APRIL 28

1939 11:30 - Dad + Mother brought me out to school and I worked on place-cards + decorations. Ray waited for me after he got through work. He is so perfectly swell to me. He told me to have a good time tomorrow night!

1940 Sun 1:00 - Well, I quit! - I really intended to get done tonight - But after a half hour ride with Bill - what's the use?

1941 Some much needed inspiration - Foley + Yolande. - suave. Gee, what a tango. Today came the P. appointment I feel I really should go. (June 23) - And might as well begin planning for it!

1942 10:30 [Hell, such a moon - outside the air is heavy with plum blossoms - and we have so little time...] Caricatures were all over the place this A.M. - Shirley + I added our bit... Washed clothes. Heard Pres.

1943 WED I AM NERVOUS and DISGRUNTLED - FOR NO GOOD REASON. EVERYTHING SEEMS TO irritate ME! [I EVEN BOUGHT A PACKAGE of CIGARETTES] WROTE HOME, AND TO D.J.... MAYBE SHE WILL COME TO NEW YORK RODE DOWN 5TH AVE BUS STOP. SAW GOOD HOUSEKEEPING NURSERY EXHIBIT + ST. THOMAS

APRIL 27

1939 11:10 Tonight Mr. Spitznagel called me for a job - There is a chance for me to let go on some wall panels (caricatures of movie stars) at an Ice Cream Bar next to the Hollywood I hope this is one dream that doesn't fall through I'm so excited about it. Mrs. S. came out to school + as luck would have it - I was working on J.S. stuff the same sort of thing he wants! Ray brought me home We are going to J. Barrymore the 2nd

1940 Sat 1:15 Bill was awfully sweet to me tonight. I am beginning to think he is really sincere. He kids, but at the same time he means it. We went to Rebecca + window shopped (engagement rings, double beds!) - Tomorrow the last lap on the P de P

1941 FRUSTRATION, I guess that's the word for it. The night is perfect - for a picnic. And here I am - ready for bed. Dennis Lennihow, anyhow. It's all his fault. I was already to be monastic (is that the word?) And then he had to come along!

1942 11:00 BABE, you were certainly dopey today... how do you explain it? - (Maybe it's that I feel affectionate when I'm sleepy) - Leonard upset me completely this aft - or he would have but I evaded him. (hypocritical?) - over to All Saints - FOO

1943 TUES 11:30 A BUSY DAY - I LIKE 'EM LIKE THAT! - DID ILLUSTRATIONS FOR BABY SHOES... FUN... ADA and I ATE LUNCH - AND POPSICLES IN THE Park... PEG SEWED A SKIRT, I MENDED, BAWTHED... HAD A SWEET LETTER FROM Mother.

APRIL 26

1939 11:25 We heard the choir tonight. It was flawless. Mimi broke her ankle after her recital last night. Ray + Phil + Whitie + I went over to the anchor afterward - "Things" are a lot better

1940 12 What a day what a day - Clara + I did Gladys + Mabel for Student Body + over the air. I soived a luncheon for Mother - Saw Bill at the Garage Clara + I worked till 11:30 tonight. " missed a shower.

1941 It was a bootiful day, except it didn't end right. Dennis picked us up after we came out of the Pantry. (in slacks + eating ice cream cones. I could tell he had a date; because he said he would call if he got done w/ some reports. I was stupid. Should have been SWEET. - 

1942 12:45 (now, instead of so boisterous) We wenona picnic - It rained intermittently during the evening. Wrote letters today. Saw Helen Lindseth. We still have nothing in Common -

1943 Mon 1:00 Felt quite extroverted today. Rather a quiet afternoon... Ate with Eleanor Vatcher at the Garden... Peg went to New Jersey so I ate with Mickey at the Gold Rail. Went to nasty Little Foxes - ate an ice cream cone -

APRIL 25

1939 11:30 I'm rather upset. I can't can't tell whether I'm being sincere or just cheap -

1940 Bill came over + we went for a walk; he asked me if I thought I could ever be happy without knowing impt people and living on "enough" - ! ! ? ? - We bought penny candy -

1941 Well the tuition party is over, thank goodness! And it's FRIDAY... (Hope I don't waste tomorrow just waiting for Dennis to call)

1942 Sat 2:00 Just got a "special" from Virginia + read it in bed. She's swell. It was sweet of Wilber to take me out tonight. Saw King's Raw w/ D.J. this aft. we met Legend on the street!

1943 Sun 1:10 Peggy + I went to Presbyterian Church this morning, came back for breakfast, I dissipated the afternoon walking by the river, talking to Midshipmen. We went to Flight for Freedom. It's Balmy out. We got ice cream + finished up the cookies

APRIL 24

1939 11:15 I even felt slightly awful when I woke up this morning. But I felt better as the day wore on... Paid $10 of my own money out at the collitch this morning - Ray brought me home this noon + explained why he didn't call - He waited for me out at school to-night + I had gone home w/ Margaret - He called tonight there was a dust-storm. Now it rains

1940 Well - I'm dead - Clara + I had our usual post mortem after class - I don't think I'll discuss Bill with her anymore - to such length, I mean -

1941 Thurs. Not so bad - (But I have tomorrow to live through) Even I kept on top of that 7th period class. Talked too fast and lost my voice -

1942 FRI 12:00 D.J. + I just had another of our wild experiences. Got caught in a culvert - until we found the emergency break on! - I still don't know about that Tues night; but I do trust Leonard... And if anything did happen it is he who must tell me...

1943 3:45 I SLEPT UNTIL ABOUT 12:00 AFTER DINNER. GOT UP + WASHED MY HAIR + STUFF and FEEL THE BETTER FOR IT! ... Peg + I SAW Traviata THIS AFT, ATE spaghetti at TOFFENETI'S. Finally HEARD FROM DARLING LEONARD.

APRIL 23

1939 10:50 - Sunday evenings are always lonesome. I sat out on the steps and listened to a frog. Ray and I went shooting this afternoon. It was a perfect - almost summer - day... He was going to call me tonight... I went on a picnic with the girls

1940 4:00 - Well I got something done. 3 "sketches". I've been writing since one - I hope they are worth reading. Bill called tonight...

1941 Another burner, only worse. I feared for my sanity, even. But now I'm okay. Funny what a warm bath + a meal will do for your morale.

1942 Thurs 10:00! - I'm in bed + damn glad of it. Feel woozy + sneezy - hope I'm not getting Leonard's cold... Didn't see him all day - It was still windy + warm. Lee is ill. No banquet date!

1943 1:20 HERMAN TOOK ME TO DINNER; WE SAW THE PRESS Photographer EXHIBIT AT R.C.A. building... WENT TO THE HUMAN COMEDY - SO VERY VERY FINE. I CRIED, OF COURSE. MRS. STOTE BOUGHT ME A PR of WHITE GLOVES - MOTHER SENT A CARD + HANKY. I'M SO GLAD I SENT THE candy HOME.

APRIL 22

1939 12:45 Sat gr-r-r - I had to work all day. - and I made a mistake every 5 minutes. Glenn said (when he had to shoot some stuff over for me that he'd do anything for the "little blonde" - so Georgia told me!) - "little" - I love that - Too bad he's engaged I really intended to relax this evening, but played bridge at Marguerite's - I haven't been seeing nearly enough of the girls - Ray called right after M. - I was rather glad to have an excuse - no that I didn't want to see him - But mustn't so often

1940 I can barely manage to write about today - I have never been in quite such an emotional mess in my life - Last night's set to with Dad + then Jake + Mick this morning. Mr. Eide + Leonard + Mother helped.

1941 oh, that this hellish week were over - just got done recording grades - a farce. And such a lot of labor.

1942 Wed 12:30 oh sweet night - B.Boe hung around the art dept all day. She actually came to Creative Writing, too! - But Leonard the darling asked me out. We - + Bill + Shirley went out to Billy's. I'm reassured.

1943 12:30 GOT THE so beautiful PICTURES OF Leonard. I BURST INTO TEARS UNEXPECTEDLY WHEN I SAW HIM LOOKING LIKE HE THOUGHT OF ME... Gee, THEY ARE good. I'D FORGOTTEN HOW FINE HE IS, almost. I GOT A STORY ON BABY PANTS; A COUPLE SKETCHES. WE ATE AT HOTEL Madison THIS NOON; DONNA CAME OVER Mickey AND I LOOKED FOR Rooms.

APRIL 21

1939 1:15 Friday We went to chapel to-gether - I wrote a Shakespeare test on "Othello" - worked this aft. - Jeanette MacDonald was in town. We went downtown to catch a glimpse of her before the concert and didn't - Ray + I went to a movie. He told me I looked like Constance Bennet! I've definitely got to hold on to myself a bit more.

1940 12:00 - My God, what a mess! - Dad really made a scene when I came in tonight. If mother feels that way, I'd give up Bill that quick... I'm sure I'm not going to fall for that mug. -

1941 oh hell!

1942 Tues Oh lonely evening + blue. - Mother went to Brookings today. (Beg pardon, bridged an election). Rhoda Meyer came out to school this afternoon. She's swell. I washed clothes.

1943 11:30 MRS. STOTE LIKED Baby Shoes. I WAS GRATIFIED... I SENT A REGISTERED letter + 2 PACKAGES (DRESS, CANDY) TO MRS. L.C. UTLEY OUT IN MARKET THIS afternoon. WITHOUT MUCH success. CAME HOME TIRED, PEG + I HAD DINNER + WENT TWO A MOVIE - "Hired Wife"! - SHE IS rather DOWN. I'LL MISS HER

APRIL 20

1939 9:40 - Thur) - I cut speech so I could work all morning  -  Walked several miles to-day. - I ran into Mr. Lee down town + helped him pick out a green neck-tie + Ray came after me at school this aft we went down to high school to watch the goons go bye -

1940 2:15 - Had waited up till I got home! - You'd think I was 16 instead of 21. - Well - Bill thinks - after tonight, I'm sure - that I'm in love with him... He really sounds sincere - I can't figure him out.

1941 20 I guess) Back again - + I still haven't those damn papers corrected - Dennis called - same song; but with variations, this time. I must be getting pretty cheap. (At least I struggled!) But D is so elemental, pretense that I didn't want him to kiss me seemed hypocritical! -

1942 Mon Damn that Betty Boe - she worked on Leonard all afternoon. If he succumbs to this, I resign - He sent me a flower + my cut on the Beck job - But I won't keep it! D.J. + I went to Dick's recital. Bored

1943 12:15 TUES $100.00 BOND FROM Mlle. D. ZACK SAYS "Lunch?" I HOPE WE DO, SOMETIME... I'M EATING TOO MUCH... WROTE SHOE ARTICLE... WAS OUT IN THE MARKET THIS AFT. FOUND LITTLE CHURCH AROUND THE CORNER THIS NOON. STAYED, AND FELT BETTER FOR IT - MOTHER WROTE, dearly. PEG + I ate at garden

APRIL 19

1939 12:20 (Wed) Today I saw the wild geese flying. The sky was bright blue and 4 or 5 flocks went winging their way west... It was beauty... I worked this afternoon - went to a "church dinner" left in time for cr. wr. class and Ray brought me home... I've got to do something... I don't have a will of my own

1940 Virginia F's mother had us over to dinner... it was her birthday - Can we be getting to be 22? - worked down at Printers. -

1941 (17) - 1:00 - Makin' out a test... Worried... Oh Hell...

1942 Sun I DON'T GET IT, MISTER PAYNE... YOU CAN COMMIT YOURSELF on WEDNESDAY + THEN LEAVE ME TO MYSELF ON A WHOLE WEEK-END. JUST DON'T MAKE ME BITTER, that's all (faculty party. - picked crocuses)

1943 11:30 OF COURSE, IT RAINED BECAUSE IT WAS Monday... Mrs Stote + I enjoyed being alone - Out this morning did okay... PEG + I WROTE TO OUR LOVES; WE ATE RY CRISP.

APRIL 18

1939 10:40 I really accomplished very little today - But I enjoy doing nothing, I guess. J.S. committee meeting - I've got to start clicking on that. Wyman + I haggled - but not seriously.  - Ray came after me out to school this aft. We rode around a while. - When he brought me home - he took advantage of the fact that no-one was home - tsk tsk!

1940 11:00 - Men are rats... I went on a picnic with the gals tonight... because I wasn't home the 2nd time Bill called, he didn't call again - oh well, oh hell, tout passe. -

1941 (19) THERE IS SO MUCH PRETENDING. I SHOULD KNOW... BUT I GUESS YOU HAVE TO, TO SOME EXTENT... LEONARD CALLED AGAIN + HAD TO TAKE IT WITH BOB. IF HE REALLY WANTS ME, HE'LL KEEP IT UP I HOPE HE ISN'T PRETENDING!

1942 Sat OH FRUSTRATION... I'd been preparing myself all day for not having a date, but still couldn't help being miserable. Cut out plaid.

1943 SUN OH IT'S A BEAUTIFUL MORNING And it was quite a beautiful day. I wrote to Eleanor + Clara. Ate a nice dinner at Childs (Nat came with me) I walked down to Evelyn Nilsens' - where I was fed gingerbread and 5 cups of coffee! Didn't go to Carnegie! - Peg + I talked

APRIL 17

1939 11:20 Dog houses are really nice places - so I've found - Ray didn't think there was anything to do but go to a "cinema" - so I said "yes" - Mother + Dad said "no" - I went (I had already accepted!) I was surprised I had a good time... But after all, I should make up my own mind at 20!

1940 11:45 - I stayed home until my 3 o'clock class (- as usual didn't allow enough time to get ready) - It was 3:30 when I got these - Cr. Writing Clara + I had one of our conversational orgies

1941 (18) Oh DAMN! - ALL I HAVE TO DO IS COME HOME + IT RAINS - HELL - MARG + KENNY TOOK ME FOR A RIDE. DENNIS DID NOT CALL; DAMN THE IRISH, ANY HOW!

1942 Fri - Went to the play - It was really swell. - good transitions * Leonard is practically ill - Peg + D.J. + I coked at the barrell. We discussed marriage in the Art Room

1943 SAT FELT awful TODAY, UNTIL HERMAN CALLED TONIGHT, APOLOGIZED ABOUT LAST NIGHT. MY LONESOME, VERY BLUE, PERSPECTIVE SHIFTED QUICKLY; WENT TO AN EDITORS' MEETING THIS MORNING. (I LIKE HERR HAIRE)... SLEPT FITFULLY THIS AFT. NEVER SEEM TO ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING ON SATIDY'S

APRIL 16

1939 11:35 Sunday - Eleanor had company tonight - we worked all day getting ready - Ray came over when he got through work. We ate in the kitchen by candle light off of the blue table cloth - we helped Ed + Eleanor Rosalind + Ward to take pictures. It was fun.

1940 Tues. - Bought some new saddles, finally. Went to 39 Steps by myself just because I wanted to. Wrote to Eleanor - She called Sunday - I hope she isn't lonely

1941 Would have gotten another new pair except for that darn faculty meeting... I was simply vague all day - I could not have had more than 3 hours sleep last night. I stewed around all day. I still think I did the right thing.

1942 Thurs Did make-up for M of Venice - didn't see it tho! Walked home w/ Peg + Wilber. Bob H. + Leonard hitch-hiked to Brookings - tsk -

1943 FRI OH GOD, ANOTHER CRISIS. HERMAN CAN SEE NOTHING BUT BITTER FUTILITY IN KEEPING THIS UP AND I AGREED WITH HIM. A TERRIBLE WAY TO END THIS; I DON'T SEE why HE HAS TO THINK HE'S IN LOVE WITH ME... COMPLICATED... WE SAW Oklahoma EXQUISITE! ATE cheese SANDWICHES, BEER; I TALKED ABOUT LEONARD...

APRIL 15

1939 Sat Worked till noon bought some sandals + met Eleanor who also bought a pr of " - (hers were $8.75!) got ready the rest of the aft... I was still slightly dour when I got ready - H. + my formal swell - We were an hour late! - My speech went off okay - We went to the show

1940 Mon Well Bill sent me 2 pr of hose. - I felt a little silly, I think... I've practically had the flu all day... Printers! ... Kraushaus's funeral was today... Marguerite came over... too much talk... I'm going to fore go it from now on.

1941 3:00 MiGod! - Here we go again. I had to tell Tommy it would be better if I didn't see him anymore... It was terribly hard to do because he was so damn swell to me... But he is really a heller... Danced with Freddie. Not even a THROB.

1942 Wed That was some Limbo we were in. - I felt strangely detached until you reassured me I held an exclusive place in your existence - Did you notice?

1943 THURS FELT QUITE AWFUL TODAY... MY NOSE runs EXCESSIVELY: MY OUT-LOOK IS BLEARY, VERY. GOT SOME PHOTOS FOR THE Mag, THOUGH... CAME HOME + AM TO BED... PHILIP IS GONE TO Moose Creek, ALASKA, WISH ELEANOR WOULD COME HERE... BUT THAT'S A PROBLEM

APRIL 14

1939 11:50 Well, chum, we haven't written a speech yet... I hope I think of something... I went to Shakespeare + wrote last week's + this week's tests - Julius Caesar and H.V. - worked from one to 5:00 - I got paid today. - $7.20! - Looked all over for some sandals - no go - Ray called up twice - He brought me home from out at school.

1940 Sunday - We worked up at school this aft... Bill came out... Leonard + Emil came over... Bill + I went out to Lake Alvin - rising half moon - portable radio - blanket - hillside... Everything but the Elements added up to Romance! Although he certainly has what it takes.

I ruined Leonard's "hose". Bill promised to buy me another pair.

1941 Well AGAIN we fill in Chicago in retrospect... back in reality again, today. Not-so-terribly harsh reality... (Damn! - Tom Halton called down at the Pantry this noon! - Damn me for saying yes!) Called Mother tonight... Washed hair, clothes + finally! - me -

1942 Tues Bob Gable brought me home. I was supposed to do some painting, but class lasted too long. - Emil is disconcerting - 

1943 Wed a mere line from Leonard - but satisfying... A long letter from Don in New Guinea. Felt awful all most all today Typed up A+S report... Felt Better tonight. Mickey + I went to a foolish movie. Pegs bathing.

APRIL 13

1939 11:10 Ran all the way out to school for an 8 o'clock class we didn't have! - Mother cut out my formal - today - I have to give a speech at the banquet! - Egad! - Ray + I went for a ride...

1940 Sat 2:30 - I better concentrate on Leonard or someone else pretty hard... Bill is too darn persuasive. He certainly messes up my little routine of things! (It was Bill's Birthday)

1941 Easter in Chicago again... Boul Mich - only sunny + beautiful, this time. The sermon was wonderful... Church impressive... stain glass - Ginny + Dotty ate dinner with us - (blah) at Jaques' - Dubbonet cocktail - Wow - Home on this forlorn train -

1942 Mon - We're starting oils in techniques class. Gee, wish I knew more about it! Went to fashion show. Backed the "Baby"... D.J. + I went bike riding - ha. Helped w/ Payne Post

1943 Tues Gee, I feel awful. Went over to Brooklyn - A+S. 200 luncheon this noon of B. Paper Editor. Had to leave during the speech. Pressed clothes tonight ate an orange, read some book

APRIL 12

1939 12:10 - Felt awful today - Struggled out to class - my head ached from the fine print of Henry Vth, - worked this aft. - Went to creative writing. - bought material (8 1/2 yds) for formal. Ray brought me home - I guess I'm going with him to the banquet

1940 I certainly hope tomorrow is forthcoming with a little pressure! Wow - I must be slipping - Everything seems so hard + so muddled up! -

1941 Sat. We went out to Karl's + Dorothy's tonight. The Baby is darling... Lovely dinner - Ride out on the El - Thank God, I'm not a commuter! - Saw Life with Father this aft... Art Institute this morning... Listened to a cute little frenchman lecture - fun.

1942 11:10 I'll have to wait until morning to find out if Anyone called while Donna + Bill + I were out riding, eating popcorn. D.J. was bothered by Leonard's remark that she should "Date Dick more often" - Darn him for that anyhow... Whipped myself together today

1943 Mon Oh I revolt me, I'm a stinker what I need is a shot of extrovertism! - But fast. It rained depressingly (me w/ m' new shoes!) Peg + I ate in the Auto-mat.

APRIL 11

1939 12:50 - I got up with Marie and ate breakfast - went back to bed until 12 - wrote my column went out to school. Peggy, Nessa + I pleasantly wasted the aft. - Ray was over tonight - I guess I'm getting my experience all right!

1940 Thurs 12:00 - Bill still says he's very much in love... I still don't believe it. We drove up to Laverne tonight... I hope to be through with copy, etc., by Sat.

1941 Fri We just got back from My Sister Eileen... which was really priceless. We had dinner at home... fun... the 2 of us... wore my feet off this morning in Field's - bought nothing... Had lunch at Henri's

1942 12:55 Shirley asked me this morning to come to the banquet. I'm glad I'd had my mind made up beforehand not to go - I think I decided the right way (for a change). Chils + I went to a show

Leonard et al came in Choc. Shop

1943 WE TOOK Bob TO THE TRAIN; I WONDER when I'LL SEE HIM AGAIN. PEG'S MARVELOUS - AND CONFIDANT. Bob + I WENT TO GREEK ORTHODOX CHURCH. WE 3 HAD DINNER AT THE GOLD RAIL; I WROTE Leonard THIS AFT - NAPPED INTERMITTENTLY. WE ATE. TALKED. THAT'S ALL.

APRIL 10

1939 2:45 - Worked all day. - 8:00 till 5:00 - Got home about 5:30 - Started getting ready washed out clothes, took a bath + stuff Joyful anticipation - But swell fun. - Marie is sleeping with me... She + Mick. I wish I knew exactly what Ray thinks of me.

1940 Wed... Krause thinks my copy is swell... I'm really pretty glad... proofread it after creative writing - I'm rather mad - Spence asked me to J. S. Blah

1941 Thurs I don't believe it, but here I am in Chicago... Eleanor looks so sweet... new Dobbs hat - bl. Suit... Sari + I had fun acting silly on the train... We were a little scared, though, I guess - Hamburgers at O'Conell's

1942 Friday 12:00 I suppose I should have kept out of this J.S. banquet; let them stir around by themselves - but golly... Worked all day on it. Tonight, too. I'm dead. Hope I last through tomorrow.

1943 SAT I'M LONESOME. NOT MUCH POINT TO ANYTHING. WISH THIS INTERVAL WERE OVER. GLAD WHEN I WON'T HAVE TO WORK ON SATIDY MORNINGS. SLEPT SOME THIS AFT. WASHED ME UP TONIGHT SPIC + SPAN. BOB + PEG WENT TO A DANCE AT THE Ritz! 

A MAN GAVE ME daisies.

I HAVE A SORE THROAT. I'M A MESS.

APRIL 9

1939 10:30 Easter - got up + went to church, Ray + I drove down to Canter's to see a train wreck (the aftermath, rather) I'm sure I was very dull... We're going to the dance tomorrow... He was going to call me when he got through work at 8:30 + didn't... I sat out on the front step all by myself + felt so lonely

1940 Tues Fooey - I didn't do anything all day... I was so infuriated with myself - I declare I'll reform ! ! ! 

1941 RAIN AGAIN... MOTHER + I went down town met Sam for lunch... out to school - deserted. Ray Seely + I got aquainted again! - Dinner at Eide's. Leonard called! Damn

1942 Thurs I should have insisted on coming home, darn it, but didn't, as usual. I've got to be more decisive... D.J. D. Hirsch + Leonard + I... Today was a heller - after I nearly had a nervous breakdown, the booth got done.

1943 FRI 3:00 HOW CAN Herman EXPECT SO MUCH WHEN HE KNOWS I DON'T reciprocate?... IF HE KEEPS THIS UP I'LL HAVE TO TAKE STEPS... WE SAW Paul Mare IN COUNSELOR AT LAW. FINE. WENT TO NICK'S IN THE VILLAGE - AUTHENTIC Dixieland SAW DRUMMER WHO SAT IN w/ JACK TEAGARDEN. WE ARE GOING TO "Oklahoma" NEXT FRIDAY...