPES OF SEEING VIC… THEY WANT DATES FOR THE DANCE! I WON TONIGHT! ! !

OCTOBER 7

1939 First game to-day – Philo – sold feathers. – Saw Roger K. – he certainly looks marvelous. – Went to “The Women” to-night.

1940 11:00 aha, Monday’s over! – gee, it wasn’t bad at all… I think I’ll just give up trying to be mean… I might as well salvage my disposition. – Worked all day. Betty has fixed a meeting tomorrow with a fella whose interested in me. Hope he pans out!

1941 Tues Full moon – fooey. (And I don’t have a homecoming date! ) – Worked all day – Heard from Lorraine + Alberta + Mrs. H. – like to go to L. Mars for homecoming! – Tom Holton ended up the way I expected – in prison! – I feel awful about it.

1942 WED LEONARD SAYS I WOULD LIKE TO “FLOAT ON A SEA OF SENSATION ALL THE TIME – WOULDN’T I?” HE CAME BY AFTER CLASS… IT WAS REALLY TOO LATE, I SUPPOSE, BUT I’D DO IT AGAIN, I THINK. IT WAS LIKE A “WARM BATH” outside…

1943 THURS IT WAS ACTUALLY QUITE FUN, THE FEDERATION, I MEAN… WE HAD DRINKS FIRST. DOROTHY + I HAD NO COMPETITION… JOHN + WALTER WERE GOOD DATES… $70,000 WAS RAISED, SUCH MONEE… WENT TO ASTOR BAR AFTERWARD – I PARTED MY HAIR IN THE MIDDLE. FEEL ITALIAN RENAISSANCE.

OCTOBER 6

1939 My mind is a mess! – Last night is all a nightmare… I hope I can sleep tonight… Sara, Marg + I went to S.F. College Coronation.

1940 10:30 Well, I WASTED TODAY VERY PLEASANTLY. ATE HOT BISCUIT FOR BREAKFAST WENT TO CHURCH COMMUNION SUNDAY – I WAS SO GLAD I WENT) WITH MRS. REEVES… WAS QUITE LONELY FOR MOTHER… HAD BOILED DINNER WITH REEVES… WENT TO “NO TIME FOR COMEDY” WITH MARV + EVA… IT WAS SWELL… ROC PLAYED KIND OF WOMAN I ASPIRE TO BE. WROTE 4 LETTERS TONIGHT… LIVE FOR WK-END –

1941 11:00 (Well, I’m a compromiser from way back – didn’t do all my exercises!-) Wish I could just talk w/ Leonard. – Busy, busy day (pooey) – classes – Ladies Auxiliary (migosh) lamb chops – criticized drawing of Hal Bowlings - coked – ironed + ironed + ironed

1942 TUES BABY, YOU’RE REALLY UNPREDICTABLE… I WAS PREPARED FOR A QUIET EVENING AT HOME; YOU CAME OVER AND SPIRITED ME OFF to THE DANCE… BUT YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU WANT with ME WHEN YOU MAKE ME FEEL THE WAY I DID to-NIGHT AND TELL ME THAT YOU love ME ! !

1943 FELT RAT-

OUT IN THE MARKET, AGAIN…

OCTOBER 5

1939 10:10 Marie has been perfect… I don’t think I could have stood it if she hadn’t… The next headache is a H.C. date! I have been trying to soak out some of my mixed emotions in a hot bath – God, what hell you have to go through just for a lousy home-coming… There has been some discussion as to whether the gals like the colors + their gowns after the whole thing has been decided! I wish Ray were here!

1940 9:30 Just one more disappointment. No D.J. – Got a telegram this afternoon, but no details. I can’t imagine what would keep her from coming… Today, I’m afraid, saw nothing very important accomplished… I went bike-riding with some high school girls… I’m afraid I really don’t give a damn about the public opinion…

1941 Sun (What’ll I wear tomorrow?) I’ve aroused a few latent good intentions again… Know one reason I’m so discontented w/ myself is my weight! Cloudy – no Gable + Lombard – special fr. Eleanor

1942 MON MR. WITMER UPPED IT TO $25.00; BUT I STILL SAID NO… MAYBE I’M NUTS, I DON’T KNOW…

1943 TUES Finally wrote to Leonard. – Was out in markets all day. (Mrs. Stote does not handle me right!) Go to bed early, dummy!

OCTOBER 4

1939 11:30 tore around all day, cutting classes right + left. – We picked out patterns + material – silver lame + black moire It was my idea. I hope the gals like it. Krause read some of his verse to-night

1940 10:30 And another meeting of the “THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY” Club has had another session… Gee, I think I’m a lousy teacher… Hazel W. told me that Bob R. says I’m the “best teacher he ever had” – which is a pretty bad sign. D.J. is coming tomorrow. Hope we have fun…

1940 Put my hair in a bang – maybe it’ll lift my morale. – which was quite low until I took a booful nap this aft. Spitz was out. – he’s swell – Chils took us to dinner + a show.

1942 SUN WENT DOWN TO THE TRAIN… WE ALL MADE IT IN SPITE of BEING UP SO LATE… LEONARD + John HAD BREAKFAST WITH HIM… Leonard WILL MISS BOB A GREAT DEAL, AND VICE VERSA… WE ALL WILL… WENT TO CHURCH WITH VIRGINIA – THE EPISCOPAL Church… IT RAINED…

1943 MON Much singing tonight… It was gay fun… I had strongly intended to go to bed, but not when they started in singing Rawshin songs! – Sent the Prophet to Don Gregory – And, coincidentally heard from him, he’s 20 months in New Guinea

OCTOBER 3

1939 and here it is “tomorrow” – I’ve been to hell + back again. – For a while, I really thought I was going to be Queen – Then when I brought my little envelope home and opened it up to an apparently blank sheet of paper! – but it wasn’t blank – Marie is Queen

1940 GA, BUT I’M WOOZY, CAN HARDLY HOLD UP THE HEAD… FINISHED THEM DAMN OLE THEMES (REACTION TO CORRECTING GRAMMAR ERRORS) WISH I COULD HAVE HAD MY WALK AGAIN TONIGHT… 2ND PERIOD ASSEMBLY WAS BAD…. I MUST CLAMP DOWN. BUT GEE, I DON’T BLAME ANY OF THEM FOR WHAT THEY DO… I’M A LUCKY TEACHER!

1941 – GEE, THE “U” GAME – WHAT A BIG DISAPPOINTMENT! – I WAS W/ MARIE + CLARA – FELT HORRIBLE ALL DAY. DIDN’T GET AROUND TO CASHING CHECK. I’M A MESS.

1942 SAT. HA! – WE BEAT THEM! … VERY satisfactory EVENING WE WERE ALL TOGETHER: SHIRLEE + BILL [AFTER SOME DIFFICULTY, I GUESS]… D.J. + BOB [LeonardGOT DONNA FOR BOB] … AND Leonard + ME… WE LINGERED LOVINGLY AT THE PALACE FOR AGES… SAT OUT IN FRONT FOR A TIME, too…

1943 SUN CALLED ON LOIS + SULLY. MET ROG – A SOLID CITIZEN… I TOOK VIC TO DINNER IT WAS NICE. HE’S CERTAINLY DIFFERENT. THAN WHAT HE WAS…

OCTOBER 2

1939 Well, tomorrow at this time, I reckon I’ll know if I’m eliminated – or an attendant – or (miracle of miracles) the other! I observed down at H.S. all morning – I’ll be under Lois Cowan

1940 PHOOEY, I’M GOING TO BED. I SPOSE I’LL BE SORRY TOMORROW… BUT WHEN IS TOMORROW? – AFTER DINNER TONIGHT I TOOK THE KEENEST WALK… NIGHT WAS WINDY, RAINY, PERFECT – WENT CLEAR OUT TO A HILL… A PERFECT CLIMAX I KNEW IT WOULD LOOK THE WAY IT DID… STARRY SOUTH… THE TOWN, LOW, SHINING, LIGHTED –

1941 Babe, what you need is a big dose of self-respect! ! And you’re not doing a damn thing about getting it! ! Okay okay okay!

1942 FRI I ASKED BOB OVER FOR DINNER. Wished I COULD HAVE ASKED Leonard too! – GEE, IF ONLY DAD HADN’T SAID + DID WHAT HE DID THIS summer! – SHIRLEY THOUGHT I WAS BEING DOUBLE X’ed – IT TURNED OUT TO BE HER. Leonard WOULDN’T GO WITH HAROLD + BILL – HA…

1943 SAT GEE, BUT WE HAD FUN; BUT I’M WORRIED VIC IS TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY – TOO MUCH SO. AND HE MUSN’T… PERHAPS HE JUST HAD A LITTLE TOO MUCH TO DRINK… WE HAD A SWELL DINNER – MANHATTANS FIRST – CHICKEN + CHOCOLATE CAKE… (+ VIC’S ICE CREAM!)… AND TO THE WALDORF – TSK TSK.

OCTOBER 1

1939 Sun. And I swore I would never spend another Sunday like this one! – The moon came up yellow and full. It didn’t hurt so badly when it got higher + was paler. –

1940 12:30 MY GOLLY, HERE I’M NOT THROUGH CORRECTING THOSE DAMN TESTS YET… I’LL NEVER GET CAUGHT UP! – A VISIT FROM MR. C. TODAY. I WAS OVERRUN WITH FEARS + TREPIDATIONS! – BUT ALL WAS OKAY… LANDED IN MLLE AGAIN. LOOKED PRETTY GOOD… TODAY WAS PRETTY SUCCESSFUL FOR A CHANGE!

1941 (Mlle, this year, is without me.) – It looks as if I will have enough time this year to really make something of myself! – (Can I do it?) Went to Cr. Wr. – Emil, Bill Wilbur + I went to Looks – fun

1942 THURS LEONARD AND JOHN AND BOB CAME BY TONIGHT AND TOOK ME DOWN TO Look’s WITH THEM… WE ABSORBED BOB BERG and BOB RIEF, too… LEONARD GOT QUITE A SHOCK, I GUESS; DIDN’T SUSPECT I KNEW ANY “RIVAL” MATERIAL! WE TALKED and TALKED – Hemingway + hunger + company

1943 FRI OH GOD, HERE WE GO AGAIN! – PART OF HIM I LOATHE, PART I LIKE… I HOPE SOME REAL ISSUE ARISES THAT WE DIFFER UPON… WE SAW “TOMORROW THE WORLD” AND WENT DOWN TO THE VANGUARD… GAVE SOME MORE BLOOD TO THE RED CROSS. BOUGHT JOHN’S GIFT, FINALLY. ACCOMPLISHED A LITTLE. SAW VIC FOR A WHILE. Heard from Mother + Leonard.

SEPTEMBER 30

1939 11:00 Wilma is here to-night. She comes once a year + usually has a new car. We talked to the printers

1940 GEE – DEMORALIZED – TRY TO FINISH PAPERS, NO GO… OH HELL, MIGHT AS WELL GO TO BED! – BOB REES, HARLEY ROLLINGER, BRICK WIDENFELLER MY 3 CUTEST FELLAS HAD THEIR HEADS SHAVED! THEY ARE UTTERLY REVOLTING… ATE DINNER AT NOON… NEVER AGAIN… STUFFED !

1941 Tues Is this going to be a rut? – Kid you’ve got to watch yourself - $11.00 isn’t worth it. – D.J. + I went for a ride. Air-port, hot choc.

1942 WED WORE MY GREY FLANNEL SLACKS TODAY OUT TO school… LEONARD LIKES ‘EM… SAYS I’M ONE OF FEW GALS WHO CAN “MAKE LIKE A BOY” SUCCESSFULLY.

1943 THURS BOUGHT A SLICK NEW WHITE BRA AND A NEW LIPSTICK… AN UPLIFT, BOTH! I STARTED ON THE NOVEMBER COVER. A JEWISH HOLIDAY TODAY… EVERYTHING WAS BENIGNLY, BEAUTIFULLY QUIET!… WORE MY OLD PINK DRESS AND IT WAS LIKED. IMAGINE

SEPTEMBER 29

1939 Seemed like all I did today was eat apple pie – Observed all aft. in H.S. – Forensics scavenger party tonight Quite –

1940 SUN WELL, HERE I AM BACK IN MY DULL, STUPID EXISTENCE OF SCHOOL TEACHING… OF COURSE I GOT NOTHING DONE… BUT WASHED MY HAIR, VISITED VIRGINIA AT THE HOSPITAL… THE POOR KID HAS REALLY BEEN TO HELL + BACK… HORRIBLE!… SHE ALMOST HERSELF AGAIN NOW THOUGH… GOT 2 SWELL LETTERS FROM “MABEL”… THAT KID IS ABSOLUTELY MARVELOUS… HEARD CLAIRE DE LUNE ALL BY MYSELF IN THE DARK… THOUGHT ABOUT LEONARD…

1941 Mon There was no “savour” to today. – My fault, I imagine. Was 5 minutes late, this morning! (Never, again, Marion) Wrote to Mrs. R. – Wonder if Eleanor will be married? – Leonard wasn’t in school. – It’s raining – cold.

1942 TUES BOB HAD US ALL UP TO Luverne TO DINNER – BILL, JOHN K, BOB B, SHIRLEY, LEONARD AND I… LEONARD HAD ANOTHER JAG OF IGNORING ME ALL EVENING… HE HAD A HORRIBLE cold… I DIDN’T CARE… BOB’S FOLKS ARE SWELL…

1943 WED MUCH BETTER. MRS. STOTE APOLOGIZED FOR CALLING ME INARTICULATE. I’M GLAD SHE DID FOR I RESENTED IT… WENT OVER TO THE B. CONCERT - LOIS, DONNA + I VIC + GEORGE CAME + SAT with US… IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL EVENING – PINK SKY. STILL NO NEWS FROM PRIVATE PAYNE.

SEPTEMBER 28

1939 Looked at 1939 Monogram – Payne did a nice job – Best high school annual I’ve seen – I might try + get Bill McC to work on the book if I can – I’m really worried about election – I only hope I’m not entirely eliminated –

1940 Sat WELL I CERTAINLY GALLIVANTED AROUND TODAY… PAID OUT ABOUT $50! (WISH I KNEW WHAT TO DO ABOUT BILL AT BUSINESS OFFICE) – SARI AND I HAD A V. NICE LUNCHEON FOR MARG DOWN AT SHRIVERS’… LINEN SHOWER… GOT TO TALK TO MARIE A LITTLE… I COULD SCRATCH ROLF’S EYES OUT… I SAW D.J. TONIGHT… I THINK SHE WILL COME SEE ME NEXT WEEKEND… GOT MY GLASSES AND A SNAZZY NEW SQUEEZER… DIDN’T SEE L TODAY.

1941 Rather quiet Sunday. Marie + I read funnies in bed – breakfast w/ folks – dinner. – M.J. Willging came in from LeMars (so glad to talk to her) Jo stopped in before she left. Looked so swell. – Marie + I ate at Java Rm. – D.J. + I went to “Love Crazy”

1942 MON MR. SPITZNAGEL WANTS ME TO DO SOME DECORATING ON A PRIVATE Club – SHOULD BE FUN…

1943 TUES A NASTY LITTLE DAY… FRAUGHT WITH MAKING CALLS FOR THE UNITED STATES TREASURY! – I WISH THAT REPORT WERE GOING TO LOOK BETTER! – I THINK I SHOULD GO SEE Mlle SOON. FELT PHLEGMATIC TODAY – LOW. READ THOMAS WOLF atop 5TH ave bus.

SEPTEMBER 27

1939 Carp is so swell to me – comes after me + takes me home every Wed creative wr. night – That boy will go places, I think. He + Stan ragged me about being “Queen” all evening – ha!

1940 FRI GEE, HOW SWELL… WENT TO GAME WITH BOB + LEONARD… THEY WERE SO DAMN SWEET TO ME… WE SAW “HAZEL” AT THE PALACE… (I WOULD HAVE GIVEN ANYTHING IF IT HAD BEEN BILL SHE WAS WITH!) I FIND THAT PROXIMITY ENDANGERS THE DURABILITY OF THE PATCH ON MY HEART… PROXIMITY OF THE GUY WHAT DONE IT… BOTH OF THEM ARE GETTING SO G. LOOKING

1941 Exhausting Morning – Felt rotten – Cold this aft. – saw Jo + Iver. – Marie is staying with me – D.J. + Bettie Edwards were over + drank tea

1942 SUN I THINK IT WAS TONIGHT I READ ALDOUS HUXLEY’S “After Many a Summer Dies the Swan” – QUITE UPSETTING.. I CAN’T FORGET IT…

1943 MON – LA, BUT I HATED TO GO TO WORK. HERE I WAS BUT RUSHED ALL DAY. SHOULD BEEN BONDING

SEPTEMBER 26

1939 I went down to H.S. + observed today. It was fun. – Ruth Bach was pretty surprised. Went to Big – Little Sister theater party. Saw Sari – Back from her vacation. Def. in love!

1940 THURS THANK GOD TOMORROW IS FRIDAY AND I’M A GOIN’ HOME! – MAYBE I DON’T EXACTLY NEED TO, BUT I’VE GOT SOME PRETTY GOOD EXCUSES SO I THINK I WILL… BLANCHE + I WENT DOWN + HAD SOME COFFEE TONIGHT… I TOLD “AW” ABOUT MY “LOVE LIFE” A BAD HABIT; BUT I SEEM TO GET A VICARIOUS PLEASURE OUT OF IT… I OUGHT TO BE MORE CAGEY!…

1941 Fri Whoops – one class – played records in techniques (Leonard’s were swell) Went to Moosic. Marg + Sara + I saw Mata Hari + ate carameled apples.

1942 SAT WILMA WAS HERE THIS WEEKEND… SHE’S ABSOLUTELY amazing… SHE NEVER SEEMS ANY OLDER AND SHE’S 40! – LOOKS ABOUT 30 – AT THE MOST…

1943 SUN. A QUIET DAY… I WROTE A LETTER. WE ENTERTAINED BOB SNOOK at BREAKFAST. I THOUGHT TOO MUCH, PERHAPS, ABOUT VIC… TSK. TSK… EDITH + I WENT TO MUSEUM OF M. ART… IT WAS SUNSHINY, OCTOBER – COLD. I MUST YET WRITE SOME MORE LETTERS… I LOATHE THE IDEA OF MONDAY IF ONLY IT WOULD BE SUNDAY FOREVER.

SEPTEMBER 25

1939 Monday There were 10 candidates for Homecoming queen nominated by the Ex council. Which is a merry mess – I’ll know Sat if I’m still in the running. It’s snowing out. Marguerite came over + walked to Wyeth – stayed.

1940 Wed Well, I hope I accomplish more tonight than I did last… It is so perfect out – clear, clean, brittle fall… would like to be on a picnic at home – WELL, I GUESS THIS PAST 4 WKS HAS BEEN WORTH THAT $120 CHECK I GOT TODAY! – makes me think I can probably stand it. Got that godawful Spelling class re-arranged thank goodness!

1941 Thurs I think I was a little more coherent in my Hist of Art Lecture – Anyhow they seemed interested! – rode to school on a motorcycle! – Mother had Mrs. V + Eunice + Marg over for dinner – I’m walking to Eide’s. It’s crisp + starry out

1942 FRI

1943 SAT I REALLY HAD A SWELL EVENING with VIC. HE HAS changed, I DO THINK. WE HAD DINNER AT CALLUCI’S… MOVIE AT THE Roxy (a WONDERFUL STAGE SHOW – PAUL DRAPER) THEN DANCED + DRANK A WHILE. HE KISSED ME IN A TAXI – NO SLOUCH, HE… THIS MORNING, WE WATCHED THE MIDSHIPMEN DRILL. WAVED AT AN AUGGIE LAD.

SEPTEMBER 24

1939 Sundays are usually lonely. This was no exception – in fact, it was worse than most. – I loathed myself all day – By evening I wasn’t fit company for anyone – I put on my winter coat – sat out in the moonlight + got over it!

1940 TUES 11:00 HERE I AM TRYING TO CONCENTRATE ON MY LESSON PLANS + NOT SUCCEEDING AT ALL. I DON’T LIKE GRAMMAR! – WELL, I WAS NASTY ALL DAY, AND IT DIDN’T EVEN DEPRESS ME – MAYBE I’LL BECOME INURED TO IT? –

1941 12:50 JUST WROTE A HECK OF A GOOD LETTER TO MLLE – WITH ALL THE EVIDENCE INTACT – HOPE IT NETS ME SOMETHING. – SEEMS LIKE I’M NOT TIRED WHEN I’M ABSORBED IN WHAT I’M DOING – HAD A NICE DAY AT SCHOOL –

1942 THURS

1943 FRI I DON’T THINK I WANT TO SEE Herman AGAIN. HE CAME OVER ABOUT NINE – WE WALKED, WENT TO A MOVIE… THEN UP RIVERSIDE – MY NEMESIS… I LOATHE HAVING HIM KISS ME… I HOPE HE DOESN’T CALL AGAIN. IT WILL BE MUCH SIMPLER… BOB SNOOK CALLED I HAD LUNCH with HIM. WE DON’T HAVE TO WORK Saturdays

SEPTEMBER 23

1939 Sat- (Formal Reception) Glamour Girl sans man! – I wore my hair up - + I looked super – and came home alone! – I guess I didn’t concentrate on one enough!

1940 MON Oh God! – I loath being hateful but I guess I’ll have to deal with it! – I am depressed… Taking bath doing exercises helped, though!

1941 WHICH YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE TONIGHT! – ELEANOR CALLED… PHILLIP STAYED UNTIL MONDAY! TSK, TSK – I’LL BET THEY GET MARRIED – I HOPE SHE LOVES HIM ENOUGH… I LAY IN A STUPOR ON THE DAVENPORT AFTER SUPPER, FINALLY REVIVED ENOUGH TO WRITE TO MIKE L. LEONARD + I SAID “GOOD-MORNING” TO EACH OTHER

1942 WED

1943 THURS GEE, DOPEY, WE’VE BEEN LAX – YOU’LL NEVER CATCH UP IN HERE – TOO MUCH HAS HAPPENED; SO YOU BETTER JUST TAKE IT FROM “NOW” – LEONARD WROTE OF GLAD TIDINGS – OH, GOD, I ONLY HOPE IT WORKS OUT! – AND SO BEAUTIFULLY OF ALL I WISHED TO HEAR… HE IS SO FINE… MOTHER WROTE, too

SEPTEMBER 22

1939 Spent the day looking for people + not finding ‘em. I’ll have to go out to school tomorrow! – long time at my window to-night thinking about home-coming. (If only I were sure of a date!)

1940 Sun 12:30 I’d almost forgotten how it felt to be “bossed” – well I remember now, vividly – Maybe it was my fault – but I don’t think so… E. LEFT ON 5:30 TRAIN. – D.J. TOOK ME for a ride tonight we ate popcorn. I left a note for Bill

1941 11:00? (RUSSIA HAS PRACTICALLY FALLEN… IS AT LEAST WEAKENED TERRIBLY… WHERE IS THIS INSANITY TO END?) – I CERTAINLY DIDN’T CURB MY APPETITE AS I HAD INTENDED TO – TSK, TSK. – DAY DIDN’T GO BADLY AT ALL… BOB + I LISTENED TO BACH’S CONTATA + FUGUE… WROTE ELEANOR

1942 TUES

1943 WED I’M GETTING MORE + MORE organized AGAIN, I THINK… [THANK GOODNESS…] PEG + I WENT FOR A WALK ALONG THE RIVER – SO BEAUTIFUL + SHINY WITH LIGHTS… HIGH SCHOOL BOYS WANTED TO PICK US UP. WE SHYLY DEMURRED… ATE WITH HERMAN. HE WAS VERA CURIOUS ABOUT Leonard.

SEPTEMBER 21

1939 Only one class to-day accomplished a little – I seem to be the only one in Bible who’ll “discuss” Marguerite + I went to “The Rains Came” – We talked about men + techniques – as usual!

1940 SAT I DON”T know. Something is OFF. Oi – I should be kicked – but I guess I didn’t have as much fun as I planned… Virginia is in the hospital. Eleanor, Bob + I went to foot ball game

1941 SUN I’M NOT ALONE, FOR A CHANGE, … HAVE SOME LOVELY GOOD INTENTIONS SLEEPING BESIDE ME TONIGHT… I ONLY HOPE THEY STICK AROUND FOR A WHILE… SPENT THE DAY IRONING, GETTING ORGANIZED… D.J. + I WENT TO MR. JORDON… IT WAS MARVELOUS… MAKES YOU KIND OF STOP + THINK –

1942 MON I THINK IT WAS HERE WE WENT TO Louis Armstrong… I WORE MY BLACK DRESS… [MY SLIP KEPT CREEPING UP ON ME, though]… LEONARD GOT FRIENDLY WITH SOME SOLDIERS, and I WAS PRACTICALLY MOBBED… HE SORT OF NOTICED ME, then –

1943 TUES I’M GLAD I’M HERE… THE PAINTING OF LEONARD’S CAME… I’LL LIKE IT IN MY ROOM. MY LITTLE, SMALL BRIGHT ROOM. AT 609 WEST 115^TH STREET NEW YORK CITY.

SEPTEMBER 20

1939 Went to Creative Writing – I guess I’ll be taking it for another year – B. Funey is in the class – Carp + Bob + I listened to B.L. + I.L. fight afterwards

1940 FRI GEE, home again – sleeping with Eleanor – seems almost as if we’d never been gone, really… Dragged her out to school where she met D.Gregory. Saw Howard, Bob, Mr. E. – it rained – we talked

1941 2:00 I AM A HELLUVA GAL… I REVOLT ME… I AM NEVER HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE – MR. S. STOPPED IN THIS MORNING… LOVE HIM… SWELL GUY… HAS A LITTLE JOB UP AT Cole’s FOR ME… CHILS + MARIE WERE OVER FOR DINNER; WE WENT TO THE GAME + TO A MOVIE –

1942 SUN I THINK IT WAS THIS DAY I WAS SO ACUTELY tortured… MY GOD! – IT WAS TERRIBLE. HOW CAN Eleanor DO WHAT SHE DOES… MADE EVERYTHING COMPLETELY miserable FOR ME. –

1943 MON PAIN + DESOLATION. I WAS FULL OF SADNESS + HEARTSICK WHEN I GOT BACK; THEN BARBARA IS GOING BACK TO TEXAS. I MOVED IN with PEG + LOIS + DONNA… I HOPE IT WILL WORK OUT OKAY. I’M SOUL-TIRED.

SEPTEMBER 19

1939 Tues Cole (R) doesn’t seem to think that papier mache will work – but he still is interested however. Worked on foot ball posters…

1940 Thurs Dammit! I knew it. Eleanor didn’t come after all; Dad came back too late… I should have done something instead of just fooling around this evening!

1941 Fri 10:30 “Techniques” had water-colors outside today – even if it was windy – I enjoy it so much. Went to Mr. Lee’s class – Wasted this aft. washed clothes tonight – D.J. + I went riding for a while

1942 SAT MAYBE I’M CRAZY, BUT I TURNED DOWN DAYTON’S… I WAS INSULTED AT $22.50 A WEEK! I MIGHT FIGURE IT WAS WORTH IT, IF I COULD DO WHAT I WAS CRAZY ABOUT IT – CUT out A RED DRESS. BOB B. WAS HERE

1943 SUN. SARA + JANE PUT ME ON THE TRAIN… THIS IS AWFUL. FEEL DESPERATELY INTROVERTED, VERY SAD. SO LONESOME… I WASHED MY HAIR THIS MORNING WHILE S + J WERE AT CHURCH – I FEEL NOTHING. CARE FOR NOTHING. EVERYTHING IS MECHANICAL, AUTOMATIC.