MAY 29

1939 Monday Wrote Sh. Test from 8:30 till 12:00. Practiced on Art Room Walls. - Ray + I went out to Neptune + watched high school from till 10:00 - then Mr. Eide + I got some cartoons on the walls - Also went to Picnic + to Philos
1940 Wed. I am sick with disappointment and disgust. The Eddas didn't come and I started to have a marvelous time at the reception till M.T. had to leave + go r. skating! - I did so want to do something afterward too - (Gee, I wish I could go to the dance tomorrow)
1941 12:00 - Well, its over. Seems so odd to just shut the door on one 9 months - a whole phase of my existence - I've never had a comparable amt. of time go so swiftly... Everyone was so sweet -
1942 Fri We went over to the U. - very impressive... Joe Johnson "waltz-houred" up... That was fun. - We came home, ate early + saw the Male Animal - had a glass of beer
1943 Sat I picked up a cute little Ensign down on a park bench on Riverside. (He is so young!) I was eating an apple reading Collier. I accomplished a lot of shopping this morning... Got some red Whippersnappers. I think I'll like

MAY 28

1939 Sunday Read Shakespeare all day. Wilmer + Olga had us over for dinner - Ray didn't even call me...
1940 Tues 1:30 worked this evening on a paper for Mlle. Contest that was due today... It's stupid but I think I'll finish it anyway. Fooled all day... No T. paper
1941 Well, Tom caught up with me... It was ok. I'm glad I listened to him. I guess he does have some respect for me, after all. Corrected papers. Lorraine + Alberta helped me
1942 Thurs Martini's are a little too much for me - at least after a day of shopping - Bought some flat Spectators!... We rilly dressed up for dinner -
1943 Fri We went to a New Orleansy place for dinner - which was good. Then to Dark Eyes. (At which I was only moderately amused!) I lugged around the bunch of lilac every place

MAY 27

1939 Sat - 1:25 Wrote a test this morning, drawings + cleaned house when I got home, this aft. Folks went to Okijobie for the weekend. Ray + I went to a movie "Stage Coach"
1940 Mon. - Still no term paper accomplished I don't know what to write on... Went on a "Stripper's picnic" ate too much confided in Dorothy some more... Marguerite had to talk to me about her l. life.
1941 10 Utley, you nauseate me! Seems like every time I'm tired, my resistance is low! 
1942 Wed Got up here about 4:30 - Didn't get down to dinner until about 8:30 Style show... orchestra... table of ferrying pilots at the next table
1943 Thurs I guess I don't have much of a sense of humor. At least Mickey's brand of wit doesn't amuse me. I didn't like the way she badgered Inge tonight. Gladys + Donna came over. Stayed too long.

MAY 26

1939 Fri 10:30 - Feel awful
Fooled myself last night - went to sleep instead of studying - 11 hrs. - Studied this morning + tonight w/ M. Allan + M. Vercoe 
1940 Sun I think I just snapped out of jag phase. I hope its over... Went to church with Mother... All day practically, I've been thinking about the War. I didn't think it would even affect me personally, but it has. Out w/ Jake.
1941 Oddly enough, I've enjoyed myself today - Slaved from 7:30 to 6:00 1/2 hr to get ready. Really managed to look presentable - At least the kids thought so - Tom sent me 3 huge gardinias. Yes - I wore them - 
1942 Tues Well, we're going to Minneapolis tomorrow. Can't get too thrilled about it. Suppose I should go, though. Leonard could have said g'bye to me!
1943 Wed Marie Johnson's staying with me. I'm convinced she's quite mad. Quel naivete... she wants to get a librarian job w/ Pan Am. I ate late + by myself. Didn't mind.

MAY 25

1939 Thurs 7:30 Finished big cartoons today - I'm going to start studying!
1940 Sat I went absolutely wild today + last night trying to figure the Plymouth deal out... I finally sent them a procrastinating letter. Spence took me to "L. Russell" tonight. I don't think I'll go with him anymore.
1941 Feel pretty good - trying to rationalize myself outta worrying - Doesn't quite work! - I hope everything looks okay! - Hope a little bit of FUN - 
1942 Mon Gee, my legs rilly got burned - Killed me all day... Everybody saw L. but me today. D.J. said he was irked at not finding me home last night. We lay out in b. yard. Got cokes
1943 11:30 Donna Brown is staying w/ me tonight. We ate over at Barnard. Mr. Krikorian took me to lunch this noon... He is marvelous; maybe going to London soon... O.W.I job. He says ours is no longer a "business relationship"! - Here we go again!... He walked me back down 5th Ave.

MAY 24

1939 11:15 Honor's Day Exercises in Chapel this morning. - All School Picnic Ray + Mick + Marie + I went - I came back for Creative Wr. + I didn't have to read my play again! 
1940 Fri Wrote a stupid test this morning. Studied this aft, and wrote another one... I have 2 make-up assignments + my term paper + then I can start making up Art.
1941 11:30 "And this too shall pass away" I hope! - Too bad my last few days have to be spent in such a hectic fashion. Slaved all day - I do too much. Don't make the kids work.
1942 Sun Gee, I'm pooped. Marie + I lay out in the back yard this morning. Dinner christening at Landseths... Kids came after me we looked for Lefty. - D.J. + I + Marie went to Shanghai Gesture
1943 MON HM, FEEL almost HOOMAN, FOR A CHANGE! - AFTER ALL THAT sleep LAST NIGHT, WOKE UP LATE; TODAY was HECTIC... "DOROTHY" AND I FELT IT KEENLY! - WE WENT TO A LOUSY FASHION SHOW AT THE HOTEL N. Yorker. I STAYED UNTIL THE Bitter END. HAD A Bitter MARTINI. - IRONED tonight.

MAY 23

1939 10:00 I am really tired - Did about 5 of the big cartoons today. - Tonight some of the gals went on a picnic - I didn't get home in time to go to the show with Ray, darn it - 
1940 Thurs Planned to attend my last classes in College today, and they didn't meet! - Cleaned out my two art desks + got started studying for Teaching of Eng. Exam tonight.
1941 11:30 It's a matter of living through " the rest of it now - Wish I didn't worry about this deal so much. Thank God, I've taught my last class.
1942 Sat 3:00 (Oh Darling, I've got it bad -) Mister Payne called me for lunch, but I was meeting D.J. + Marie - We went to the dance tonight... Silly fun. Saw Auggie kids all over.
1943 SUN NO chance TO RELAX - I'M IN A helluva MOOD - ME Marie FOR breakfast (SHE TALKED AN ARM OFF ME) - WASHED MY HAIR, READ THE Times ON THE ROOF; NEARLY died OF FRUSTRATION WHEN 5 buses PASSED ME OOP... LOIS + SULLY + I SAW THE APT. (Gee, I HOPE IT WORKS OUT!) (I FORGOT my money, couldn't eat with em) Couldn't get to see Ballet

MAY 22

1939 Mon 11:40 - Everything is swell - The frogs are croaking outside - It is cool and breezy... I accomplished nothing except a new pair of shoes today - Ray + I read Ogden Nash on the lawn this aft. - tonight I was already for bed + he came after me his sister was going to ship a little collie to Nebraska. We went out of town + picked it up. It was so small.
1940 Wed All school picnic - ha! - Clara + I spent the day giving out on The Girls. We barely finished in time to read the raw product in class. It went over. Mr. K was quite overcome after class at our leaving (Clara + Me) - 
1941 11:30 Hold your breath, kid - I think we're on the last stretch! - Finally got all the place cards printed - Under pressure - Senior Class play tomorrow
1942 Friday At least I got a whole slew of clothes washed today... Emil enlisted in the navy... Wilber got his notice for a physical. Peggy got a job... Chuck Harris was on Make Island! D.J. + I went for a ride
1943 SAT We went to a Party thrown by the American Newspaper Guild... People were singularly unimpressive! - H danced with me! - not badly, either. - Carmen Amaya + a hypnotist - floor-showed. The apt. is beautiful. Lois + Sully are to see it tomorrow, I hope. Lunch w/ Donna

MAY 21

1939 Sun 1:45 - Exam 8:30 this morning I've been trying to write a term paper I started at 10:00 + finally just finished Ray came over this aft. + slept for 2 hrs!
1940 Tues Slightly hellish... I'm going to bed + try to sleep... I've been tired to death since I got through at Beache's - They called up this morn... I've been down twice today - stuff wrong, mixed up. Will it ever come out? Clara + I wrote   ha
1941 12:30 BOY, I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN LAST - IF I ONLY DIDN'T HAVE TO TEACH, IT WOULD BE OKAY - WORKED ON J-S AFTER SCHOOL, AFTER SUPPER; ON PLAY UNTIL NOW - 2 DAYS! 
1942 Thurs (Wonder why "we" didn't go to the dance with Bill + Shirley) Tried to concentrate on Gionenza - couldn't - due to no fault of Thomas Mann. I wrote a letter to Mr. Christopherson.
1943 FRI! (I knew it; Herman wanted to see "Storm in a Teacup", of course) We went to China which was quite bad - Golden Gate Quartet + Bobby Sherman's band - It rained enthusiastically today... I had a so beautiful letter from Leonard and a note from Mr. Krikorian

MAY 20

1939 Sat 12:40 - Up at school this aft. the fellows in the dev. dept took some crazy pictures. We had a lot of fun... Tonight Ray + I went to the Ball Game.
1940 Mon. 3:00! - Russ Morgan - really a perfect time... I think I had more fun with Mr. Spitznagel + Mr. Cole than with "Walter", however - I had too much of a build-up for him - He was nice + looked like Walter P. in the movies...
1941 11:15 - Maybe it's my stride I've been hitting these past 2 days... I fervently hope so... Or maybe it's just the pressure bearing down... At any rate, let's up it keeps up
1942 Wed Donna + I went to Joan of Paris. It was so good it hurt... poignant... Leonard came over while I was gone. Saw him this morning... Sweet.
1943 THURS Mickey + I went down + saw "La Boheme" + Storm in a Teacup... (which were barely worth the effort!) But we had fun.

MAY 19

1939 Friday 11:00 - Sara and I went to Marion Evanson's piano recital - The only thing I liked was Ravel - I feel bad
1940 Sun Played tennis all morning with Donna Jean... She beat me 3 or 4 sets; I finally took one... Spence took me to Abe Lincoln's Illinois tonight... He is really swell - but so damn unexciting
1941 11:30 Well I went to the LAST faculty meeting today... I can't say I'm broken up up about it... Maynard brought a snake with him. Long and awful. So I kicked him out. - Hm! 4 days of teaching!
1942 Tues Gee, me sitting on the stage - ha... Wore my green dress, too. I looked a little dignified I hope. I loathe its all being over - 
1943 WED I guess Herman and I had lunch together this noon! We usually do. Churchill spoke. Was out in the Market. Mr. W quite overwhelmed me!

MAY 18

1939 Thurs. 10:35 All this sleep is just too much for me. I am getting a habit. It's beautiful out doors tonight. You can see the lilacs + the dark garden 
1940 Sat. I was really hurt to think that I didn't rate well enough with the Webs to get asked to the society banquet... But I guess I can take it - there's nothing else to do! - helped D.J. pick out a coat - wrote with Clara tonight... Mr. Spitznagel called for a "date" Mon.
1941 12 - Sunday - For a change, I took Reeves' to dinner. - It was hot + windy - Didn't go to church worked on exam went over to school - Blanche, Dorothy + D rumbah-ed + conga-ed - I thought about Leonard. Wrote to Jo. Tom called
1942 Gee, what a wild picnic. Haven't had my hair pulled, my ears bitten so violently for a long time. WWW surprised me. Went to Alumnae Banquet w/ Clara
1943 TUES 11:30 Hell, both Donna + Mickey are deserting me. Donna's going home (as I thought)... Would Lois + Sully consider going in w/ me? today was fairly productive... H. School Boys badgered me; lifted my ego this morning. Luncheon this noon. Started Look Homeward Angel

MAY 17

1939 Wed 10:50 Well, I ground out the rest of my play + then I didn't have to read it! - My back hurts I don't know what's the matter
1940 Fri. - Went out to school... spent the day getting "adjusted" - to what, I don't know. There seems to be no place to begin... Went rollerskating with Jake tonight... Sometimes I almost like him... Yesterday I got my appointment to Plymouth --- ! 
1941 10:00 If I were home, I'd probably be out with Leonard! - What is going to happen there - anything? Tired got nothing done today. Bet I'll have to give up Plymouth!
1942 Sun Gee, Baccalaureate this morning. Granskow was marvelous. Leonard - sparks. Date. - We were both tres fatigue. But still too much alive
1943 MON 12:10 Not bad for a Monday! - I got most of my sketches... wore my red dress + no coat; was quite extroverted... Mrs. Stote says after working on a trade mag I won't have trouble getting a mag job. Hope she's right.... Rode down in Subway with Boo Fleet. Put $50 in the safe tonight.

MAY 16

1939 Tuesday 10:50 I guess I didn't do so very well - but I'm trying... I felt awfully dopey all day... I started "The Rest of the Way" tonight... Ray came over about 10:00 - He hasn't finished his Term paper!
1940 Thurs 12:00 Worked till 7:30 tonight... the production part of the book is really out of my hands now! I'm tired silly - I guess. Marguerite + I discussed our respective love lives over cokes tonight. - Enlightening discussion
1941 1:00 BOB WAS OVER; NO LEONARD... WE GOT DOWN HERE ABOUT 7:30... I GUESS IT WAS WORTH IT; HOWEVER, I WAS DEFINITELY DISAPPOINTED... I SAW JEAN... (HERE WE GO AGAIN) SHE SAID L. HAD BEEN OVER TALKING - WITH HER AGAIN. SHE THINKS HE'S CRAZY -
1942 A pretty lousy day, if I do say so. About the 7th Consecutive wk-end it's rained. Killed myself looking for a blouse for Peggy... 7:30 exam - ugh... Reception tonight. Fellas got back. Did you call while I was gone ? ? ? 
1943 SUN All I did today was read the Times write to Leonard, the family + D.J. (telling her to come to New York)... Ate breakfast enjoyably - with Ruth McCann and dinner (awful) at Child's tonight... Mickey's home + in Love. She says she's going to Symphony

MAY 15

1939 MONDAY 10:35 Thank God, there's always tomorrow. I swear that I am going to get to work + stay that way till I have all the junk that is hanging over my head cleaned up. - today I wasted completely. I am so disgusted with myself - Ray should have written his term-paper tonight
1940 Wed. 10:00 - Blah - I can really work up a good case of self-sympathy without half trying... I'm working instead of going on "Skip Day" tomorrow... No Soc. Banquet date... Bill hasn't called (Why should he?)...
1941 10:30 Maybe last night was what I needed to awaken me to a few things I know, at any rate, I should certainly be more careful from now on... After 2 hrs sleep + the strain I'd been through, I was just about neurotic all day -
1942 11:45 (a 7:30 exam tomorrow!) Gee, I wish that the receptionists job with Mr. Spitznagel would pan out. It's too good to think about tho. Made out my test tonight. John de P is probably mad at me for not going to Fantasia w/ him.
1943 SAT 11:55 Mr. Barkley called this aft. took me to lunch and we had a lovely time (Sherry + chicken) Played "Paper Dolls" this morning. Came home, bathed + collapsed. Washed my hair, went over to see Donna at Barnard for a while. Came home, read.

MAY 14

1939 10:50 All day I've been practically dying to crawl into bed. Here I am + am not drowsy a-tall - Eleanor's birthday + Mother's Day - We took Annie out to the park fried chicken - ice cream + angel food cake - + Bill + Ray + I went for a ride from 3:30 - 5:00 - tonight I was over at Helen's the 10 of us have fun - We discussed everything from who's to be married to white slavery!
1940 11:00 Tuesday, Another slow day - ...I haven't got my date for the society banquet - I suddenly realized! - hmm. - fine thing! - It's cold, the wind is blowing, I should sleep so I can get up + go to work tomorrow...
1941 5:20? Anyhow broad daylight. I don't think I can be quite flippant about this - For the first time in my life, my "virtue" was really endangered... I prayed to God and He gave the strength + the courage. 
1942 1:45  my God, what an Evening. Mrs. Lindseth had some wimmin over for Helen... It wasn't so bad after we escaped to the kitchen (Gee, I sound like a dirty snob!) Made outline out today. Leonard went to Rochester.
1943 FRI Oh Herman you make me MAD, sometimes. (I really appreciate LEONARD, believe me) We had steak - thick + good for dinner; saw Ethel Barrymore in the Corn is Green (It was!... I bought a little white Calot. Mrs. Stote had me get her one, too! - Got a slew of sketches.

MAY 13

1939 1:35 No more on Fridays I get a pay envelope - I quit - Georgia offered a good opportunity + I took it! I watched Ray play tennis this aft - He is getting too good for me - We went to the show tonight
1940 11:00 Wrote a lousy excuse of a letter to Eleanor - tomorrow is her birthday. - Worked all day + tonight. I'm anxious to get the damn thing done... I keep rationalizing one way and then the other about Bill - I wish someone else "interesting" would rush me like he did - almost.
1941 Oh God - Why can't the day have a few more hours in it... I suppose I'll have to say up half the night tomorrow getting those reports in! - I might as well go to bed now so it won't kill me
1942 12:00 Damn! - my class is over - why must it END? - Had a nice day - painted this aft. read H of Art - Worked on outline tonight. D.J. + I celebrated her raise + promotion!
1943 11:45 Felt quite extroverted today. Did well this morning. Got sketches everyplace just about... (Ha, Dorothy!)... Wore my black shirt felt like a fasciste. - Wasn't tired tonight Armand called me this aft. And came over tonight. He is an infant! But sweet and like Philip

MAY 12

1939 10:00 Worked this aft. Bought a new dress - plain cyclone flannel. (and no more money) We went to the school party - fun + stuff
1940 Sunday 11:00 Felt rotten most of the time today. - ...Eleanor called this morning Mother + I went to a tea out at school this aft... Clara and I started our play (ha)... talked about Bill - now I know he's not what I want All I feel is a vague sort of gaiety!
1941 11:30 Worked down at school after dinner cutting out life-savers! - The boys evidently appreciated my new girdle today. - Harley thought I looked "amazingly slender" - Bob thought I was "in very good form". tsk tsk. Such respect. - (And I love it, secretly)
1942 11:30 Floated most of the morning. About 3:30, began to FEEL it... Went to Maltese Falcon w/ J.J.... (Leonard, you'll still have to tell me the ending) Gee, it's RAINING again (I'll never get to wear my gr. dress.
1943 WED Finished writing what I hope was adequately reassuring letter to Leonard in answer to his beautiful, 4 page, but quite upset letter (on accounta what I'd said about Herman (?))... A coincidence - strangely - he had written it when Herman was proposing to me! - more than coincidence I think! Herman came over. We walked along the river.

MAY 11

1939 10:30 snokkered into my 8:00 at 8:15 this morning! Hugo still wants another oration out of me for next year (Kentucky?) But I didn't go to the meeting tonight - stayed home to iron curtains and now - Cymbaline (Ray called)
1940 3:00 Blah... I had a pretty mediocre evening - J.S. - Spence isn't a very thrilling date - even if he is S. class president... Clara hit about right when she said he had about as much S.A. as a cold potato. maybe it was because I felt awful and also because I was thinking about Bill... He called - I was very mean -
1941 12:00 - Well, kid, we're back to the innocuous mediocrity of it all again. - Finally got started on final test... Blah... We all had dinner down town - very nice (gee, I'm hungry, now) - Mother looked so pretty. Hope Wilmer can go to Chicago once more. 
1942 3:00 Darling, this was marvelous... Golly, I actually got to go to the dance, after all! Just being with Leonard reassures me terrifically! Maybe he's losing some of that undue respect for me. I hope so.
1943 TUES Was over to Lois's during the blackout. Smoked cigarettes, talked, drank milk, ate cake in the inter-rim. She's a honey. Wore my slacks over; ate dinner with Mickey. It was a wet, grey day. Why doesn't it SHINE?

MAY 10

1939 Wed 11:15 Walked 2 miles in 15 minutes when I made that Shakespeare C. this morning - Ray came over + we listened to "Lights Out" He held Eleanor's hand!
1940 Fri. Finally got a few pages "started" on my book... Went on a steak fry with Jake tonight. He has been surprisingly good... Bill did not call (Why don't I just quit thinking about him? - He was not out tonight I saw a light in his window - )
1941
1942 11:30 I reiterate Mister Payne, we WASTE time. Damn you - Why didn't ya call tonight? Just went to church w/ Mother + Dad + finished my green suit. Judged Photography Contest. 
1943 MON Herman says Scholastic is offering me the Art Job... I saw him after work today. - He is sweet... I'm really sunburned. Mrs. Stote was in this morning... I wrote to Wilmer + to Leonard today... After sitting on a Central Park bench, came home, wrapped Eleanor's gift... Called Lois C. + Barbara S.

MAY 9

1939 Tues 12:00 Drew pitchurs all morning (cut speech again) Saw Eide + S this aft. - Ray + I went to a moom pitchur tonight
1940 Thurs. I didn't see Leonard any more than just litterly - for a moment... I don't know... Worked today not on Edda - yet... I am very anxious to get on my stuff + get it over with... Bill called tonight - its just as well I was working... I might not have been able to stick by my resolution
1941
1942 1:00 (Gee, gotta get up + wash m'hair) Batted around down town + wore myself out - Bought another dusty-pink sweater. Got my shoes dyed green. And some makeup for me + m'legs + D.J., Shirley, Collins + I tore around - Tres fun. Saw Leonard.
1943 SUN 1:30 A fine, beautiful day. Got up and ironed clothes, read the N.Y. Times, took an extensive sunbath on our roof. Ushered at the tea, wore my grey dress in Herman came at 5:00 We sat by the river. Went to dinner at the Gold Rose. Went a double Feature

MAY 8

1939 10:45 Mon. Why must there be Mondays?Payed another $10 on my tuition still gobs left to pay. Ray called - 
1940 11:30 Wed. - I had lunch with Jean V. - She has let go something I didn't expect to hear - She is such It means a lot. I know now I can quit Bill - he means absolutely nothing to me.
1941 Thurs. another one of the same. All I care about is sleep. Must be an escape complex! Finally heard from Eleanor + got a card from Bob. He + Emil + Leonard maybe will be in Minneapolis - Just my luck
1942 Layout on campus all afternoon with Shirley - got slightly sunburned. D.J. + I mailed a letter (wrote to E) Gee, another week-end coming up -
1943 SAT Why oh why did I eat all that stuff? Ahh. Donna's birthday party at Barnard. I felt a little "older" - and was but enjoyed it... Knocked myself out shopping this afternoon. Gloves, blouse, dress, stationary, gift for Eleanor. Came home + washed all my clothes and my hair too. Ain't I a good girl?

MAY 7

1939 Sun 11:15 We had to work from 8 - 12:00 today rush job. I laid out in the sun from 12 - 1:00 - Played tennis this aft. Told Ray not to call this eve + then couldn't accomplish anything
1940 May 5 Sunday I had the day to myself to straighten myself up in general... Folks went to Sioux City - Bill did not call. It is damn lucky I'd made up my mind not to go with him if he did call) - Mother bought some furniture for my room yesterday - dated Jake.
1941 Existed
1942 12:20 (Hope you felt a little frustrated darling. I didn't very much) - D.J. + I went out + looked at the planes - big, olive drab bomber) Assimilated Emil, then R.H. # Wilber + Leonard - batted around - tired
1943 FRI Met Herman for dinner. We went to Toffenetti's for scallops... Then to Mission to Moscow... An excellent film... Then for a climax, a proposal. To which I could not accept and he knew it! - We talked + talked though. For the better, I think.

MAY 6

1939 1:30 Sat. Worked all day. Home. Washed hair - clothes - Tonight I saw "Union Pacific" with Ray. It rained - lovely Spring rain.
1940 Mon - Worked - had my picture taken for J.S. - ushered at Civic Music Concert. - A barytone who sang one Russian Cafe song that nearly tore my heart out.
1941 Existed.
1942 ? If I saw you often enough, maybe I'd get over you - then again maybe I wouldn't! - (Shirley read in Creative Writing tonight... She's a sweet kid, but she idolizes me too much) We went out to Billy's + danced - fun fun.
1943 THURS Had dinner with Lois + Sully at Klahe's... We had highballs first at the apartment... tsk tsk. Lois looks wonderful. She's swell. I took copy over to Mrs. Stote's... she is pale + wan. I adore her apartment. Walked over to Lois' after work... Fun today

MAY 5

1939 11:45 Marguerite's birthday We ate supper aver at Vercoe's - and talked - I certainly know a bunch of grand gals
1940 May 7 Tues - Worked 10 hrs. today. - Bill did not call - he is probably giving me ample time to regret my saying that I was not in love w/ him
1941 Academic tests. One time I was glad I wasn't a student Blanche was irked... ha... so was I... tonight we made nutcups!
1942 11:00 Gee, I hate to have Mother out so late - + working. It's cold + wet. Like to see the sun again. Leonard's going to petition to write that paper. (I'm glad) I've been reading Thomas Mann's Stories of a decade Clarifying + Confusing at once
1943 11:45 La de dah... Maybe we'll be living in an apartment by June. Gladys has a line on one. Gee I hope it works out. Met Herman for lunch. He was overwhelmed by my little ol' note... A little too much so. I meet him Friday... Mickey + I had soup tonight. Ate Good Humors. Blackout -

MAY 4

1939 11:40 Thurs. all the time I feel under a certain amt. of strain. - Mr. S. likes the stuff I've done/ But I'm going to have one helluva time getting those caricatures all in line! - 17 of the girls at school were on a picnic it was messy + loud + fairly fun
1940 2:00 Capitulate - B.C. I absolutely can't figure him out - I'm sure it's mutual. Evidently talking about it just makes matters worse. We went out to the airport + then to Elks' Club fun to a lousy beginning. Worked. Bought a new hat. (coconut straw) Ate lunch at F's + missed E.
1941 Dennis has ruined another perfectly good wk-end for me. I'm afraid this is just another case of Payneful suspense. Why is it I always want - in the worst way - the things I can't have. Allan had to use shovel again
1942 11:30 And Mother isn't home yet! And she has to Judge at Election tomorrow! Didn't touch very solid ground all day... D.J. + Clara + I went out tonight for a quick coke. Wish it'd quit raining *
1943 11:00 I don't really have any right to be at all nervous or tired - (I'm not now as much as I was) - A not tough day at all, rilly... But stayed till almost 6:00 again. Got a display story at Bloomingdales. Met Mr. Richmond... Gave + gave... sweet card from Herman. Glad he wrote it... going to bed!

MAY 3

1939 10:55 I am tired + dirty + feel dissatisfied with everything - I skipped creative writing to work on caricatures - Ray brought me home + I  ------- ! ! He felt swell
1940 11:00 I didn't go to work all day - Spent it cleaning up ad section which was literally a mess. I hope I wasn't too hard on Ross - But he's had 2 wks - Clara is so good to me.
1941 Anyhow, I went swimming today. PERFECT. Cold, tingly. 15 days of teaching school left. Had a date with Henry tonight. Never again.
1942 Sunday 3:00 Sara was home - she looked so smooth. After literally tearing me to pieces of disappointment + frustration, Leonard called - I felt shy + unnatural - for a while. Betty Boe was not included in our lengthy conversation.
1943 10:00 FINALLY A LETTER FROM DEAR Leonard... HE'S WRITTEN BOB + PEG ABOUT US - LIKE TO KNOW what HAD A RATHER DESULTORY DAY... WROTE TO MOTHER THIS MORNING, MRS. STOTE WAS ill... WE PUT THE BOOK TOGETHER LATE THIS AFT. - TILL six, IN FACT. MICKEY + I ATE UP TO THE SANDWICH SHOP. WELL... I'VE WRAPPED PEG'S PACKAGES. MUST GET TO BED early

MAY 2

1939 12:05 Tonight I saw John Barrymore - it was a thrill, all right. The stage seems more glamorous than ever - Ray was pretty tired. He averages 5 hrs a day work + with school, too. It is quite demanding. However, he managed to waste this aft. w/ me.
1940 Thurs. Bill is beginning to want a little more reassurance! He protested that he has committed himself so far + that I haven't said anything. I don't intend to. (I made him go to the Civic Theater play - I worked 7 hrs. today)
1941 What was that? (May 1 1941) tsk, what resolution, woman! Well, it did relieve the monotony, and it did do my morale good. (+ he did have to argue me into it 2 hrs.) + the wild western was fun... Washed hair, clothes, took a bath. I'm ready to work T. (dammit!)
1942 1:00 - Hell, again Sat night sans date gets me down, I'm afraid - I don't look forward to tomorrow. Thomas Mann to keep me company. D.J. + I went to a show.
1943 12:30 I think I enjoyed today very much. We went out to Mt. Vernon to see his sister - Margie liked me (I was actually nervous about the child's approval). We took a long walk about the suburb. - Well kempt. A little stuffy maybe. We didn't mention Peggy.

MAY 1

1939 10:35 If I can only get 8 good hours of sleep in! - I am cross + very stiff + tired - I wanted to get started on my caricatures but I had a lot of ironing to do tonight. Ray worked tonight so he could be off tomorrow night.
1940 Wed. - New complications. Jake is remorseful + wants to take me to the show Sunday. I refused about 3 times. I don't know - I guess I'll go. - Worked today for 5 hrs
1941 When nothing better presents itself, there's always the h.s. boys. Bob + Harley took me for a ride as I was coming home from school. Earlier Allan + I ran into Blanche w/ them! " could be easy taking. But not for me (Stick to that chum!)
1942 11:45 I'M NOT GOING TO LET YOU SPOIL A perfectly GOOD WKEND FOR ME, Mister PAYNE... JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE AT A PARTY WITH BETTY BOE (damn her) TONIGHT. OH NO... THIS IS THE PART WHERE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE TOLERANT + FAINTLY AMUSED. (I'm NOT...)
1943 SAT 1:30 WELL, WE GOT PEGGY OFF okay... I HOPE SHE MAKES IT BACK TO SOUTH DAKOTA... I BOUGHT HER A WHITE BATISTE NIGHTGOWN (AND one FOR ME) AND A BLACK HAT FOR A BUCK... WAITED FOR over AN HOUR FOR PEG + DONNA at THE GARDEN. WAS WORRIED SICK... PEG LEFT AT 4:30; DONNA AND I WALKED DOWN 5TH Ave... MICKEY and I MOVED FURNITURE, CLEANED, WASHED WOODWORK, windows AND CELEBRATED WITH WAFFLES. WASHED my Hair.