JANUARY 30

1939 10:20 - We're off again. In the groove with a muddle of plans for Blackfriars, a fashion show for A.G.A., a costume design class, posters to make, murals to design - Walked 6 miles today - feel swell. - Mother won a darling little white chair playing bingo tonight.
1940 Tuesday - Well I've been pretty disorganized all day! - All I've done was look at the special page in Mlle at intervals all day. I certainly hope people don't think I get conceited about it though! - More than that I hope I don't get conceited!
1941 Thursday 2:30 - Had a very satisfactory viewpoint from Henry tonight... He thinks so CLEARLY... helped me some, I'm sure... We saw Chad Hamsa (it was bank night) - went for a ride in the fog - had some coffee - talked + came home. He does not make me feel cheap, I don't think - Tomorrow's FRIDAY ! ! ! ! ! !
1942 Fri Gee, what a party. And I thought the Augustana faculty conservative. Dinner at Lofthus' for DeGray - then over to Blegans - Hope I don't have a hangover
1943 SAT AH FUN, WE ALL MET BOB TONIGHT - WHO IS FINE AND DANDY and INTEGRALLY THE SAME. JOHN K WAS HI and WE HAD A TIME WALTZING AT THE station TOGETHER. IT snowed. WE SURROUNDED HIM ALL THE WAY TO THE Town CLUB... WHERE WE DRANK and DANCED BUT NOT TO EXCESS. OF EITHER. WE FINISHED OFF THE ROLL OF COLORED FILMS TODAY... MR. EIDE WAS WONDERFUL ELEANOR + P + L + I HAD PANCAKES IN THE KITCHEN.

JANUARY 29

1939 11:45 Sunday Mother + I went to church - (I must go more!) I was glad we did. E + I went for a ride + later to a movie Heard Noel Coward on the radio.
1940 Monday - Well, Mlle - is out, and I haven't seen it yet! - Jean V. called me up + told me my suit rated a full page cut on page 80 - It is the navy blue reefer that I had hoped! - I am pretty excited... Stayed home all day doing "Vogue" - n.g.
1941 11:00 Inevitable procrastination... funny how I'd rather go to bed than work! - Pay Day, today... Wish I could save more than I do - I now have $400 - not bad; (but $200 of it really isn't mine) A few things I want to get, though. Sent in Subs to Mlle
Swell letter from Bob. -
1942 12:20 Well, dope, you're missing out on $500 prize Mlle Sh. Story. tsk tsk DeGray Concert. He is tres sooper. Relented + spoke to Bill + Leonard
1943 FRI I HAD EVERETT KROEGER TAKE MY PICTURE; HOPE THEY ARE good... IT WAS FUN, SORT OF. WE BOTH HAD SWELL LETTERS FROM Emil (HE URGED Leonard TO MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP PERMANENT) I HOPE HIS VISIT WILL NOT BE DISASTROUS. WE WALKED DOWN and MAILED Peg's LETTER AND OUT TO SCHOOL... TO THE ART ROOM - DARK and WARM WITH PAST and PRESENT EXPERIENCES with LEONARD... HE SHOULD HAVE GONE HOME earlier, I KNOW.

JANUARY 28

1939 1:30 Got the house cleaned by 10:15 - out at school from 11 - 5:30 Completed one problem. Tonight I washed my clothes, hair + me - At least, I'm clean.
1940 Sunday - 2:30 - Marg + I went to church today. - I washed the dishes while the folks went to a show (Enjoyed myself thoroughly) - 8 of us went skating tonight and really had a "loop" as D.J. would say + over to Donna's afterward.
1941 And why did you have to be so greedy today pie + ice cream - coke - ugh - Afraid I'm making mistake of living for the weekend; when I can go home again. - Wish I'd really have a build up, instead of the habitual let down... FEEL - FAT - UGH - 
1942 10:30 Felt like I'd been beaten about the head all morning. But swell, now - Leonard + Bill didn't show up for Tech - so I raced home from Cr. Wr. to avoid them.
1943 THURS THE MOST DIFFICULT THING I'VE EVER done... TO TELL Leonard I'M GOING WEDNESDAY... HE WAS NOT PREPARED; THOUGHT I'D WAIT TILL Bob WENT... HE WAS MARVELOUS THOUGH. I CRIED, SOME... I HOPE IT DIDN'T MAKE IT HARD FOR HIM... HE'S BEEN FEELING VERY SELF-DISCONTENT... I'M GLAD TO SEE HIM FACING HIS PAST INDISCRETIONS WITH FORTITUDE and DECISION. HE IS SO MUCH MORE ADULT THAN BEFORE.

JANUARY 27

1939 Friday 12:00 Game tonight - We won. Smooth fast playing. Today I wore a blue sweater that Eleanor gave me. I'll have to wear it often. Everyone thought I'd lost weight.
1940 Sat. Amazingly enough, I was not all depressed today - Marguerite's fella didn't come to town after all so we went to the very amusing Cary Grant Rosalind Russell movie.
1941 11- Gee - where does TIME go? - started doing stuff right after dinner - no wrk really done yet - But, nuts, I'm going to bed. Perfect letter from E. - Freddie ate lunch with me. E. thinks I should quit dating F! - ? - Gee 4 days + I'll be home - Yippee!
1942 Tues Babe, you certainly wasted this evening you might even have made the effort of going to bed early! - Wilber came to History of Art class! Going to come alla time. oi oi. Hope have more pressure to bear by tomorrow.
1943 WED LOWEST I'VE BEEN FOR AGES... HOW FOOLISH TO CRY IN A DEPARTMENT STORE... I THOUGHT I WAS BETTER ABLE TO CONTROL MYSELF... ELEANOR SEEMS QUITE WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING. COLLECTED MY CHECK FROM MISS FARLEY (watchband) ...MY PROOFS ARE awful... (I HOPE THEY DIDN'T CUT THE CURL OUT OF Leonard's HAIR)

JANUARY 26

1939 Thurs. 10:15 Picture me in bed + crackers + cheese + 3 dried prunes Ah Luxury! Spent day knitting down at Fantles - Saw Mr. Spitznagel at noon ( he got a smooth watch fr. Mr. Ruben)
Mr + Mrs Eide were down town too buying her a hat for tonight I hope they have fun. Sari + I caught up with each other over coffee
1940 - Utterly awful! - One damn thing after another - Lousy test - I couldn't think of anything. Engravers trouble. Headache!
1941 11- Sunday Damn you, why can't you relax + enjoy yourself? - No, you have to spoil everything what with analysis, etc. Freddie came over this aft he'd won $22 in a crap game - we went to Sioux City - Could have had fun; but worried about Henry getting home - I called him - he was out.
1942 12:30 Mon Philip + Eleanor are downstairs planning furiously - Good day for a Monday Dog - Techniques - Drawing L. did a fresco - Peggy + I went to Arsenic + Old Lace tonight. Quite amazin'
1943 TUES 12:00 I TOOK LEONARD TO Priantus, WHICH WASN'T SO HOT, I THOUGHT... MOTHER and I WENT TO HISTORY CLUB THIS AFT. TO HEAR Mr. Eide... I HAD TO LEAVE AT 4:00 TO GET MY PITCHOOR TOOK... ugh... WE WERE WITH Spitznagels' AFTERWARD - (I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE I WANT TO talk TO HER) HOW CAN I LEAVE L?

JANUARY 25

1939 Wednesday 11:00 We (E + I) just got back from a piano concert by Muba Levitaeke I like the Chopin. I worked out at school this afternoon + finished 2 plates.
1940 Thursday... I feel marvelous! Moonlight on the snow tonight, I walked out to school to study Education - to sleep with Marie
1941 1:00 Saturday - God, another Saturday wasted - sketched operetta costumes + sets this aft. - notso hot - Saw Blanche + Betty - ate dinner - slept - took b. - washed hair, talked w/ Mrs. Reeves - fixed nails, listened to radio -
1942 Sun Well tentatively, Eleanor's getting married in 2 weeks! Philip better be good to her. Can't quite believe it. God, I hope things break right for her - She deserves it.
1943 10:00 I'm going to do some reading from the book of short stories Leonard brought over... It looks like nothing is going to prevent my going - oh, panic - I guess I can get along okay though. I hope so... Mother had club. Dad + I went to Black Swan.

JANUARY 24

1939 11:35 Tuesday - Am I mad! We have a test in E. Dr. It will take me a good day to do it! I didn't get up till 10:30 this morning - It was fun while it lasted!
1940 Wednesday - I think that perhaps I'm slipping back to normal again... I should after all the un-called for rest I've been getting... Got another letter from "Mlle" - asking for my size + congratulating me - It isn't just a dream then.
1941 12:30 - Thank God it's Friday - Maybe tomorrow I can get something done! Hm... Game tonight... Harley + Bob picked me up aft. dinner; they were mad - so played a beautiful game! - We went over to Mary's afterward for coffee - No Freddie
1942 SAT Didn't go to the State- Auggie game, too darn tired - Stayed home + washed clothes, etc. - Reports from Pearl Harbor inc. were released - AWFUL - I must write some (16) letters tomorrow!
1943 2:30 I JUST FINISHED A LETTER TO Emil; I DOUBT IF HE FINDS SOLACE IN IT - AT LEAST THEY WERE MY HONEST CONVICTIONS, though. EXCEPT FOR LETTERS [Paul, Stan, Bob R.] I ACCOMPLISHED LITTLE TODAY - Golly - ARE MY FEET COLD!!

JANUARY 23

1939 Monday 10:30 a start of a an un-vacationy vacation. - Will I ever get caught up w/ C. Drawing? (And shame on me for not having written an oration) I'm now settling down to a P.G. + an apple -
1940 Jan 20 Well I slipped up on this Saturday, I remember vaguely being at school... Took a test - stupid - Emil doesn't like my hair "done up", it was cold when we walked home... I went to sleep on the davenport after supper.
1941 10- HEARD ROBERT HUTCHINS ON US + WAR - COURAGEOUS ENOUGH TO CONDEMN WAR - PUBLICLY QUESTIONED ADMINISTRATION... HOPE WE CAN STAY OUT... LINDBERGH SAID HOPED THAT NEITHER SIDE WON - ARBITRATION... SWELL LETTER FROM MOTHER... BETTY T. IS CERTAINLY HAVING A MESS OF A TIME ! ! ! !
1942 10:15 Ironic isn't it? Eleanor + I went to a Garbo movie pretty good escape - Dragged Eleanor out to school with me. We ate at the Huddle + went to moosic class.
Wonder if L. thinks of me -
1943 Sat Peggy writes she has another chance to audition for Let's Face It. I'll bet she makes it! Heard from Paul too. We went to the Edda party. Quite small, but not too bad. Leonard is spoiling me desperately. I won't want to dance w. anyone else. Good to know my moods can touch him.

JANUARY 22

1939 Sunday 11:45 I've been inside all day - doing a lot of nothing heard Jane Cowl in Marie Stuart and the 5th Symphony of T. Read a book on clothes. Mary Anne was over for a while.
1940 Jan 23 Tues Typed my quizz questions today - wasted my evening, really. - Have yet to prepare for Bible exam tomorrow morning. - I grow increasingly stupid in my own estimation...
1941 11:30 (Dammit; wish it were 9 or even 10) - Well, hope you're satisfied, Dope... Henry is a fine, intellectual - very far-sighted fellow. He's amazing, really. I like him - But more objectively then the way I acted tonight Hope he does not call for a while at least!
1942 10:15 And I'm dead + going to bed Classes have dwindled from registration... Leonard was a sweet child today - It can't last Heard from Mike
1943 FRI I had John + Leonard over for dinner. The folks were out and Eleanor made Italian spaghetti. It was successful, in spite of my tremors. We went over to D.J's later in the evening. Heard 6 flats, unfurnished. Why Don't You do Riiight!

JANUARY 21

1939 12:00 Sat Painted from 10:30 till 4:30 this day - the floor + windows are done, the wind howled all day long. It is cold + bitter. Tonight I didn't get any ambition till about 9:00 Washed my hair + clothes + heard Toscanini direct "Bolero"
1940 Jan 22 Monday 12:00 - I swore I'd get that V. quizz finished + didn't... If I'd only get things done! - Maybe I'd be a bit more happy - Everything I do enjoy a little bit is gnawed by the knowledge I "should" be doing something else -
1941 Jan 21 Well whadya know I was the gal who was going to bed at 7:30 tonight. It is now 2:00 Freddie took me to Antler's Club Dance - Bang! Now I can't figure out if he will call again or not - after what happened. And just what I should do -
1942 THURS Gee it's been a long time, baby. Makes it even better, though when we wait for it... We went to Me + My Gal. It's a nice + warm feeling to feel sure of you... I'm glad we were together because that horrible letter from Emil -

JANUARY 20

1939 10:45 I'm through with tests + registering! - And am I relieved! - Talked with Eide this aft. - There are some marvelous "Spanish Castles" built down in that art room! - He mentioned the possibility of a gob that would work into buying for a millinery department. It sounds much too good to be true. I told H I couldn't go to Plymouth this summer, possibly next
Mary, Virginia + I went to Young. Nothing at all what I expected _ but very entertaining. V. - I'm pretty sure had a date afterwards.
1940 Jan 21 1:30 Sunday - When I don't go to church, I feel like a pagan, when I do go to "" - I usually end up preferring my own salvation. I felt especially pagan today. - Hated myself - Went to Ninotchka - waited for the telephone
1941 Jan 20 2:15 Today President Roosevelt was inaugurated into the unprecedented 3rd term - started out fun - what to do tomorrow? Must accomplish - Heard a wonderful Polish pianist - worth the effort of going to Sioux City - Mary + I enjoyed it so much - Liszt, Rachmaninoff - Bach!
1942 Tues 11:15 (8:00 faculty meeting. ugh!) Bitter disillusion - Bill + Leonard picked up a coupla gals over at the Hen last night! - They didn't show up all day. Peg + I did over frescoes + went to game tonight. Saw Leonard at Palace. He went to a funeral.
1943 12- I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO HIBERNATE UNTIL IT GETS WARMER... I WALKED DOWN TOWN THIS MORNING (20 SOME BELOW) AND HAD TO WAIT ages FOR A BUS TO COME HOME  tonight... HAD LETTERS FROM BOTH DON (in N. Guinea) AND STAN... MOTHER ASKED ME WHAT I'D DO IF EVERYONE COMES HOME AT ONCE! BOUGHT THE Beige BOYS JACKET - WORKED A FEW BUTTONHOLES.

JANUARY 19

1939 11:30 Studied with Marg for test tonight. Wrote Drama test from 1:30 till 12:30 - pretty rugged - Only one left! Slept + worried intermittently this aft. 
1940 History repeats itself - We went to the Indian over the Hill! M makes me very angry - She didn't ask Marie over to supper with us.
1941 Well, I went out with "Henry" tonight... And, unexpectedly, rather enjoyed myself. He is darn intelligent, I love his accent, what he thinks of me, I'm sure I don't know... I wonder if Freddie has had further instructions from headquarters? - Anyhow, he hasn't called... Hmm, tomorrow, new semester... I know nothings - Not prepared - Hysterical laughter. 
1942 12:30 Mon. Accomplished little. Got my grades turned in, at any rate... Bill + Leonard didn't work on their panels! I should give them both incompletes Sari + I went out + listened to records + talked to Lee
1943 11:30 FINISHED MY yellow PAJAMAS, MADE some BROWNIES... WENT OUT TO SCHOOL AND Leonard CAME - AS IF PRE-ARRANGED. WE WERE ALONE... HE RATHER WANTED TO GO TO THE DANCE TONIGHT, BUT I MADE "PRACTICAL" NOISES. (REMIND ME TO QUIT THAT) FINISHED POSTERS, MADE OUT NATHALIE'S french TEST TONIGHT - Mr. K likes my slacks!

JANUARY 18

1939 12:30 Wednesday Studied for Drama this afternoon out at school with Ruthie, Dot - and tonight, too. - Revised some "pomes" for creative writing + had to read in class - Carp had everyone screaming with his character studies - Stan wrote about a Poker Game The Boys brought me home about 10:00
1940 Last night it got down to 24 below - I am not averse to using the tunnel these days! - test begin tomorrow, I have one Saturday - and I better study! 
1941 Sat Hell - looks like I'll never have a weekend to myself! - Slaved today + plenty to do tomorrow... I am a forsaken woman, so I took advantage of it... washed my hair (pinned it up) and clothes + bath + nails - + so to bed.
1942 1:30 (Jan 16) Bob + I cleaned up Art Room - Heard from Mr. Eide + Carp (who surprised me!) Eleanor + D.J. + I went to Suspicion - Made out my Exam for tomorrow
1943 12:00 EVEN IF IT WAS 26 degrees BELOW, I VENTURED OUT TODAY - MADE A COUPLE MORE POSTERS, WENT TO THE DENTIST - [ONE FILLED - HAD THEM cleaned] DEB SAYS THEY WANT ME TO DO THE REC ROOM OVER. DON'T THINK I WILL... MR. Eide WON'T HAVE ANY TRUCK.

JANUARY 17

1939 Tuesday 10:30 - Took Fr Test today (it wasn't as bad as I planned) (I am committing the sin of eating crackers in bed!) I just finished reports + now I've got to start studying Eng Drama missed game w/Y tonight wonder how it turned out
1940 Wed - 12:00 It is way below outside. - an effort to do anything when its like this... went to dentist - clean teeth - no fillings! ! I think I'll wear my slacks tomorrow!
1941 11- Dull... test papers... grades... more grades... Next semester? Phooey!... Wumkes did not materialize for the game tonight - I helped gals sell candy + ice cream cones - Hope I finish tomorrow
1942 11:00 Gave my last test today. Quite Rugged - Took me all aft. to correct papers... Eleanor came out after me. No Leonard, today. We had a nize dinner; sank into a stupor.
1943 SUN QUITE dull... WHAT ELSE WHEN IT'S 26 BELOW? IRONED A LITTLE... ANSWERED AN AD FOR fashion artist AT MARTIN'S... I GUESS I'D DO IT - FOR $150. WE HAD DINNER ABOUT 5:30... I WROTE A LONG LETTER TO Wilber AND READ A CHAPTER IN Cheney -

JANUARY 16

1939 (- I got my 2.50 check + sent it in for a yrs subscription to Mlle.)
Monday 9:45 and I'm just halfway through studying for my French semester ex (at 8:30 tomorrow) I'm nominated to edit the "Edda" next year. - It's too much responsibility!
1940 (You said a mouthful) - I couldn't sleep on accounta that darn thing, again - But I refuse to get neurotic about it - yet! - We had a game - push over - Donna came over + stayed.
1941 10- Hello, Dope!
Don't know why you have any cause to feel so good - Didn't do a damn thing again today (Well, I wrote 2 letters + corrected spelling papers) And wouldn't you know! Freddie would call just as soon as I got out of the house I did wanta go to the movie pictures
1942 Jan 18 Sun - Darling, you get A+ on "technique" - Gee, I'm glad you called. Mother conveniently retired when we came back from the show - Dark, still perfect. I think my taking things more LIGHTLY relieved Leonard a great deal.
1943 SAT I cleaned up the house (Eleanor furrowed into her room all day - tsk, on Philip's day off) I washed m'hair, pinned it up. Bill was over for dinner. He's had his pre-induction exam at Omaha. - Scrubbed, put on my pink ni. gown. read

JANUARY 15

1939 Sunday 10:42 (I wish Ray would come every wkend - Maybe I'd stand a chance w/ Rolf)
- I went noble + washed the dishes while the folks (+ Bill's + Jean's) went to a movie this aft. V + I went for a walk + nearly froze our legs it was so cold We stopped in for a cup of hot chocolate + Rolf talked w/ us
1940 Monday - I am utterly out - (Leonard + Bill) pasted pictures - took society shots - I had no idea when it came to really taking them - T. Dorsey and we didn't go - Couldn't have stood up.
1941 Day Desultory... At least I definitely was not crushed. Glenn Miller is playing S of Volga Boatmen. Tres swell. Had a simply crushing letter from Bob... Law... and not just a passing jag. I am now going to try + write him something encouraging. God knows what. Also Del + Jo - need replying to!
1942 Tres fatigue. Gave Design test - all day. So tired I could hardly finish dinner! Emil + Wilber + John were almost hi after their Zao test -
1943 FRI finished 4 posters... quite good. Leonard wandered in + affectionately pinched my knee once - fresh. I told him he'd better study his history when he wondered what there was to do this wk-end (DAMMIT). Cut out yellow p.j.s

JANUARY 14

1939 11:40 tonight we lost the b.b. game with S. Falls College! Tommy played hard he was fouled out, though ( I could still like him an awful lot) today (Sat) I cleaned the house, washed hair + me + mimeographed 500 post cards
1940 11:30 Margaret + I went to A. Wolcott. He is the acme of raconteurs + besides he's marvelous. I really wonder if it is we who pass + change + that time is constant... That the future is already laid out! - Spitznagel said he's thought he has a job in a ritzy new house in the hills!
1941 1- WELL, I GUESS IT'S LOVE; BUT I'M NOT INCLUDED IN THE SET-UP... FREDDIE FINALLY CAME THROUGH... HE REALLY THINKS HE'S IN LOVE WITH HER AND HAS GONE WITH HER ABOUT 2 YEARS (HE SHOULD KNOW BY THIS TIME) - STILL SAYS HE WOULD LIKE TO GO WITH ME, THOUGH. AND WHO AM I TO TURN DOWN A FELLOW LIKE HIM... BUT I SUPPOSE IT WILL BE PRETTY PLATONIC... HOW BORING-
1942 1:09 Well, Mother's premonition was right. We met Eleanor on the 11:55. She's sleeping with Mother - Emil + I talked + walked this afternoon. My God - I wasn't wrong; I'm sorry.
1943 1:15 VIRGINIA + I WENT TO Once Upon a Honeymoon. WE HAD TO SWAT OUT MY CORNER IN THE BUFFET; IT MADE ME FEEL empty, TOO... FINISHED A POSTER THIS AFT... PEGGY WROTE - SHE + DONNA WILL MEET ME, THANK Goodness.

JANUARY 13

1939 11:30 - Friday Read plays all afternoon. Saw 3 1-act plays this evening - or rather I put on make-up helped set the stage + qu'ed for them
1940 Sat. - Sometimes I think its all just a lot of pretending - E made me begin to wonder... Not that he didn't mean his "Leiden" sincerely but that rather his understanding made my enjoyment seem shallow by comparison...
1941 (DUMMY... HE WENT TO THE SHOW W/ HIS DAD; I DON'T GET IT!) - RIGHT NOW, IT DOESN'T SEEM AWFLY IMPORTANT - BEEN THINKING AGAIN. I'VE GOT TO DO SOMETHING. I CAN'T BE HAPPY WITH THIS KIND OF AN EXISTENCE... I'M NOT FREE ENOUGH... DEAR GOD, I HOPE I'M NOT TEACHING NEXT YEAR... MRS. R WAS SO SWEET; I CRIED, REALLY FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN HERE.
1942 1:00 Gave doozie of test in techniques [Leonard got 97.5!] - Went to a movie with Mother tonight D.J., Bernice + I saw Blood + Sand.
1943 1:15 I WAS RIGHT - Mother DID COME HOME... WAS SITTING UP WRITING TO R. HW'D (a GOOD LETTER, I THINK) WHEN SHE CAME... SHE IS WONDERFUL; IT WAS A GOOD THING SHE WENT. D WAS VERY ILL. THEY TOOK HIM TO THE Hospital... LEONARD DIDN'T HAVE TO READ TONIGHT AFTER ALL MY MISSIONARY WORK, too -

JANUARY 12

1939 9:50 Boy, did I last! I've never felt more alive than I have today... I talked with Mr. Eide half the afternoon. He is perfect. - I can't be quite platonic about him!
(E. paid $50 on my tuition - gee, I'm grateful)
1940 Fri Well, I spent my money - It wasn't as much fun as I had hoped... Because it had been so long delayed, I guess - Got some "flat" heeled brown spectators which I've wanted for several months.
1941 I WOULD GIVE QUITE A BIT TO KNOW RIGHT NOW WHERE FREDERIC IS + WHAT HE'S DOING - "STAG PARTY" - MY EYE - BETTY SAW HIM WITH THE BABE OVER AT REMSEN - MADE ME FEEL PRETTY LOW - WAS HE LYING OR NOT WHEN HE BROKE THAT DATE THIS AFT?
1942 12:30 Guess I'll sleep with Mother... Rooted around down town; bought a blue suit new shoes! - Made out test this aft. took me hours to type it. (L measured my new heels - just right)
1943 10:30 And I'M GOING TO BED - A RELIEF TO, FOR A CHANGE!... DIDN'T DO MUCH EXCEPT BUY MARG'S BABY A PINK SHAWL, MEET Virginia FOR LUNCH, GO OVER TO All Saints TO SUGGEST THINGS FOR REC. Room. EMBROIDERED "M" ON NIGHT-shirt

JANUARY 11

1939 11:45 Much tired, but feel much good. V + I talked much too late. Creative Wr. class + worked on paper. - Can I last tomorrow?
1940 11:00 I seem to be getting a bit more efficient... Maybe its an illusion. - but I'm still optimistic - cashed my Mlle check today.
1941 12- SLAVED-
EVEN WORKED
TONIGHT, AT
SCHOOL
FULL MOON- FOOEY
1942 12:30 Gee, absolutely balmy; distinct change (Maybe it will inspire me to change) Sara came over - considering Chicago. Eleanor is coming home, I can't quite believe it. Maybe I'll spend some money tomorrow. Went over to Calls tonight (Unexpectedly enjoyed myself)
1943 12:30 HUNK WANTS ME TO STOP AT CAMP Grant FOR A DAY ON MY WAY, [How AM I GOING TO GET OUT OF THIS one?] GOT MY CHECK, AT LONG LAST - SUPPOSE, IF I HAD SOME FORETHOUGHT, I'D HAVE HAD A BIGGER ONE... LOOKED FOR A COAT; NOT wild ABOUT ANY of 'em.... ELEANOR + PHILLIP + I ENJOYED A LATE DINNER - candles, wine, cigarettes

JANUARY 10

1939 12:00 - Carlson mentioned getting Scholarship to Dramatic School again - (If I could only go!) - 
And me with an 8 o'clock tomorrow (that's what comes of playing bridge!) I picked the 10 best movies of '38 for the paper today - lousy job
1940 11:30 Wed. Carp wanted to go to the show - But wonder of wonders I said it was too late (After creative writing) Dr. S met with us.
1941 12- PAUSE FOR JOKE - FREDDIE'S EX-FLAME WAS HOME FOR CHRISTMAS - THUS, MY ENTHUSIASTIC WELCOME! BLANCHE TOLD ME ABOUT IT, FINALLY AT THE PANTRY (FREDDIE HAD SEEN HER + ALLAN TUES!). I WAS REALLY RELIEVED TO FIND OUT THE REASON HE HADN'T CALLED... CAME HOME, WAITED UNTIL 7:30, THEN SETTLED DOWN TO A LONESOME WEEKEND - AND HE CALLED... SO DAMN GLAD HE DID... PLAYED RUSSIAN BANKED... HE TRIED SO HARD TO TELL ME ABOUT IT - AND I COULDN'T... I DIDN'T WANT TO
1942 12- finished tempera panel - painted all day; Felt lousy but it didn't affect me much. Everything is War dominated - much. It is too serious. Chils, Marie + DJ were over
1943 SUN 1:45 It is too bad we didn't talk with each other before - isn't it? ...I FINALLY FOUND THE RIGHT MOMENT + SAID WHAT I WANTED TO SAY - AND WAS GLAD I DID... IF WE CAN'T BELIEVE IN US now - WHAT CAN WE BELIEVE IN ? [WE saw G.W. Slept Here]came home after walking by D.J.'s - and then talked] DAVID CAME OVER THIS afternoon

JANUARY 9

1939 9:45 Not bad, for a Monday - finished Education Reports, typed a letter for Mr. Eide and applied for a job at Beache's - I heard "Mayerling" tonight (also went back to Philos)
1940 11- WELL - I HOPE FREDDIE HASN'T FORGOTTEN ME - IF HE HAS - WHAT THE HELL - VEGETATION WOULD BE PLEASANT - I THINK A VERTEBRAE IS OUT OF PLACE... HEADACHE WITH LEAST EXCUSE - HOPE I CAN SLEEP FOR A CHANGE - (NONE BUT THE LONELY HEART)
1942 Fri - Had 3 teeth filled - Oh joy - Gals all still locked in dormitory We discussed this noon w/ Krause I'm not as pessimistic as he is, anyhow. Hunk was over tonight.
1943 SAT I FELT terrible TODAY... CLUTCHED THE HOT WATER BOTTLE ALL AFT... WE HAD Bill C FOR DINNER [I ---N'T THINK I IMPRESSED HIM ATTAL] ... SALE ---ENT TO THE DANCE; I STILL FELT awful... BUT I THINK I MADE HIM HAPPY, ANYHOW... BUT I hope HE DOESN'T GET ANY ideas