MARCH 3

1939 11:15 Mother + Dad aren't home yet - It has been snowing + everything is very still this morning - I didn't make my 11:15 class this morning - I drew all day. About 3:30 Del + I went over for coffee (I didn't see Tommy!) + talked for an hour. She worships Eide like I do I think. Mary was over tonight talking about hospital.
1940 - COME FILL THE CUP, + IN THE FIRE OF SPRING
Sunday - Egad, the luxury of a 
- YOUR WINTER GARMENTS DARK PENITENCE FLING
whole day of doing what I want to 
- THE BIRD OF TIME HAS BUT A LITTLE WAY 
Slept till 11:00 - And had a nap,
-TO FLUTTER- + THE BIRD IS ON THE WING!
this afternoon - I'll last, I guess.
1941 Monday 11 - work - work - work. And none of it means anything! - School till 6:00 - Back from 7:30 until 10:00. When am I going to write those plays? - Anyhow I'm not so bewildered!
1942 3:00 Wrote until 2:30... Don't know if More White is the Essence is good or corny. - We ate over at Eleanor's off her new china.
I'm booshed.
1943 WED 12:00 I think there could be many jobs worse than working up at Scholastic. Swell atmosphere. Mr. Mann (Herman!) took me to lunch. And I also have a date for Lady In the Dark (at long last). He likes my lay-outs, too!

MARCH 2

1939 Thursday 11:30 I just got through writing 5 letters - I feel a little noble (I hope I get 5 answers)
For a woman who was in love a few short weeks ago, I'm out of it (+ in it again) Tommy wore that purpley sweater of his today. He came in to see me
1940 Saturday 1:00 - Will we ever be finished? - I am very much disappointed... terribly disgusted and disappointed
1941 OH GOD, I NAUSEATE MYSELF... WHY DON'T I DO SOMETHING, INSTEAD OF CONTEMPLATE THEM? - DAMN - THINGS GET WAY OUT OF PERSPECTIVE WITH THIS ROTTEN PROCRASTINATION... IF I CAN JUST LIVE THROUGH THIS MONTH!
1942 Good Day - Well, busy anyhow. - Allan Werner + Lass were up from Le Mare... I went to Woman of the Year with Donna + talked at Blackfriar tonight. Bob came home w. me.
1943 TUES 11:30 FIXED ME UP IN GENERAL (BATHED during THE BLACKOUT!) FOR TO WORK TOMORROW AT SCHOLASTIC, FREElance ON A LAY-OUT JOB. MR. ROBINSON PHONED TONIGHT... HAD A dispassionate DAY. WENT TO AGENCY, EASTMAN. MY PICTURES CAME TODAY, finally. NOW IT WILL DO Leonard NO GOOD!

MARCH 1

1939 12:15 Tonight we saw the "Ballet Russe" Maxime and the Con Con were super. I feel very good about nothing in general... (Some of the fellas from school were in the Ballet) - Mother + Dad are still gone... I'll be glad when they are back...
1940 1:30 I know I gave every out-ward appearance of being licked today. For a while I really felt (tonight) I was ready to quit. - But now I know I can do it! - PERSPECTIVE
1941 BOB + LEONARD STAYED MUCH TOO LONG TONIGHT... I COULDN'T BEAR TO MOVE THEM... NOT SITTING NEXT TO LEONARD (DAMN HIM) WOULD HAVE GIVEN ANYTHING, HAD HE KISSED ME TONIGHT... HELL... DIDN'T SEE GRANSKOV... OR SPITZNAGEL...
1942 Well, I actually got a little writing done. Not enough yet to read Wednesday. Everyone was over for dinner. Would like to have had Leonard! - But then - Walked out to school. Moon
1943 12:30 HELL, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO SPOT A PUB. WE DID NOT GO TO Lady in the Dark I FINALLY WALKED OUT ON THE DEAL! - THERE'S ALWAYS A FIRST TIME, I GUESS. Registered w/ LUCY + HAUSNER THIS AFT... GOT 5 BEAUTIFUL FAT LETTERS THIS MORNING!

FEBRUARY 29

1939 
1940 12:30 Once every 4 years - Well, thank goodness for it this year - I think we will have stuff pretty well lined up - came home with 6 fellas
1941
1942
1943

FEBRUARY 28

1939 11:15 According to the lecturer I heard tonight, there will not be war. I hope he was right - I went down town this morning; bought some new things (also some pink wool anklets!) Ate lunch w. Eleanor  rehearsal... Found out that 20 is too young for the position at F's rather relieved
1940 12:20 Accomplished little - will this jag ever be over - Not if I don't do something it won't...
1941 FRI. GOT HOME ABOUT 6:30... MARY WAS WITH US FOR DINNER TOO... MOTHER + I TALKED ALONE TOGETHER I PERSUADED HER TO SLEEP WITH ME - THANK GOODNESS.
1942 Sat Ah luxury, no Sat. morning class on accounta L.A.U. - Washed my hair + clothes. Met Eleanor this aft. bought her a pr. of rugs. Went over to Donna's about 10:00.
1943 SUN 12:30 (...I'LL NEVER GO TO CARNEGIE AGAIN UNLESS I HAVE A TICKET!) EVEN TO HEAR THE Don COSSACKS. I WROTE TO SHIRLEY THIS MORNING. I FEEL SORRY FOR HER with ALL THE BOYS LEAVING... I WALKED 80 BLOCKS THIS AFT. OVER TO Evelyn Kilsen's AND BACK SHE WASN'T HOME!

FEBRUARY 27

1939 11:30 This morning Mother left with Dad She will be gone a week. I'll miss her a lot... I cleaned up the house and walked out for my class... Went home with Virginia for lunch. Marvelous baked beans - Went to play pr. twice (Still don't know my lines) to a show. - Heard Agnes Hyde review W.W. Rain tonight + I'm now reading R + J
1940 12:00 Tuesday My suit came today It was really a thrill... (It feels lovely) I meant to go to bed early but I seem out of the habit - Bob, Leonard + I worked tonight.
1941 (It's "better" this year, than it was last...) Well - I'm rarin' to go home tomorrow - I haven't got things ready - I intend to stay up tonight and finish those damn short stories if it kills me! - Bridge Club tonight - food - ugh. Everything I "considered" giving up for Lent has been tasted - Larry + Miriam tried to work on my
1942 Friday Okay, you go home at 11:00 - see if I care (you did trip on the last step, though - ha!) - We went to H.S. Flyin' High Mother had club today. Really rustled around. Bought jonquils. Sweet.
1943 SAT I WAS IN SOME SEMI-PRIVATE WORLD OF MY OWN ALL DAY... NOTHING SEEMS TO touch ME; SOMEHOW... DID MAKE A GOOD IMPRESSION ON THE MR. R. AT SCHOLASTIC, THOUGH. Mr. Steiner CALLED AND SAID HE HAS SOMETHING ELSE LINED UP FOR MY "ABILITY" - WE HAD DINNER AT Madame BONAT'S, I ATE too much, THOUGH... LISTENED TO BIANCA.

FEBRUARY 26

1939 11:20 Somehow, I think I will last through this vague agonizing vacuum of disappointments + responsibilities... I am still glad I am who I am... I still am stupidly optimistic enough to think that I will accomplish 95% of the things that are beginning to bear down... When I am too weak to think that, there's always the coward's way out -
1940 Monday - It would be so swell to have "cartoon" for the Edda - I hope it works out - Went out to school - aw nothing...
1941 11:00 (Rumbahs are certainly go - I can hear all I want of them now - one on now) - Whadaya know? - Actually utilized about every minute today. Gave tests. - Corrected until 6:00... Then from 7:30 until 10:30... Got PAID today - 3 more paychecks - (Then what?) - Lorraine + Alberta helped me they are sweet - 
1942 Thurs Well Eleanor + Philip have been transferred to ADVANCE Missouri. Mother feels terrible - But then maybe they will have to really depend on each other now.
1943 FRI I HAVE an interview tomorrow morning with the PUBLISHER OF SCHOLASTIC. AH DILEMMA... MISS Sacks KEPT MY POEMS (CLARAS) and kodachromes. I HOPE SOMETHING COMES OF IT! SAW Vogue + Glamour - WENT I. MILLER (WHERE I SAW SOME SHOES) MICKY and I SAW G.B. Shaw's MAJOR BARBARA

FEBRUARY 25

1939 12:45 I think I'm out of it now... for a while this day was just pure hell... I can't remember when I've been in such a suicidal mood... I woke up crying - (I kept it up spasmodically)... Sometimes Eleanor hurts me terribly... more so than she means, I'm sure... Tonight I sketched at the school Carnival. Nessa + I "caught up" with each other since
1940 1:15 Howard took me to epoch-al "G.W.T. Wind" - I completely lost myself in it... Marie + I tied for "typical" - She + Wyman will be it. I'll have a hard time keeping it quiet. Wish I could be a combination of Scarlett + Melanie
1941 Dammit - didn't get to go over to Haywarden. However, I was quite content to stay home + knit + talk with Mrs. Reeves - She still hears nothing from Robt. Hope he is okay.
1942 Wed It was Shirley Morgan's Birthday. I went down + bought a cake at Nash. Made coffee in the kitchenette. It was successful. Bill + Leonard helped me w/ the dishes.
1943 THURS (I HOPE MY CARD GOT THERE IN TIME!) WELL I PAID $10 ON AN EIGHTY-SEVEN $ COAT... WOW I'LL HAVE TO GET A JOB now... I'M PRETTY SURE IT'S A GOOD INVESTMENT... INTERVIEWED Mr. Stowell OVER AT ARCH. RECORD, WHO MAY GIVE ME AN in AT Glammer AND VOGUE... I FORGOT TO GET ME RATION-BOOK OF COURSE! - HOPE I CAN STILL MAKE IT. OI, NO MAIL (or male) TODAY. WASHED ME HAIR. TALKED RUSSIAN w/ LIZA

FEBRUARY 24

1939 12:15 I hate to walk home alone at 12 o'clock at night. I was plenty frightened when a sneaky looking coupe cut across the boulevard I hid in a driveway until I thought it had gone... I stayed home from school + read Shakespeare. 
1940 2:30 It's a vicious circle - I can't work during the day on accounta all the interruptions and at night, Howard heckles.
1941 A HELLUVA DAY, if I do say so... But did get a swell letter + etching from Bob - He seems very much adjusted, now. Thank Goodness... GEE, the futility of time - or something. I still believe in TODAY, but still can't speed up my activities to live up to my concept!
1942 Tues - Italian Renaissance in History of Art - What a headache
1943 WED I APPLIED AT RAYMOND LOEWY'S STUDIOS; THERE IS A possibility OF MY DOING SOME MURAL DECORATIONS FOR THEM! (IF I ONLY COULD!) ...MET Elizabeth FRAZER ON FIFTH AVENUE, FUN. LEONARD WRITES HE REPORTS FOR INDUCTION ON MARCH 6TH... WHICH HIT ME HARD, EMIL'S COMING TURNED OUT WELL, HE SAYS... I'M SO DARN GLAD... HAD FURTHER APT. with SCHOLASTIC, WHICH WOULD PAY $40 A WEEK! - Yipes! - WHICH IS darn good

FEBRUARY 23

1939 1:30 Today I applied for my "Social Security" number! - I sold 15 hats + got very tired of standing on my feet. I am thankful today is over! 
1940 10:45 It was foolish of me to be so upset all day... I was afraid to go over to the studio for fear of having to face Howard - Very Silly - 
1941 1:00 Here we go again, boys... Frederic + I saw Philadelphia Story (tres bon) most of the evening I was shy + self conscious + felt I was putting on an act all of the time - But not now, I don't think... ? ? ? 
1942 Mon We're doing etchings in techniques -
1943 TUES YIPES! WOULD I love TO HAVE THAT JOB UP AT THE NEW YORK TIMES, ASSISTANT TO Mr. Krikorian! HE WAS beautiful TO ME; SCHOLASTIC PRESS IS BECKONING. EASTMAN SOUNDS VERY CUT and DRIED, I'M AFRAID... J. WALTER THOMPSON IS OUT, I GUESS - SEEMED TO THINK I'D BE STIFLED... HAD 5 INTERVIEWS TODAY. SAW THE LADY Vanishes + NIGHTTRAIN

FEBRUARY 22

1939 9:45 I'm a little scared, I guess... tomorrow I "try-out" selling hats... first "real" job... I was restless + tired all day... that must have been quite a spill I took... I still feel sort of shaken
1940 4:45 It was rather inevitable, I suppose... In a way, I wish it hadn't happened + " " I'm glad it has... And I though Howard was so unemotional. It does complicate things.
1941 11:45 the happy (?) celibate I... (How do you pronounce that?) Made out test at least. Mrs. Reeves baked buns + cookies... We had "tea" about 4:00 - I typed at school, heard Wagner - wept a little weep. Leonard - Hell.
1942 Sun 12:45 - Donna + I saw the Man Who Came to Dinner even that couldn't take my mind off last night... I wonder if he thought about me...
1943 MON PEGGY + I HAD breakfast IN BED THIS MORNING; QUEL LUXURY!... ELEANOR writes I CAN HAVE A BUYER- DECORATOR job AT Donahue's... Gee, IF THAT HAD ONLY BROKEN BEFORE! I'M UP ON THE ROOF BASKING IN THE SUNLIGHT, HAVING washed MY CLOTHES + AM GOING TO GET CAUGHT UP IN GENERAL... LATER: ALL I DID WAS WRITE Leonard (I HOPE I DIDN'T SAY TOO MUCH) THIS AFT... PEGGY CAME HOME ABOUT 5:00... WE ATE + I IRONED and WROTE LETTERS TONIGHT... PEG CUTTING HER calories

FEBRUARY 21

1939 11:15 I'm just beginning to feel normal again tired + woozy all day... fell down after chapel + feel pretty stiff + bruised... It is icy as glass + cold as heck. I didn't accomplish a thing all day... Kept thinking about Tommy + last night I certainly was a dead beat... Maybe it was all that high powered competition that scared me out.
1940 1:30 - Ugh - I'm booshed - Helped Howard run stuff today - Marvelous Game I didn't even go home for dinner... Bob + I went to the Dance. Bill + L brought me home
1941 According to my horoscope beginning tomorrow new romance comes into my life! - I hope so. This celibacy is getting boring. Not that I haven't enough to do... but the urge to "get away from it all" is strong... Letter from Jo.
1942 Sat 2:45 I can hardly write about this... Seeing + talking with Leonard last week was a satisfaction. But tonight - although we didn't talk at all was certainly more satisfactory. But it makes it even harder now. I can hardly bear being away from him at all. 
(Cleaned up room, etc.)
1943 SUN I FELT unhappy THIS MORNING, STILL... BETTER, AFTER A SHOWER AND SCRAMBLED eggs AT THE DRUGSTORE. JARV and I TOOK A WALK UP RIVERSIDE AND LOOKED AT THE "PRAIRIE STATE" ... IT WAS A GORGEOUS SPRING DAY! THEN WE WALKED DOWN BROADWAY, EATING APPLES; I THINK IT WAS ABOUT THE BEST TIME I'VE HAD WITH HIM - WHICH HE cannot UNDERSTAND (...BOB + PEGGY + I HAD DINNER AT A FUNNY LITTLE PLACE NOT FAR FROM Columbia - THEN TOOK R. HOW'D TO THE TRAIN; PEGGY WAS STURDY.

FEBRUARY 20

1939 Monday 12:15 How many times I've wished for the opportunity I had tonight - a date with Tommy. I don't know what the score is. I wish I had a date alone with him. Then maybe I could figure it out. I don't think I'd be afraid of him anymore! Tonight was a little disappointing. I've had my chance; so what?
1940 11:00 Is this really me? - I'm in bed at this hour. I deliberately stayed home - in spite of cr. wr. class + in spite of the work I had to do! - I hope I'm dev. the transcendental viewpoint.
1941 Thurs. Thank God tomorrow's Friday. Like to be going home, in a way, but plan (at least) on getting more done by staying here... Did not get to go to Elk's dance (Damn Freddie) But enjoyed myself in spite of it over at Marg's + Dorothy's... Popcorn, Fudge, knitting -
1942 Saw Donna Jean... We went for a ride - Ate popcorn - Picked up Bill at Morrell's - Had a coke -
1943 SAT Oh GOD... I THINK I'LL JOIN A NUNNERY... WHY CAN'T I KEEP MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH MEN casual? ...AND WHY MUST Jarv ALWAYS DWELL ON CERTAIN SUBJECTS? WE MET BOB + PEG DOWNTOWN, THEN WANDERED AROUND AIMLESSLY, HAD A BEER, WENT DOWN BY THE RIVER... THE REASON FELT SO SAD WAS BECAUSE I ACHED FOR Leonard. BOB + I MET PEG FOR LUNCH AT THE HEARTHSTONE - HAD FRIED CHICKEN (SCRUMPTIOUS) ...TOOK THE FERRY OUT TO STATEN ISLAND AND SAW THE STATUE of Liberty - THRILL

FEBRUARY 19

1939 Sunday 10:35 Outside, the wind is yelling bloody murder... And I'm still hoping for Spring... Peggy had us over for tea this aft. It was lovely. She + Ginger went back tonight. 
1940 Mon 12:30 - I'm "developing" into a photographer. Ran stuff with Mick today on portraits. To be done over. Saw Peggy for a few minutes. Worked tonight. 
1941 Wed 8:45 Maybe I need a shot in the arm... seems so hard to get anything accomplished. Corrected papers downstairs... talked w/ Mrs R. Doctor ordered our usual nightcap. 
1942 12:00 All Saints for dinner. Roda Meyer is a nice Dutch gal. Very ambitious, and Quaker, too. Like Mike in some respects. Coffee in the drawing Room.
1943 FRI 4:00 A VERY LARGE EVENING indeed... INCLUDED THE RAUCOUS Rockefeller WHERE WE SANG LOUDLY AND LONG... THEN TO THE BARN DOWN IN GREENWICH VILLAGE... WHICH IS A MARVELOUS PLACE... I ONLY GOT TO DANCE ONCE, THOUGH... THEN WITH BOB (THEY PLAYED M SWEET EMB. YOU I PRETENDED I WAS DANCING W. Leonard) THEN, AS WE WERE LEAVING MY DATE HAD A RUN-IN WITH A COAST GUARD Sailor... QUITE EXCITING. WE WENT WITH PEG FOR HER LESSON THIS AFT. I FELT LIKE I WAS BEING CONVOYED W/ 3 ENSIGNS TOWING ME AROUND.

FEBRUARY 18

1939 2:20 - Peggy brought her room mate home with her this week-end. Marguerite had a luncheon for her. Nessa took us to dinner. Afterwards, we went to the show + then to Nessa's On a whole, rather dull, I guess. I've been feeling half wild  - Maybe I'm in love a little + not w/ Gary Cooper, either
1940 Sunday - 3:30 - Egad what a mess - If people weren't swell, I'd certainly be lost! - Leonard + Spence worked on Freshman panels...
1941 Tues Well, I guess the plays are going on the week before Easter... I hope they turn out okay... Hell, don't know when I'll have time to wok. Anymore (oh shut up, you're just lazy-) - Test papers - Short-stories - 
1942 Wednesday - 11:15 It's monotonous, I know. But Leonard seems to be more + more important. Creative writing was fun. Because we sat together + read our dialogue. It's damn cold -
1943 THURS BOB + I WENT TO Carnegie HALL. WE ALL ATE DINNER AT THE AUTOMAT FIRST... THIS MORNING BOB WAS LATE CALLING ME FOR BREAKFAST AND I WAS CONSEQUENTLY LATE ALL DAY... BOTH THE Eastman JOB + THE J. WALTER THOMPSON JOB ARE DEFINITE POSSIBILITIES. (HAVE FURTHER APTS. ) MET LOIS COWAN FOR LUNCH. WE WENT TO Chinatown. Gee - WHAT FOO-YUNG! ... (HAD TO TAKE A CAB!) SULLY GOT ME AN OPENING AT Loewy's!

FEBRUARY 17

1939 Friday 12:35 - and I'm in need of some sort of moral support - badly! - W. heckled me all day - I don't know if he deliberately tried to, but he certainly did a swell job. I think I'd rather go with him to the J.S. than w/ anyone! I sewed on my black dress.
1940 Saturday 11:45 Got about 5 panels pasted... I will have to do lots tomorrow. Howard is perfectly swell about stuff. I can't blame him... I don't give a hoot for the other guys, though...
1941 Mon. Still haven't actually any plays picked... All the good ones are "Royalty" - Sat downstairs and read to Mrs. R. ...Dr. gave us our usual "nightcap"... They are so sweet to me. Didn't hear from Gramskon yet ? ? ? ?
1942 10:45 Eleanor had us over for dinner tonight. She is really ecstatic. I'm so darn glad. We had a lovely dinner. Washed dishes. Should write to Michael... It's cold... Guess I'll read Test. Depressing Faculty meeting. Odd how - quickly I can forgive Leonard for anything.
1943 WED I DIDN'T GO TO ROCKEFELLER Center WITH BOB + PEG ALTHOUGH THEY SEEMED SINCERE ABOUT WANTING ME..  Lois WAS SUPPOSED TO CALL, BUT DIDN'T... WE ATE UP AT THE SANDWICH SHOP... I INVESTIGATED AN AD (A POOP) AND TESTED AT THE AGENCY - WHICH LOOKS SWELL AND THEY WERE KEEN TO ME; SAID I COULD LAND A GOOD JOB (I HOPE SO) WE HAD A GOOD DINNER AT Toffeneti's. WHICH I ENJOYED - BOB IS WONDERFUL. PEG IS CRAZY ABOUT HIM + I DON'T BLAME HER.

FEBRUARY 16

1939 Thursday 12:30 And again we have lost a game to S.F.! I feel terrible because I know the fellas were badly hurt about it. Tommy injured his leg. How badly, I don't know. Someone else hopes W. is going to ask her to the J.S. And is doing plenty about it (He seems to know I'm sure, at any rate)
1940 Friday. Still nothing to paste. Engravers called for copy - Fellow hadn't seen anything... I was furious. Met Paul Engles today... He was marvelous tonight. I hope fellas get something done. 
1941 Sun 12- A dull day, darling... Reeves are certainly lovely to me... Wonderful dinner... Meat balls, macaroni, salad, fresh rolls, butterscotch pie... Wrote 6 letters today - Demoralizing
1942 10:30 Nice Monday (imagine!) Bob + Wilber + I ate at Huddle. We all went to a tea in the Eng. Dept. We'll have to have one too, now! - Talked at a society tonight. Hope I can give a decent lect. Tomorrow... I'm happy, I think.
1943 TUES. MIGOSH, Bob DID COME; AND WITH Peggy OUT! I WAS glad TO ENTERTAIN HIM, THOUGH; FOR A WHILE... HE SAID Leonard WANTED TO COME BADLY! I DIDN'T GO OUT TODAY EITHER. IT'S STILL COLD. PEG CAME IN, STARRY eyed...

FEBRUARY 15

1939 Wednesday I've almost finished the Book - It is bitter + hard. The day was quite awful... the good looking salesman I was in love with yesterday has an equally good looking wife! Such luck... (And he had the longest eyelashes!)
1940 Thursday 12:00 This morning doom cracked but it sealed up again - Ran around + helped Howard all day... Radio Skit with C.J... Ushered at C. Music Concert... D.J. + I ate pistachio nuts
1941 Sat. 12:45 - Hate to admit it but a dateless Sat. night is a little demoralizing... Or maybe it's just I'm used to the idea of having one... Spent energy + time cleaning up my class room
1942 ! Here we go again. We really talked. (Now, I don't know if hashing everything out is best or not!) Anyhow, I'm immensely reassured! - Gee, he actually intended to explain. Incidentally too bad I sopped it. we walked in the snow. He's talked as much as I think.
1943 MON (MIGOLLY I FORGOT TO RECALL THIS THE TOO LONG LETTER I JUST WROTE YOU, darn... ) TODAY WAS DEPRESSINGLY cold,  I JUST VENTURED OUT TO EAT and THAT'S ALL. I DID WRITE 3 FAT LETTERS OF APPLICATION, THOUGH... DONNA CAME OVER FOR A WHILE; PEGGY BROUGHT HOT CHOCOLATE HOME... WHICH WE JUST FINISHED with THE REST OF THE COOKIES Betty SENT HER.

FEBRUARY 14

1939 Tuesday: Stayed out at the dorm tonight. I baked the girls a cake instead of giving them valentine... We ate that + lots of other stuff. I had my fortune told - she did a good job there is a star on my fate line I feel full of candy + coke
1940 Wed 2:30 - Low Ebb - Will it ever be over? - Howard, Marg + scheduled pictures... I stayed w/ Marg... Had a run in w/ Hofsted over proposal for Edda amendment... I know its worth fighting for
1941 Friday! 10:15 Grim... Grade School operetta... Poor Mary, I'm glad I don't have to put on something like that... But Egad, when am I going to get those plays picked out? - 
1942 1:30 Leonard sent me a rose - Isn't that touching. Nuts. Wasted whole aft. w/ Wilber + Bob. Went to How Green Was my Valley with Lee tonight + the Lofthus. (L's date of Thurs broke up w/ her b.f. of 6 months.)
1943 SUN. 1:00 Wrote to Eleanor, did my layouts phoned Lois Carvan and went over to see her; she is wonderful + encouraging she kept my kodachromes to show someone. Of course I went to the wrong subway station. Its COLD! 

FEBRUARY 13

1939 Monday 10:00 I am alone in the house. Outside a cat is singing a wild duet, with the wind. I feel suddenly lonely and almost afraid. I wish I had more courage. Today Krause's book came out. It is here on the table beside me, waiting to be read...
1940 Tuesday 10:30 - Although I went to sleep for a while on the davenport, I am infinitely exhausted... In a way I feel much the same as this day last year; but lonely in a different sort of way + older.
We finally heard from E.
1941 Thurs. 12:00 - It was winter again today... Am rather happy... Chopin on radio... I just got a... out of my eye... had a date w/ Freddie... purely platonic... We have to have a few drinks to feel romantic, that's a cinch...
1942 Fri Leonard wasn't in class because he'd been to the Morrell party last night. Cliff fixed him up w/ some Babe! - Makes me feel wonderful - Went skating tonight had a really sooper time - Peggy's swell.
1943 SAT JARV TOOK ME DANCIN' tonight AT THE "RIALTO" - A LATIN BAND PLAYED - QUEL FUN TO DO A CONGA! - A RATHER wild PLACE, though... HE IS A LITTLE FAST FOR MY League... BRISK THOUGH! - TEASED ME ALL EVENING - HAS HAD A LOT OF experience... I GOT A reply from one of the letters... Scholastic Press... advertising l.o. Got lost in subway... Ended up in Harlem

FEBRUARY 12

1939 11:20 - Sunday, Nice Lazy day. Sewed a little ate Dinner went to a movie, over to Helen's (talked w/ Margeurite most of the time) study + now bed
1940 Mon. 1:30 - The suit came into Mary's to-day. - It is quite attractive... I stayed out to school to make a sketch for the window... Marg ate over here. 
1941 11:45 RAINY - RAINY - GRAY - NICE - SLOPPED DOWN TO PANTRY GOT MY HAIR + FEET THOROUGHLY SLUSHED... GOOD FOR THAT TUBERCULAR COUGH OF MINE... DON'T FEEL SLEEP... SAW HIENRICH -
1942 Civic Theater Play. Mr. + Mrs. North know damn well Leonard's out (who?) Poor D.J. - she sat right next to Sid + his date!
1943 1:15 WONDERFUL LETTER FROM Leonard... I'M MORE IN LOVE THAN EVER, I'M SURE... I CAME THAT CLOSE TO GETTING THAT MODELING JOB - SUCH A GORGEOUS PLACE! AN ENCOURAGING experience, HOWEVER... THEN UP TO SEE Mlle WHICH WAS EVEN MORE ENCOURAGING... MISS SAKS WAS WONDERFUL TO ME... TOLD ME WHAT PLACEMENT Bureau TO GO TO + EVERYTHING... HEARD PEGGY TODAY (TAKE HER LESSON) ... MAY SING AT Stage Door

FEBRUARY 11

1939 1:30 Didn't get around to sewing at all. - Virginia came over this afternoon. Tonight 6 of us went to the "Dawn Patrol"
1940 1:30 Sunday Ha! - finished the dummy - at long last... Drew from 11-4 - from 6-1 - At last I'm done...
1941 10:30 - Phooey, I'm going to bed... However, I still have good intentions... Have a little more than 3 months to accomplish things... (RADIO... HITLER, MUSSOLINI CONFERENCE...) Wish somebody'd snare them both at once. Party for Mildred at Franklin... B.B. Game (Freddie?)
1942 10:15 Was sick all night, practically -Felt better this afternoon... Designed the M. of Venice sets. Case drives me wild... Ruth Nelson coffee'd me over at the Huddle. She's swell. Kay J. has been complicating her life. Went over to the 
1943 1:15 WENT DOWN-TOWN, MET Peggy AT ALTMAN'S WHERE WE FOUND A SLICK red DRESS FOR HER; IT WAS RAINING, of course! - I BOUGHT A NEAT RED UMBRELLA... I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO APPLY FOR THE MODELING JOB... WE ATE SANDWICHES AT THE DRUG STORE (WHICH I'M GETTING SICK OF-) AND I WENT TO THE concert AT CARNEGIE HALL... DEEMS TAYLOR TOOK A BOW... LOTS of INTERESTING peepul. BEETHOVEN in A Major.

FEBRUARY 10

1939 12:10 Friday (Thank Heaven) I have another cold! Another 15 degree below day. - Had to use the tunnel once someone turned off the lights. It was awful - I cut out + basted up a dress tonight.
1940 Sat 2:45 And so I went... And even forgot to leer. Mailed P de P today. I am disappointed in myself I had really intended to do justice to those questions! I must watch myself w/ Spence
1941 Strangely enough, I did live! - Live to be disgusted with myself... Have doped it out that all I want is what I can't have... What I can have, I don't... That's all that's the matter with me... Have a lot to learn if I'm going to accomplish things. - Hell
1942 Just finished dialogue for Cr. Wr. - Hope I sleep - This new time is confusing. 
1943 11:05 WROTE 5 LETTERS OF APPLICATION; HOPE I HEAR FROM THEM... OVER AT Barnard IN DONNA'S ROOM.. GLADYS BORROWED A typewriter FOR ME... I ATE LUNCH WITH THEM... PEGGY DIDN'T HAVE TO USHER TONIGHT, SO WE HAD A WONDERFUL EVENING TOGETHER... I TOOK A BATH WHILE SHE WASHED HER HAIR. THEN I SCRUBBED HER BACK... JARV. CALLED TONIGHT... DATE SATURDAY. TREPIDATIONS.

FEBRUARY 9

1939 9:50 I lay in bed from 7 till 7:30 this morning deciding if I should go to my 8 o'clock class. I went. At 8:30 Hugo greeted me very pointedly. I ate lunch with Jean + Phil over at the Red Hen. (I seem to have an awful appetite these days. I'll never lose any weight at this rate) I think last night was good for Eleanor - She told me all about it while she took her bath. I guess she can take care of herself.
1940 1:30 ha! I'm going tomorrow night! I'm really glad  -I'll leer inwardly at M.E.! - Struggled with U. P de P - ugh - Spence, Carp + I worked till so late on the F. Ball programs for tomorrow - we walked home - fun. 
1941 3:45 Here we go again... But I think F. had the guts to break this off. His wish is honest, and I respect him in spite of everything which happened tonight... Can I live through tomorrow?
1942 11:30 The rest of the world went on Daylight Savings - but me. I overslept. And if I don't get to sleep I'll do the same tom. Wrote a long letter to Blanche - Eleanor + Philip were over  - Happy. I'm thinking about Leonard too often -
1943 10:00 PETE CAME IN TONIGHT, SO PEGGY'LL BE LATE. FOUND A LOT OF KEEN ADS IN Sunday TIMES - I SHALL ANSWER THEM! VENTURED DOWNTOWN BY MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY... GOT AROUND OKAY... WALKED UP 5TH AVE + DOWN PARK... STOPPED AT ST. PATRICKS - IT WAS WONDERFUL. 
SAW A FREE FRENCH OFFICER.

FEBRUARY 8

1939 Wed 11:15 The Day Hideous. Worked eons on a poster to have the screening come out fuzzy. I could have cried. Eleanor is out w/ a married man! Horrors what have we come to? 
1940 Spence said I would probably get an "invite", but none seems to be forthcoming! - Sara, Marg + I went to "Call it a Day" C.T. play. I'm dying to be in one.
1941 11:00 Dammit! Saturday's gone... I had 4 drinks 3 over my capacity... Done up remarkably well, though... Freddie + I had been talking "etc" - until pract. now. Gee, he's sweet. I've got to watch out I don't fall in love with him!
1941 Only it's her husband, this time! - Gee, everything went lovely... Eleanor is really his now. Which is as it should be. They went up to Sioux City. Margeurite + I saw "Johnny Eager" - And talked. I am garrulous
1943 MON 1:00 I CAN'T IMAGINE why I'M SO DIZZY - PROBABLY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN EATING right... L. SENT ME THE LAST 2 COMIC STRIPS FROM FLIDCORKIN - AND I HEARD FROM Mother... PEG + I ATE AT THE automat AND WENT TO Carnegie Hall...

FEBRUARY 7

1939 Tuesday 10:15 Horrible Day worked on Poster wrote a Fashion Column for Mirror Coughed all through Speech Class cold sores are depressing...
1940 Wed (2 fellas called + I wasn't home - ) ... And every bit as miserable this year only more "mentally" - I can't seem to work when I'm 'emotionally upset" (mad at somebody) Finally got  to work about dinner time - saw end of the game 
1941 12 And thank - God - it's Friday - Again! Helped Candy at B.B. Game. Day was vague and empty. Tried to get at Larry again. I wish I could help him, so to Jo -
1942 Sat. Eleanor's putting her hair up - Gee, makes me feel funny to know she's really going to start out a whole new existence, really. God, please let her be happy. She is one gal who deserves it.
1943 SUN 11:30 SLEPT LATE. READ THE FUNNIES JARV. BROUGHT FOR ME... HE CALLED JUST AS I WAS taking  A BATH, of course; WE WENT TO Arabian Nights IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD... HE CAME IN. Actually THOUGHT I WOULD LET HIM KISS ME IN THE PARLOR tsk tsk! I WROTE A 4 page LETTER TO MOTHER - ABOUT TIME. PEG + I WENT TO TEA - WHICH, with a NUT SANDWICH, about COMPRISED MY EATING FOR TODAY...

FEBRUARY 6

1939 10:55 Mon. Slicked up the Art Room this Morning for a meeting Planned Poster Lay Out for artist S. (-50 posters out tomorrow) Wyman got it for President (If he'd only take me to Fr.Sr.)
1940 Tues. 12:30 - Jam Session today and G.T. said he couldn't play jazz! - It doesn't look as though I were going to the f.l. banquet
1941 Thurs 10:15 - Groggy all day... Practically passed out for a couple of hrs after dinner - took a bath wrote to Mother. Now, I hope I can sleep
1942 Fri Barbara Davies read Claudia for us tonight * Gee, convincing! Leonard did his fresco * Had lunch w/ Davies at Choc. Shop. At the tea this afternoon - 
1943 SAT 3:00 MY FIRST DATE IN New York... WE SAW IN WHICH WE SERVE... JARV LOOKS SLIGHTLY lupine PROBABLY IS!... I SLEPT LATE; DONNA + I MET PEGGY IN FRONT of the ASTOR. I TOOK US TO LUNCH... PICKED UP MY bag AT Penn STA. WENT TO A TEA DANCE FOR Midshipmen. AND WAS GRATIFYINGLY POPULAR... IT WAS FUN... WE TRIED THE Astor BAR, AFTER THE SHOW, ENDED UP WITH BEER AND salami SANDWICHES, TALKING ABOUT everything

FEBRUARY 5

1939 Sun 10:45 - If I wake up with pneumonia tomorrow it's because I washed my hair today - cold + all. - It was worth it. All I did today was start my oration + knit - 
1940 Monday 11:30 - Designed 1 page at least - I think it is good - title page. I'd better speed up. Gregory Tucker is "on campus" Met him today. Okay Joe. He played tonight
1941 Wed THANK GOODNESS BRIDGE CLUB... I THINK IT IS ABOUT NICEST THAT'S "BEEN HAD" - (SUCH CONCEIT) ... VERY COY VALENTINE THEME, THE RASPBERRY SHERBET WAS SO HARD, WE HAD TO "CARVE" IT... HENRY CALLED. - FREDDIE CALLED.... UNHAPPY ABOUT SOMETHING - VERY TIRED... HOPE I CAN SLEEP -
1942 Thurs Sara hasn't called. I suppose she's left for Chicago, though - 2nd time I've stayed home this week! Tsk. Tsk. Got in on Sets + Costumes
1943 FRI LATE WE GOT IN ABOUT 11:20... DONNA ME ME ABOUT 12:30 SEEMED GLAD TO SEE ME; WE GOT ME ENSCONCED. I HAD LUNCH + DINNER WITH HER AT Barnard; WASHED MY HAIR AND HAD A beautiful BAWTH... RESTED A WHILE... SAW CAMPUS OF Columbia U... PEGGY IS 10 POUNDS HEAVIER, BUT RADIANT. I HAD A SPECIAL delivery WHEN I CAME - sweet. PEG HAD WORKED all DAY.

FEBRUARY 4

1939 12:00 Saturday. - Feel Rotten - Lousy. Should have stayed in bed - But when I should I don't want to. Went down town with E. + caught more cold...
1940 2:30 - Spent about 12 hrs. over a dr. board, and I still haven't really started that damn "dummy"! - There was a horrible 3 column cut in the Sun. Ed... Egad, you'd think I won the Prix de Paris! - (If I only could just place in that!)
1941 11- THOSE KIDS CAN CERTAINLY BE HELLISH. WISH I HAD BEEN RUGGEDER - HIENRICH CALLED - NOPE - I'M NOT SURE I WANT TO GO WITH HIM. ANYMORE - RATHER [HONEST] HE WERE "PLATONIC"... WENT TO BLANCHE'S PHIZZ-ED CLASS THIS EVENING - 
1942 12 Dammit 8:00 class tomorrow - (Next week'll be worse!) It was odd this morning I felt suddenly angry for really no reason at all + Both Wilber + Emil felt it right away. Though I'm sure I didn't show it! - Creative Wr. Took Mother + Eleanor to dinner - Wilber brought me a coke
1943 THURS 1:00 or so WENT DOWN with SARA THIS MORNING. KNOCKED MYSELF OUT LOOKING AROUND - AND FOR - Fields... MET SARA FOR LUNCH. WENT OVER TO THE Art Institute WAS GLAD. O'KEEFE SHOW + FRENCH SHOW - I COULD RECOGNIZE A GRATIFYING NO. OF THEM. GOT ON 3:31 TRAIN WITH NARROW MARGIN... ATE with Olaf GAL - SOMEONE BOUGHT US DRINKS. I TALKED ART WITH A LIEUTENANT intelligent.

FEBRUARY 3

1939 9:50 Right now my one aim in life seems to [be to] wear out this cold - (I thought I never had colds!) - This afternoon I revised + re-typed my story for Krause - (I don't think I'd be a successful writer of short stories) Heard Orson Welles in l'Anniversaire this morning! I really enjoy it... But I was so tired that about all I did this aft. was just barely get started on some posters for Eleanor - went to a game tonight. - Spence asked me to go to a C---
1941 2:30 WELL, MONDAY'S OVER... I WAS IN A STUPOR ALL DAY... GOING TO REFORM. STAY IN NIGHTS... SLEPT FOR ABOUT 2 HRS AFTER DINNER TONIGHT. GOING TO GO BACK TO BED + FINISH THE JOB NOW! 
1942 11:00 Gee that was an awful lecture in History this morning. Babe, we're going to have to do a lot better than that. (If Wilber's going to keep coming) Stayed home tonight! Eleanor + I bought her wedding dress this aft. ordered cake + stuff
1943 WED. I CAME OUT BETTER THAN I EXPECTED - HELD MY "FIRE" UNTIL AFTER TRAIN PULLED OUT Leonard WAS SO TERRIBLY sweet - BROUGHT ME YELLOW JONQUILS, EVERYONE WAS DOWN AT THE STATION... EIDES, ETTA, JOHN, BILL, BOB, SHIRLEY, CORRINE, JOHN, MOTHER and ELEANOR AND LEONARD - BOB. H. GOT THERE IN TIME TO KISS ME GOODBYE - BUT good. LEONARD GRABBED ME AGAIN... I WAS GLAD. AND DIDN'T CARE WHO SAW... MR. SPITZNAGEL GOT ON AT CANTON. I COULD HAVE CRIED ALL THE WAY INTO CHICAGO... IT WAS AN ACTUAL AMPUTATION...