AUGUST 4

1939 I no sooner finish one job than I walk in to another, of sorts, down at radio station, publicity, layouts – I cut my hair tonight – I wish I had a date to B. Barron I wish I had a date – (Ray had such blue eyes)

1940 Well I don’t know exactly how, or if, I succeeded, but I rather think he won’t be able to ignore me – I gave him no indication whatsoever that I knew about Hazel – (He must know that I know) – He still thinks that I’m a corporation. He’s one of the stock holders

1941 Mon Well – believe it or not, we’re at the Barbizon Plaza – west 58 N.Y. City! – We left this morning at 5:30 – Never forget Mr. Cisney at station. Kissing Frank Wagner goodbye – horrible ride – New York skyline – faint half glow of sunset – g’night.

1942 TUES DARLING, WE’RE such DOPES… SO VERY QUIET WHEN WE’RE alone… I WORE MY NEW BLACK DRESS TO Abe Lyman… BAND WAS SUPER… (“AMEN” – good NUMBER) – REN TOOK ME DOWN TO THE ARGUS… I ASKED Leonard… I THINK HE’D LIKE ME TO STAY… BOUGHT A SLINKY BLACK SLIP… LEONARD WAS certainly ON THE BEAM

 1943 WED

AUGUST 3

1939 11:05 B-Little sister booklet got down to the printers today (among other things) Ray has left – I’m rather relieved He was rather nice + he had very blue eyes – Marg + Nessa, Peg + M + I went on a picnic out at Gitchenee tonight. We had a portable radio. (Full moon)

1940 11:30 I am just a little fed up with this non-love life of mine… I am just a bit more than a little mad at Bill dating every body but me (Hazel twice this week) I think I’ll carry on from where I left off at the 1^st date I had with him – He has it coming… I don’t know exactly how I’ll do it all I want is a chance

1941 Sun – Gee, I really wish this were next week at this time and all this hub-bub were over! Mike left this morning. Quite appalling exodus.

1942 MON CUT OUT MY GREEN DRESS TONIGHT… Then BILL + R.H #  + MISTER Payne CAME. I WASHED BOB’S HAIR FOR HIM. I SEWED, WHILE THEY contentedly READ MAGAZINES… THEY’RE CRAZY… THE SHAMPOO MADE Leonard A LITTLE JEALOUS, I THINK… REN SAYS THAT DAYTON’S IS STILL AVAILABLE. ALSO ARGUS. N.Y?

1943 Tuesday

AUGUST 2

1939 11:25 Managed to accomplish quite a bit today + not mind it!) In fact, I enjoyed myself! I’ve got to finish out at school, this wk. (Leonard was out today)

1940 (ditto – very much so – acutely so in fact) Well darn Bill – Clara saw him today. He has been out with Hazel! Got some borders fixed for Fosters finally – Bob, Dick H. + I talked, sang, rounds – listened to D. play Boogie Woogie He is brilliant. Too bad Leonard missed out. Spence was out again.

1941 Sat Wow – what a day. Helped strike 3:00 set tonight – talked with Barney – put on my formal + went to the party – sleeping with Lois tonight. Steven has our room

1942 SUN WE HAD 2 awfully SWEET SOLDIERS TO DINNER…MOTHER “PICKED THEM UP” AT CHURCH… WORE MY NOO PINAFORE… WENT UP TO DELL RAPIDS WITH David… PLEASANT enuff AFTERNOON; BUT I SHOULD HAVE LET WELL ENOUGH ALONE… WE GOT BORED BEFORE THE EVENING WAS over. I WAS sad.

1943 MON

AUGUST 1

1939 Another day + nothing accomplished – Sam’s birthday – picnic at her house (it rained) I ate too much – I found out Ray took Daisy to the dance – No more am I caring!

1940 10:30 Sometimes I loathe myself so that I can barely stand it. – I have wasted this summer so far – and how, I cannot figure out – I hoped Bill would call – He did not – probably just as well as I did a coupla borders – (Marg + I met Sara for lunch – gave her a spoon)

1941 Fri Milli’s English friend is here so I sacrificed my bed (with secret loathing!) – Mr. Cisney dared us to go in swimming with our clothes on. Spike did. I didn’t, but after dinner –

1942 SAT WE WENT TO THE DANCE WITH Shirley + Bill I HAD MY HAIR UP – FOR WHICH Leonard TOOK ME TO TASK – “TOO DAMN SUPERIOR” – BAND WAS awful… FLOOR W. crowded. LEONARD WAS TIRED… BUT I ENJOYED MYSELF IN A RATHER INEPT WAY… HE TOLD ME ABOUT MISS Bernie… HE WAS BAFFLED TO KNOW HOW I KNEW – ha – MET D.J. for LUNCH.

1943 SUN

JULY 31

1939 Mon 9:45 My ambition reached its height this morning. Its depth this eve. I washed hair + clothes in back yd + ironed. K + D met Mr. Eide – Tonight it was another “Blue Evening”

1940 9:45 Heard Flagsted’s Lebistod – the aching beauty of the prelude + the morning desire of the accompaniment to Love’s Death – I felt silly – tired all day – washed my face + wrote to Eleanor – Such accomplishments – Oh God –

1941 Went to Boston this morning – very impressive experience (15 of us in Station Wagon!) – Saw Cambridge, Freedom Hall – Shaw was fun tonight. Latest news from Eleanor is her vac. Is next week – I hope that’s official –

1942 FRI I WAS CLEANING MY RED SHOES, WHEN THE PHONE Rang… “SURE, I’D LOVE TO”… GEE, I SHOULDN’T BE SO READILY ACQUIESCENT. LEONARD WAS CERTAINLY BEAUTIFUL… BEIGE + BROWN… I INHIBITED HIM – FOR A WHILE… WE MET John K. + LEE + THE LARSONS AT SOOKS. I HAD 3 GLASSES of BEER + SAW DAVID!

1943 SAT RATHER NGHA. PEARL + I PLANNED TO GO TO A MATINEE. SHE GOT STARTED ON AN ALL DAY PARTY; I TRIED TO SLEEP THIS AFT; AND COULDN’T. ELEANOR + I WENT TO Mr. Lucky AT RADIO CITY – A VULGAR PLACE. DON COSSACKS WERE RUINED BY ORCHESTRA. WE ATE hamburgers at H. Heaven by ST. PAT’S, WALKED HOME.

 

JULY 30

 1939 Sunday 12:00 Muddled. Felt upset all morning finally got to work over my dr. board. Karl + D + Mary + Lee were over – Eleanor + I went to a movie – I just finished reading Jamaica Inn

1940 1:45 I wish I had stayed home – I wish to hell I’d stayed home… Lousy picnic… “my friends” wanted to drive up to Luverne. Which was certainly all right. They had such fun dancing with pickups – which wasn’t all right. I was absolutely nauseated.

1943 11:30 Got a special from Eleanor this morning. Wants to know when I'll be in Chicago! - I wrote her to come to New York. - Gee, I hate to make decisions. They asked me to stay + play in "Hey Fever" - Would almost like to -

1942 THURS ha – DAVY THOUGHT I WAS A LITTLE HIGH ON ONE Tom Collins… (GEE HE SHOULD HAVE WITNESSED MY CAPACITY LAST NIGHT!) WE WENT TO THE OPENING of THE INSTRUCTORS’ CLUB! QUITE FUN… MET A LT. COLONEL… FROM TEXAS. GEE Davy IS A JEALOUS one…

1943 FRI MY DRESS CAME FROM HOME. IT FITS BEAUTIFULLY, HOW MOTHER DOES IT. I COULD HARDLY TALK TODAY, MY THROAT WAS SO SORE. WE FOLIO-ED THE BOOK… MRS. Stote TOLD US ABOUT PARIS + LONDON – I CAN’T QUITE FEATURE HER RELATIONSHIP w/ HER husband!

JULY 29

1939 Sat 12:15 Was “dummy” through practically a whole evening of bridge this evening at Peggy’s – ate popcorn + coke. And I do want to be thin this fall!

1940 9:45 I’m determined to lose 10 pounds – (I’m hungry right now, going up to the lake yesterday shot the balance of that 5 lbs right to pieces… Hell. The irony- of- it-all – Hunk didn’t call about the dance again – He must have been utterly crushed the other night. Bill called tonight. I said no go.

1941 12:00 Waited tables this morning 7:45 – after 4 hrs of sleep. – Fun!  - Getting to know everyone now it’s time to leave! Show went very well tonight. Gee, Mr. Cisney is grand!

1942 WED WAS OVER TO PEGGY’S TO MEET THE Sargent SHE WAS RAVING ABOUT… Gee, WHAT A PAIN… AFTER FOUR BOURBON COKES, HOWEVER; I WAS VERY AMIABLE. WE TALKED French, RAPIDLY, AND HE WAS A DARN GOOD DANCER… PEG HAS gobs OF RECORDS… IT STARTED TO Deluge, SO MRS. BELL IN WAS PROPERLY hysterical… I WAS QUITE AMUSED… ha. SAW This Above All; MOTHER HAD “CLUB”-

1943 THURS HAD DINNER WITH Billy + Frank. And WAS GLAD TO; EVEN TOOK OFF MY HOSE TO BETTER ENJOY MYSELF. I FELT FOUL WENT TO THE DOCTOR HAD MY THROAT PAINTED… I GAGGED. WE SAW the FRED WARING SHOW… IT WAS GOOD. PUT RUTH ON THE TRAIN FOR HOME – ha!

JULY 28

1939 10:30 – Every night, I’m tired – all I ever want to do is sleep – Karl + Dorothy  - M R + Lee + babes were over for dinner tonight It was slightly bedlam-ated. Ruth brought me a little pin from Alaska

1940 11:45 if I had gone to Plymouth I’d have been due there today – I don’t know how I could ever have financed it – I hope it will be different next year! – I went up to the lake with the folks – it’s so marvelous up there I’d like to go + relax – utterly for about a week – I talked w/ Margie + V. tonight too much

1941 3:00 God, what a day! We started at 9:30 this morning + just finished now; I’m finished too. Rain, barn, sleepy, stomach ache.

1942 TUES Donna Jean CAME BY + WE PICKED UP MICKY AND WENT FOR A RIDE.. JOHN WAS HERE WHEN WE GOT BACK…. HE’S SELFISH… LIKES US TO HIMSELF… MOTHER + I BAKED COOKIES… CHOCOLATE… ummm… DAVID CAME OVER THIS AFTERNOON… HE WAS MAD! WE WENT swimming. R.H. # + LEONARD + I WENT DOWN TOWN

1943 WED Felt simply foul today. My throat’s sore… Came home, bathed, felt better. Listened to President, washed clothes. I think I’ll go to bed for a change. Mother wrote + Austin Killian!

 

JULY 27

1939 10:30 Thurs I pulled a wood tick out of Rex’s eyelid. – He’s a very sweet dog. Went to a tea for Jean Perry – Saw Marsha V. B – Honestly more people are either married or engaged!!

1940 9:30 Sat And me without a date – (I actually would have turned Bill down – if he had called) I hope Hunk didn’t misunderstand me the other night – I want to go to the dance Monday! – I utterly loathed myself all day today – Diddled around all day with housework – Ate alla time.

1941 Sun Well I guess it really happened – I just re-read the letter (for the 20^th time) I’m sure I’ll have to go to New York now – maybe with Mina… We rehearsed + rehearsed for Too Many Girls (I feel fat – damn it!)

1942 MON LEONARD’S NAME WAS IN THE paper TO GO TOMORROW.. BUT CASE TOOK 5 of THE FELLAS UP TO VERMILION AND THEY WERE SWORN INTO THE ARMY ENLISTED RESERVE – Thank HEAVEN. THE DOPE DIDN’T LET ME KNOW UNTIL 10:30… BOB WAS HERE WHEN HE CAME… HE WAS ACTING UTTERLY IRRATIONALLY… I TRIED TO STAY ANNOYED; COULDN’T –

1943 TUES Heard Johnny Mercer… wrote Leonard. Hated Mrs. Stote today. LEONARD WRITES MORE RATIONALLY. HE IS CALMER NOW. THANK HEAVEN. HE HAS LEARNED MUCH. I FEEL AWFUL. SKETCHED PEARL + LOIS + SULLY + ME. 

JULY 26

1939 Half a year gone - + so much has happened! – Karl + Dorothy are here – They want to know when I’m coming to Chicago

1940 Fri Hell – Eleanor phoned from Chicago tonight she can’t come home for her vacation this week, after all – I feel worse about her being disappointed than at our being disappointed

+ And a lot more happened this year! I hope it won’t be too long  -

1941 1:00 Well kid, the wheels are turning. This morning I got a letter from Ren saying Dayton’s + Auggie had welcome on their doormats + this aft, a letter from Boston Store saying Mlle wired them I got a tie for 1^st! – Mike got home safely tonight. I’m happy, if a little confused

1942 SUN WE ALL WENT TO CHURCH TODAY… (I DIDN’T WEAR STOCKINGS, EITHER!) – WE HAD WILMER + OLGA OVER FOR DINNER… WE SHOULD HAVE HAD SOME SOLDIERS, too. I GOT SOME SHERBET. WENT OVER TO Shirlee’s AND SOLDIERS… Damn MISTER PAYNE DIDN’T EVEN call.

1943 MON I HIT THE JACKPOT- LETTERS FROM LEONARD (WHO PRACTICALLY GOT HIMSELF COURT MARSHALED) FROM ELEANOR, CLARA, LARRY + HERMAN (WHO SOLD AN ARTICLE TO Esquire) – I ANSWERED MR. EIDE and WE TODAY; Herman + LARRY, too. MY LEGS ARE A mess.

JULY 25

1939 Virginia + I can waste a very enjoyable evening together – talked out in back + then went for a ride – (I have to push a little out at school, But I’m getting results)

1940 Thurs Worked today – Spitznagel took me out to Fosters’ – I was relieved to see they weren’t all finished and waiting for me – I should be sacked indefinitely, for wasting so much time – very disgusted

1941 Mike isn’t home yet – tsk, tsk. Too M G is fun so far – all morning and all afternoon rehearsing – swimming (cold) eat – shower – rush – Woods Hole – performance – home – talk – bed – (should write to Eleanor!)

1942 SAT CUT OUT MY PINAFORE… POO-EY… TO YOU, Mister PAYNE [AND I TURNED DOWN DAVEY!] – SHIRLEE AND FRIEND ELIZABETH CAME OVER – BOTH FEELING SORRY FOR THEMSELVES… I PUT ON MY STRIPPED T SHIRT AND WE WENT OUT and ATE ICE CREAM cones.

1943 SUN WE HAD A BEAUTIFUL DINNER – BROILERS. ICE CREAM, BROWNIES. I DIDN’T EVEN GO OUTSIDE TODAY. MY ANKLES ARE STILL SWOLLEN. ICK. I FINISHED Point Counter Point. ICK. I TOOK A SHOWER. WROTE Leonard, BILL + Emil…

 

JULY 24

1939 Who knows? Maybe I’ll end up a newspaper cartoonist (horrors!) I’ve got the opportunity to try it any how – I can’t get very enthusiastic. It seems like one more “have to”

1940 Wed I was absolutely prostrate Didn’t do a thing all day… except relax – Too warm to sleep, then went over to Sterns – beer, culture

1941 Now that it’s practically too late, I’m getting to know people. Beth Perry + I read verses together this aft. (Up at Hill top we had wanted to go swimming + a storm came up) Louise Woodruff revealed amazing insight + sensitivity coming back from Woods

1942 FRI Leonard’s BACK – AS ARROGANT AS EVER… HE WOULD HAVE KISSED ME IN BROAD DAYLIGHT ON THE FRONT PORCH – IN FRONT of THE neighbors + EVERYBODY. IF I HADN’T STOPPED HIM… IT MADE ME MAD WE HAD TO BE WITH A WHOLE PASSEL of FOLKS… WOULD LIKE TO HAVE BEEN ALONE. WE WENT OUT TO school, THEN OVER TO EIDES’ – TO SEE THE CRUCIFIX –

1943 SAT OH AGONY, I WISH I COULD REPLACE THIS TOO TOO SOLID FLESH WITH A NEW SKIN. MY ANKLES ARE SWOLLEN AND PURPLE… MY LUNCHEON WAS A SUCCESS. I DID QUITE WELL (BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I COULD) I VERY MUCH LIKED SKIN of OUR TEETH; WE ATE AT A French RESTAURANT… I DIED… SULLY + PEARL went out.

JULY 23

1939 I suppose R. will go without saying “good-bye” – I would give anything to tell him straight how things stand. That I’m grateful for  a very swell spring. But that I can’t understand his attitude the past week.

1940 Tues Hunk took me to the dance – I guess I’m getting old, but I was tired – even if it was cool – nice after a storm. About 8:00 – We found the Packard isn’t as dependable as he thought.

1941 Just ate a piece of apple pie Mike brought me… wept through the rehearsal of Cradle Song because I wanted so badly to be in it. I have 2 lines in Too Many Girls – I really wish it were something better… Well, I’ve learned not to “hide my light’ at any rate.

1942 THURS ?

1943 FRI OH LA, WE WENT TO THE BEACH! [ I JUST hope MRS. STOTE DIDN’T CALL!] IT WAS GORGEOUS… BLUE SKY + WHITE SAND. + THE WAVES BREAKING HIGH… I GOT QUITE BADLY BURNED, of course!

 

JULY 22

1939 – Laughing again, I am! I found out why Ray has been so nasty – He was out to the dance Mon night – on the outside, looking in! – It must have burned him up plenty to see me there!

1940 12:00 I was in a stupor all morning – I hurt my back about a week ago, it still bothers me – I finally – about 1:30 stood under the hose – I’ve got to do it more often – Wow – exhilaration. Typed a letter to Eleanor – listed to moosic.

1941 ? Well, Fanny did okay. – Spent a dull afternoon wading through prop rehearsal… Like Dox Bury very much. Sara Murphy + Barbara Ives are going to New York. Maybe I can go with them

1942 WED ?

1943 THURS I’M BLUE… I WROTE HOME and HERMAN + LEONARD THOUGH. (MRS. STOTE HAS A TOUCH OF CLAY AROUND THE FEET. SHE CAN’T TAKE BLAME easily) I GOT DINNER + DID THE DISHES. I SHALL REBEL soon.

JULY 21

1939 Went on a lousy picnic out at Gitchemoaton- Everything was perfect except my mood. Phooey on all men!

(I found out after I got home some-one had called – Eleanor said it wasn’t Ray!)

1940 12:45 Sunday – a wash-out, if I ever saw one… Bill + I went swimming over at Drake – Too many people – water shy warm… Went to a foul show tonight (Safari) I had a feeling Bill was utterly mechanical

1941 Mon Feel slightly ill… But okay mentally, for once… Got through my lines ok at dress rehearsal – Afraid next week is going to be a dull one… Sewed eyes, drew a portrait of “Lady Bartock” for sets –

1942 TUES WILBER HAS GONE… DAMN… WOULD LIKE to HAVE SEEN HIM alone… BUT PEOPLE STARTED COMING OVER… SHIRLEE, first. THEN BOB H. and BILL THEN JOHN + WILBER. Mother MADE SOME COOKIES. WE WENT after ICE CREAM… HAAKENSON surprised ME, RILLY… ESPECIALLY AFTER our TRIP TO 2^nd ISLAND

1943 WED I’M DEAD… I WENT SWIMMING. THIS TIME WITH NOT SUCH DRASTIC RESULTS… DOTTIE and CONNIE ARE fun, RATHER. WILMER WROTE A SWEET LETTER. (WHO IS MR. PHILIPS?) … MRS. STOTE IRKED ME. BUT I WROTE THE DAMN THING OVER. SHE CAN’T BEAR TO MAKE A MISTAKE! BILL HAS GONE!

JULY 20

1939 Nessa + Fanny + I rode around this evening… Jerry has really got that predatory gleam in her eye (haven’t we all?)

1940 tonight with Marg – terribly hot – bright moon… Marg + Kenny planned to be married next Spring. I’m so glad. Bill called late in the evening. I wonder how long I’m going to let him get away with murder… Went with Charles Harris.

1941 Sunday Today the sun shone! Got up in time for dinner! Thought I knew my lines + didn’t. Disgusting… I wonder if I’ll ever see Jim Maxwell again – Pride + Prejudice rehearsal looks swell

1942 MON

1943 TUES ALL I REMEMBER IS THAT WE HAD Lamb Chops FOR DINNER… OH, AND I MET AGNES + RUTH FOR LUNCH at McCREEY’S – WHICH THEY LIKED. POOR ADA – ITS ROTTEN. WORE MY SUIT.

JULY 19

1939 Wed Nessa ragged me all day about my Mon. night experience in the backseat – I’m still having no serious pangs of conscience – tonight I went to Denis’s Concert – Ray’s suggestion (he was selling tickets) And who should sit beside me but Leonard – (I hope Ray saw him!)

1940 Well I hope I fixed Spence… We drove up to Luvesne – I was perfectly okay except I only said about 3 words all evening. – If he calls again, I swear I’m not going out with him… I saw a light in Bill’s window when we went by.

1941 ? Well, Jim certainly doesn’t waste any time… I suppose he figured he might as well play for the highest stakes… I was surprised – Just naïve, I guess. After the show we went down to White House. Sat on the beach – breezy – dark – swell.

1942 SUN WE WERE OVER TO DINNER AT Bryant's this AFTERNOON. D.J. and I SUN-BATHED, LATER. THEN WENT OUT TO THE COTTAGE AFTER A COKE. JOHN + WILBER TOOK THE HARDERS’ TESTS over THERE – THEY CAME HOME w/ ME. DAVE WAS OVER AT 11:00 (I’D JUST GOTTEN UP – TO SEE IF I HADN’T RELENTED!)

1943 MON LEONARD WRITES THAT HE’S BEEN ACCEPTED FOR A S.TP. – WON’T GO – BECAUSE OF EMINENCE OF SHIPPING + CONSEQUENT FREEZING of PERSONNEL… IT ISN’T RIGHT… DAMN… I FEEL BEATEN… ELEANOR AND I WENT TO “MORE THE MERRIER”… I COULDN’T CONCENTRATE…

 

JULY 18

1939 Tuesday 9:00 I am completely tired out – I slept on the davenport after dinner. Ray came out to school this afternoon – He seemed very unhappy about something –

1940 2:00 Writing this by moonlight – I went to Lawrence Welk with Hunk tonight + thought about Leonard + Bill (I saw a gal in his car waiting for him when we drove past the garage before the dance – the louse – Hunk is so sweet to me… But scared

1941 Hell, one more day without sun + I will go home! At least I got my clothes washed today. Did a few sketches, had dinner with Jim Maxwell, (he took out Sally tonight!) talked with Mina, Donna wrote that Leonard quit at Coles!

1942 SAT 3:00 – PYROTECHNICS! – I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN HE’D BE THE JEALOUS TYPE… I TOLD HIM ABOUT LEONARD… HE WAS QUITE REVOLTING – IT WAS BROUGHT on BY HIS ASKING FOR A DATE for TOMORROW – WHEN I SAID IT WASN’T Ethical!

1943 SUN WE (AGNES + RUTH BACH) WENT TO RIVERSIDE CHURCH. I ENJOYED IT. I SHALL GO MORE OFTEN. HAD DINNER WITH GLADYS. [Fried chicken liver] + someone who had Wilmer in school! – We went to the Symphony… Brahms… Beautiful… I came home read. nap. that’s all.

JULY 17

1939  Monday And Duke Ellington with Leonard and I wasn’t expecting too much of the evening… It turned out super + + + - Thank goodness, I didn’t see Ray there – Leonard was certainly no slouch – I like him – He said, when he brought me to the door that he could not figure me out – I wasn’t like any other date he’d had out – Maybe I made a hit ? ? ?

1940 Wed W the rat didn’t call as he said he would tonight… I suppose he will care tomorrow when I not ready to go to the dance… I am just furious – Spence came over this afternoon and “nailed me down” for a date for Friday – He is so supremely conceited

1941 Well, darling *, I wish I could have about an hour alone with you tonight. I really need it. Morale was nil… Rained… Phooey I loathe the play I’m in next week. *Leonard.

1942 FRI WENT TO THE [DANCE with DAVID crossed out) … MOVIE Noontide WITH VIRGINIA, PEGGY, J.C. + “JUKE”. GOLLY, I’M GLAD I’M POOR IF THAT’S WHAT MONEY DOES FOR YOU… hmmm, I LAK – JEAN GABIN..

1943 SAT OH-H-H, WAS I SEEK WHEN I GOT OUT OF THE Barbizon POOL…! DIDN’T THINK I’D BE ABLE TO GET HOME; I RILLY didn’t. “Edith” AND I DID THE HOUSEWORK. WE GOT ALONG FINE… I WROTE HOME, THAT’S ALL READ Point Counterpoint FELT PRETTY BAD.

 

JULY 16

1939 Sunday 12:10 After exactly a month – Ray called up - ! He is going to work on the R.R. again – We went to the race in Luverne to-night… I felt rather odd - + didn’t say much… on the way back he asked me if I could possible like him a little, again – He said he couldn’t explain why he hadn’t called me before, etc – It was the old thrill once more –

1940 Painted woodwork, etc today – (If I don’t get to work + make some money - ) Went to N.W. Passage w/ Hunk… He looked so nice tonight – all 200 pounds of him… I thought about B.C. most of the day… wonder if he’s serious… Should I go out w/ him tomorrow ? ? ?

1940 ? Hell, I wish I were home. Got a lousy Cockney Part in Fannie – which is a very dully play – Wish I were in Cradle Song!

1941 THURS WENT TO THE DANCE WITH DAVID… WE WERE ALL OUT SWIMMING – SHIRLEY, BOB, RON, PEGGY – etc. – AND I SAW HIM, THEN… HE’S VERY NICE, I THINK… AND I MUST HAVE made AN IMPRESSION on HIM.

1942 FRI OH DUST + ASHES… I’M INFINITELY DEPRESSED. BUT BETTER, WHEN I CAME HOME AND FOUND A LETTER. HE STILL DOESN’T KNOW! ( I THINK I WORRY MORE THAN HE DOES!) ALL DAY I HURRIED AND DIDN’T GET A CHANCE TO WRITE.