MAY 30

1939 Tuesday 12:00 To-day was a killer-diller - I am certainly frazzled - Started painting - Awful, at first. - Ray said he had to work (?)
1940 1:30 Thurs (Dec. Day) Well, I didn't get to the dance as I thought I might - but Bob + Leonard + Emil + Donna + I had a picnic - a marvelous picnic. We ate too much + then all lay around the bonfire in a happy stupor. I love all those kids... (I wonder if Jean was right about Leonard. If she was he certainly manages to inhibit himself)
1941 1:30 - Leonard finally broke down tonight; but it seems it always happens too late. He is going to Brookings... Such a chaos of bliss - disillusionment - hurt - then bliss! We really talked for the very first time... about our children - love - us -
1942 Sat - 3 tired kids. Hoped Leonard might meet me, but no. We just wasted this morning. Didn't get over to Walker...
1943 Sun Stayed up on the roof all day, practically, read the Times. And Look Homeward Angel, which Haunts me! - I cut out my black + white check; want to get it done, now! Herman called. (ha! he thought I'd be lonesome!)... Apt is pretty set!